THROUGHOUT EACH DAY
October 16
This is not an overnight matter. It should continue for our lifetime.

ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 84

During my early years in A.A. I saw Step Ten as a suggestion that I periodically look at my behavior and reactions. If there was something wrong, I should admit it; if an apology was necessary, I should give one. After a few years of sobriety I felt I should undertake a self-examination more frequently. Not until several more years of sobriety had elapsed did I realize the full meaning of Step Ten, and the word "continued." "Continued" does not mean occasionally, or frequently. It means throughout each day.

Examine yourself through the whole trading day anon. Do not blindly gamble, be sure each trade sits right with you spiritually. Practice self examination until you find yourself doing it in real time. Be good to yourself anon, and be the best trader you can be.

MY CHECKLIST, NOT YOURS
October 15
Gossip barbed with our anger, a polite form of murder by character assassination, has its satisfactions for us, too. Here we are not trying to help those we criticize; we are trying to proclaim our own righteousness.

TWELVE STEPS AND TWELVE TRADITIONS, p. 67

Sometimes I don't realize that I gossiped about someone until the end of the day, when I take an inventory of the day's activities, and then, my gossiping appears like a blemish in my beautiful day. How could I have said something like that? Gossip shows its ugly head during a coffee break or lunch with business associates, or I may gossip during the evening, when I'm tired from the day's activities, and feel justified in bolstering my ego at the expense of someone else.

Character defects like gossip sneak into my life when I am not making a constant effort to work the Twelve Steps of recovery. I need to remind myself that my uniqueness is the blessing of my being, and that applies equally to everyone who crosses my path in life's journey. Today the only inventory I need to take is my own. I'll leave judgment of others to the Final Judge — Divine Providence.

It can feel good in the moment anon but try not to gossip. A life worth living means helping others not hurting others. If there is a trader in need be kind to him, by doing so you are really helping yourself spiritually. If a trader pisses you off let God judge him and leave yourself out of unnecessary conflict. Be the best trader you can be anon, take inventory of your day and always be looking to improve no matter how uncomfortable change can be.

UNREMITTING INVENTORIES
October 13
Continue to watch for selfishness, dishonesty, resentment, and fear. When these crop up, we ask God at once to remove them. We discuss them with someone immediately and make amends quickly if we have harmed anyone. Then we resolutely turn our thoughts to someone we can help.

ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS, p. 84

The immediate admission of wrong thoughts or actions is a tough task for most human beings, but for recovering alcoholics like me it is difficult because of my propensity toward ego, fear and pride. The freedom the A.A. program offers me becomes more abundant when, through unremitting inventories of myself, I admit, acknowledge and accept responsibility for my wrong-doing. It is possible then for me to grow into a deeper and better understanding of humility. My willingness to admit when the fault is mine facilitates the progression of my growth and helps me to become more understanding and helpful to others.

Anon, recognizing and asking God to remove defects of character is hard work. I am in this process every day as I take inventory of my accomplishments and my shortcomings. When I am greedy or fearful I am at fault. If I let my emotions guide my trades I get punished then I must ask the market for amends. I must be ever vigilant about my selfishness, dishonesty, resentment and fear that they do not crop up. And when they do I must admit it. Then I may hopefully help another anon who still suffers. On this very green day remember to also practice humility so to better weather the eventual storms ahead.