>>33784336
I don't really feel any compulsion to give a shit about anything in life.
I'm supposed to go work on my family's homestead next year and build it into a generational thing, but I don't have kids and probably will never find a loyal partner. Besides the fact that I just don't care about any of anything at all whatsoever, of all time.
I've been spending all my free time staring at the ceiling because I just don't give a fuck.
Try jacking off sometimes but I just don't find it interesting anymore.
Try to workout but I just don't give a shit.
Try reading but who the fuck cares.
Try going outside but what's the fucking difference.
I have access to a gun but I don't really want to leave my family with the mess, and I feel obligated to go work on the homestead.
>Stats
26, Male, 129 IQ, blonde hair, blue eyes, well read, travelled everywhere, worked a lot of jobs, 168lbs fit, not shredded but alright I guess.
Just don't care about anything, no emotions, no goals, no values, just floating in empty space.
Is there a better way to kill myself that it won't fall back on my family?
I tried making mustard gas once but all it did was make me throw up blood for a day.