>>40961933
I'm rooting for you, Anon. Feel free to keep us posted about your progress!
>>40959557
Overcoming social anxiety is a difficult thing, and the question is, especially that you are homeschooled, what your current situation is exactly. I assume you wouldn't be able to pursue a career or move right now as things are but I am sure you plan on those things. Negative evaluation is immensely scary to you probably because of your past experiences, but that like social anxiety will slowly die down as you make new experiences. Here's a QRD for things you gotta know in advance:
1) you will feel guilty/bad for no reason a lot. It means it's working, sadly.
2) whenever you feel like retreating, do not do it for too long. It must have a hard limit, otherwise resting becomes self isolation and THAT is dangerous.
3) A lot of online friendships don't work out because most people don't vibe amazingly with most other people. This is not about you being broken or wrong, it is the default experience. There's billions of us and each of us can maybe juggle a few hundred at a time.
4) sometimes you will regress, it's part of the process, the trick is to realize that and ring the alarm bells, for example speak up here.
With all that said:
>The internet should be my pathway to social interaction, but I have avoided it there too.
do you already have online places where you would like to contact people?
Do you also have places IRL you wanna look into?
>>40962538
>Certain cumulative events in my recent life plus the unevenness of my own
Mind going into detail?
>>40962458
Reasonably well I suppose, but I needed a lot of rest