>>33273011
I guess I was never really happy. But about 5 months ago the breakup of my 5 year relationship sent me down even more. I was trying to grip to something, but I kinda slipped. The alcohol and substance abuse recently brought me to a new low. I made my mom cry, because of my shitty handling of my life. I don't know why I'm doing it. But I can't do anything else. I usually don't feel anything, but on some days like today I feel, but I only feel pain, regret. I don't know how my story will end, but now it looks like it wont be pretty, like I might just jump off a bridge someday. Maybe some people are just doomed from birth.