There's something really fucking repugnant about the way labor value works in society. Seems like the more competent and capable you are, the less likely it is you're going to get paid to sit on your ass and backbite all day.

You can go rogue and start your own business, but that's like saying, "oh, there's a problem with society, but if I don't like it, I can just go live in the fucking woods!" I feel like I should have a professional environment that I want to devote myself to, but it's just not there in America. My wife works for the state, and even at her place, the first thing they start looking at for cuts is the fucking health insurance.

My current delivery/installation job sucks, because even harder than maintaining a steady crew that lasts for more than a year is watching the complete joke that the salesfloor is. A 400 lbs black man who smells like shit and a couple of ugly/mean boomers. They're just "so good" at sales they get to sit there in the AC and break any corporate rule they feel like when there's a customer service issue (forcing us to do things we're not supposed to), all the while they literally dropped the store's numbers almost by half by driving out their best salesperson because he was a young Asian guy who was never going to be one of them (he has a much better-paying job now).

The idea of trying to rehab a structure like this is fucking daunting, but it's not like it's any different anywhere I've been. I've always wanted to try bartending, but I don't know how long of a haul it'll be to make it into something I can support a family with. It's not like I've got a great set of tits to help.