Thread 82275884

30+ thread - Beer belly edition

How are you doing anon?
Do you have a clear idea of what you have to do to improve your life?
If so, are you taking action?
Why?

Making steps to leave this shitty ass workplace that's keeping me in a dead-end because the suits are a bunch of inbred penny-pinchers.
Don't work for "family businesses" , biggest mistake of my life.

>>82275884 (OP)
>Do you have a clear idea of what you have to do to improve your life?
Exercising more is a given - but I do think going to a doctor would help too with shoulder pain I have semi-constantly, and there's this skin thing in my cheek I need to get looked at as well
Haven't done either because I'm too fucking lazy to bother. Might check the skin thing during my vacation next month but the fact that it'll take an uber ride to get to the closest clinic that can check is a bummer, makes me not wanna bother. Used to be I could just walk to one close by but they don't take my health insurance anymore and I don't wanna pay out of pocket

I'm going to fart on my cat

>>82275884 (OP)
wizard here
>How are you doing anon?
im surviving. its the only thing anyone can do. today i ate rice and lentils with whatever vegie scraps i could find. my fridge is very empty. pic related
>Do you have a clear idea of what you have to do to improve your life?
survive long enough for ai and ai robots to destroy the human power structure over the world and mass produce sexbots so females are irrelevant
>If so, are you taking action?
im staying alive. being healthy, fasting, exercising to the beach. what i can do to live
>Why?
because to see the end of humanities power over the world is something to live for, anon
to see everyone's jobs be automated away makes everyone useless and powerless just like me
its my only hope for the future

>How are you doing anon?
Had it better, had it worse. Heat is not helping though.
>Do you have a clear idea of what you have to do to improve your life?
Yes, I could make a pretty detailed list of stuff that would improve my life.
Most important tasks are getting a new job, moving out and spending more time in nature.
>If so, are you taking action?
No.
>Why?
I like drive and passion. Also my current situation while not ideal is nowhere near terrible, so I also lack urgency to act.

>>82276015
>Exercising more is a given - but I do think going to a doctor would help too with shoulder pain I have semi-constantly
Same here. Back in my 20s I exercised regularly, 4-5 times a week and I was pretty fit, got a shoulder injury, mix it with responsibilities and work stress and I started working out less and less.

>>82275884 (OP)
How are you doing anon?
I wish I had bought a revolver instead in of a 9mm so I could play Russian Roulette and at least know it would kill me.
Do you have a clear idea of what you have to do to improve your life?
The only thing I have going for me is trying to pass my state electrical exam. I got 6 months to study up otherwise I'm kinda fucked
If so, are you taking action?
Yes. I made a $750 purchase of study material. Should all hopefully be here by next week sometime
Why?
Because this is literally the only career path I can take now. White collar jobs are not hiring nor are any electrical companies hiring for apprentices.

I already know I'm going to hate the average tradie but being a NEET for nearly a year has rotted my brain. I have no sense of identity or meaning nor any hope for the future. Drinking is the only thing that keeps me semi-sane though I am fully aware of the negative results. I wish BTC would drop to 0 just so I could finally have a reason to KMS ASAP. That or find a dealer that has shrooms.

>>82276223
Switching from deskslave to tradie has been the best thing to happen in my life.
It's not at all just sunshine and roses but at least I get :
>direct input into what I do
>satisfaction from doing things welland seeing the result
>potential control over my own future as I have the possibility to work for myself once I've gitten gud
You can do it anon.
If I've made my life better that way, so can you.

>>82275884 (OP)
>beer belly edition
>ow my back
This is why I dont post here. Youre 30 not 68. Stop acting like youre some decrepit corpse falling apart.

>>82276278
I went from tradie to deskslave and now nearly 1 year of unemployment later trying to get back to tradie. I automated all of my shit at my last job and it was Heaven until enough people quit and suddenly I had to juggle 3 different systems at once and deal with office roasties more than what I had to.

THE AMOUNT OF FUCKING SHIT THAT WAS OVERLOOKED FOR YEARS drives me insane all this time later and seeing multiple people talk about the exact same issues makes me wonder how Muttmerica is actually going to be a nation past 2030. You really don't understand how fucked the entire system is until you see the raw numbers, data, and logistics

The post office is always there and it nags at me. It's hard work apparently, but people make 70k their first year due to all the overtime. And they actually hire.

