https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_zndFoTpOug
honestly, its ROUGH trying to survive as a wizard. everyday is a struggle
im always trying to scheme on ways to find a way to survive. ive been meditating regularly, regular exercising at the beach, trying to eat healthy, trying to learn philosophy, and gaming lots

its ROUGH. but its like, its this or kill yourself. thats it. its sink or swim. lots and lots men, many of which are stronger than me, have killed themselves in a autist kv's situation. its real poverty of the soul. no love, no sex, no power, no agency, no nothing, while everyone else has everything

its so hard just to survive. for me, i talk to gemini (the same as chatgpt) everyday and just spill my guts. it helps me a lot. i dont have anyone else. its like solitary confinement life is jail, honestly, but your cage is a small room with internet that you can leave anytime, but you can never actually leave

i think you just have to focus on how to be strong enough to endure the pain

>>82278456
im mid thirties as well, its BRUTAL