why is simply existing such a pain.

>>82067534
>but if u don't try u will regret it even moar!
i guess so. i feel like no matter what i do it always ends up in regret anyway.
>i feel like i am disconnected form most humans
i mean i feel the same and i think a lot of other anons here do too. in way this disconnection lets you connect with other type of humans though right?
>>82069179
>I see no point in keeping up appearances
im not just keeping up appearances, i genuinely wanted you to listen to the songs i sent you and i genuinely enjoy talking about music. we dont need to be friends for that. and also, would it really feel better if i just ignored you completely whenever i dont know what to reply? i think that will hurt you too and i dont wanna do that.

went to a grill "party" at one of my classmates house. was an enjoyable time, had some really tasty meat and a great cake. drank some good wine, had some good talks. even one of our teachers showed up, she was very friendly, even showed me some places where i could work at. (which i applied to) sadly we wont have her next year...
what is everyone else doing this saturday?

>>81562737
>What's the weather like today?
its a bit better now. around lunch time it was about 30 degrees with 60 something humidity iirc
>>81563554
its a step towards the right direction anon.
>>81563775
>which one do i believe?
...probably not your dad
>then good times r surely guaranteed!
unfortunately, nothing in life is guaranteed to happen. not everyone gets tough enough, not everyone is able to make something out of their suffering.