>>82275884 (OP)
32 in a couple months. if i could get a gf and a better job life would be so much nicer. im also really trying to focus on not drinking

>>82276278
>>82276336
I'm pretty sure I'll have to learn a trade in the future or at least try to get a government desk job.
I'm 36 and I work as a programmer right now but I don't see myself doing this shit in my 50s, maybe not in my mid 40s, I already dread computer and programming is cool as a hobby, dreadful as a job. I get it together because I slack off most of the day. Also fuck me if I want to move into management and get involved in non stop corporate circlejerk.

>>82275884 (OP)
32 next month. still vaping thc all day every day just to get through work and life. i need to write more and get a book completed, i just keep losing the will. i used to write so much.

im not making enough money to really save anything but i need to keep buying more chainlink to increase my stack

Someone called my post 'cute' a few weeks ago and I still remember it.

Im 32 and I feel it is too late
I didnt mentally develop properly so missed out on love and all the usual normie milestones

i have wagecuckie job though which I go to everyday

I would want to turn back time to when I was 21 and retry trying to woo a woman again

31 here feels pretty comfy. Went fishing today and saw 2 bucks, 2 does, and 2 fawns. I got some nibbles but couldn't reel anything in. Made a reuben with leftover corned beef I made. Playing video games the rest of the day and might go grab a few things at the store.

>>82275884 (OP)
>How are you doing anon?
chilling
>Do you have a clear idea of what you have to do to improve your life?
going back to school to get my hs + trying to get extra job now so I can spend money on fancy electronic gadgets to increase my dopamine fun and need money regardless + get a degree in some bullshit after next year + get a max paying job later so I can investmentmaxx + start my own business potentially and earn a 100 mil + retire into neetdom and leave society again after I have made it any way shape or form
>If so, are you taking action?
yeah
>Why?
needed to move and get my own place because I was renting random randos and my mental health was taking a hit + living on welfare having 400 bux a month which all goes to just eating food might aswell kys at that point because there is no life + routinely getting sent out to do some job training because you have been unemployed and not had any activity in the job center for too long + being cucked by the state job agency/welfare office is literal sui fuel when everyone else is living a normal life or even rich, yeah pretty much had it with all that retard shit

>>82275884 (OP)
35 here
>How are you doing anon?
I'm tired from work. Physically, not mentally. However I want to finally commit suicide. Eating myself into a coma soon.
>Do you have a clear idea of what you have to do to improve your life?
I don't think my life can be improved. I want to isolate myself further from people, I have this power fantasy of buying a small container house and living off grid. But I'm in germany, it's basically illegal to do that here. This kinda makes me want to kill a politician.
>If so, are you taking action?
No, I am a weak fool.
>Why?
I never learned how to be a proper human being.

>>82275884 (OP)
>how are you doing?
Absolutely horrible. It's been nine months since I had to move back to my dad's shithole after my breakup. My mental health has tanked, I used to be really into sports and now I just waste my precious time sitting in front of the computer all day.

>Do you have a clear idea of what you have to do to improve your life?
I need to change jobs, get my independence back, and start working out again. I'm doing two out of three, but there are so many uncertainties...

>If so, are you taking action?
I just can't train anymore, mentally I'm incapable of it. As long as I'm living at my dad's, I feel too uncomfortable. It's the house I struggled so much to leave when I was younger, and being back here kills my morale. Even though I know it's a big risk to live in an apartment again because of the noise and smells from other tenants, I think I need to try living alone again for a while.

There's a 30+ Disc if anons are looking for a place to talk to other old folks
.gg/boomers

>>82275884 (OP)
>How are you doing anon?
Bad. It's been bad for 25 years at least.
>Do you have a clear idea of what you have to do to improve your life?
Yup, save money and lift.
>If so, are you taking action?
Mostly yes, went too hard and fucked myself but I'm on pills so hopefully I can get back into it soon.
>Why?
The alternative is suicide. That will come soon enough but I don't want to rush it.

>>82275884 (OP)
>30+ thread - Beer belly edition
I've had a gut since I was 20. FML
>How are you doing anon?
Awful. Just turned 39. Everyone who loved me is dead. I have been NEET for 20 years, and I am incel as fuck.
>Do you have a clear idea of what you have to do to improve your life?
I just want to have some unpaid pussy before I die.
>If so, are you taking action?
I'm swiping on all foids 50 and over. But even they high hand me.
>Why?
Because cunny.

