>>33488617
Im insanely depressed & hopelessly despairing. She has deprived me of touch for 4 years. I probably look fucking pathetic to the outside world. I thought she was a bit autistic like me, which is why i accepted the slow moving relationship. No, FUCK THAT. I need to feel SOMETHING. Im drowning right now, and i need to pin her down and fuck the horny out of her. I HAVE NEEDS AS A MAN. I fucking bet shes been getting fucked behind my back this whole time. Wtf am i even doing still being with her? All she does is fucking break my soul into pieces, and its messed up because i cant tell if shes actually pure, but a bit anxious, or if shes lowkey a semen demon & has been humiliating me this whole time. Fuck my fucking life. I cannot do this anymore. Anons, 4chan, i have been browsing her since 2014. I've never made any friends from here, but i've been a faithful lurker & a responding watchmen to other anons like me. I genuinely, wholeheartedly believe that im in my final days. Im too dumb to pick up a new shtick, and too crushed to continue forward. I dont document anything in my life, but i hope this last post on here, atleast 1 person remembers it. I tried so fucking hard in life. I beat impossible odds to just even be alive today, but it was too fucking much. I wish somebody would hold me. Fuck me i need to be held so badly & be told its going to be okay & FOR ONCE IN MY MAN LIFE BE OKAY WITH BEING VULNERABLE & COME APART IN SOMEONES ARMS. Idk if i can do that with my gf. She'll probably get the ick. But, my plans these days, are just getting a simple part time job, so i can pay off my debts, and save up for a gun & a large bottle of vodka & a weekend stay at a hotel, where i'll blow my brains out & finally be at peace. Jesus fucking Christ i did not know a life could be riddled with so much pain & suffering.