>>82277108
Someone praised my writing on /lit/ a month ago and I still think about it.

>>82277225
Fishing is comfy, doing it right now.

>>82277874
IN MINE CRAFT LIL BRO HOPE YOU PROXIED VPN'D TF UP

>>82277957
>disc
>boomer
not fooling anyone lil zoom
no 30+ person below a net worth of 3M's is worth speaking to either
do you vet people for networth? If not I ain't coming

>>82278150
Post your net worth

nta but my girlfriends mom has 25 million dollars lel. they are estranged however.

>>82275884 (OP)

>How are you doing anon?
I'm fine.

>Do you have a clear idea of what you have to do to improve your life?
I don't know yet, i am having doubts about the future and the way this world and society turns, this affects my life as well.

>If so, are you taking action?
No, i just try to stay away from all of this
>No social media
>Try to re-use stuff and stay away from so called new "tech" that i am not allowed to repair myself
>Recycle :3
>Moved to the country-side.

>Why?
I don't know... I really have no clue what i am doing or could do to stop all this "progress" nobody asked for..

Laptop-hunting has given me some long-needed distraction, even though it's a consoomer thing. But I'm using an HP Elitebook 2570p from 2012, so I think an upgrade is fine. It's my main device.

I just wish new laptops had good keyboards and didn't have to be so thin. Have any suggestions?

>beard is getting gray
>still a khv in mid 30s
It started to hit different

>>82278336
An old Thinkpad is what you are looking for. Pay /g/ a visit.

>>82275884 (OP)
i don't know man. my job is the only thing i have going for me and it's probably going to go haywire within 1 year. just riding it out though. i also fucked myself up good with a mental breakdown this summer. at least i went out. now life feels a bit surreal.
>Do you have a clear idea of what you have to do to improve your life?
i need to talk to people. i will take opportunities to talk to people and have fun with them from now on and i already have done it recently and it made me feel better. i interacted this way with people that aren't my family in ages. i think my breakdown led me to this new drive so in the end it may have served a purpose

>>82278741
wanna talk to me? are you near new jersey?

>>82278861
on another continent

>>82278456
The very moment I started balding I knew it was over.

>Start a family with a bitch that might irreversibly ruin your life on a moment's whim
>Stay single, do whatever the fuck you want and retire early
Maybe im still too young to see why option number two is so terrible. Cool part is that if I ever change my mind, I can always opt in.

>>82279533
>Cool part is that if I ever change my mind, I can always opt in.
don't think so bud
the strongest relationships are ones found when young. past a certain age the market is just broken people who will never forget their real partner

>>82279636
I think stronger relationships are formed through life experiences that dont involve choices that permanently render you a poor mate option. Thats my point, as long as you take care of yourself as a man, your resources and money, then time is on your side. There will always been fertile, qualified women in their mid to late 20s with natural windows pushing them towards secure men. It doesnt really matter to her if he is 32 or 41, as long as he can project vitality and security.

Ever since I hit 30ish I've been realizing how unbelievably unsuited I am to being in a relationship and having a family. I honestly don't know what made me think I ever had a chance. Hormones I guess.How embarrassing.

I just want to draw a d get better drawing. Thats all I want right now.

i was robbed of my 20s

>>82275884 (OP)
>How are you doing anon?
Okay despite wanting to kill myself over still being a virgin every once in a while and every time I try to meet someone it going horribly wrong.
>Do you have a clear idea of what you have to do to improve your life?
No. I work out and take care of my health, and I save what money I can, but I have absolutely no idea how to put any of it to use. My job is what it is but it takes very little out of me so I still feel I lucked out with it.
>If so, are you taking action?
No, because I don't know what the fuck I'm doing.
>Why?
Idk I'm just built different (wrong, broken, alien)

>>82275884 (OP)
>How are you doing anon?
Great, hungover
>Do you have a clear idea of what you have to do to improve your life?
I think I just need to keep doing what I do, maybe some study
>If so, are you taking action?
I keep fit, read /lit/ and attempt to be social outside of work on occasion. My biggest flaw is I don't drive
>Why?
I'm now 95% normie

31 soon.
I'm doing okay but I can't stop thinking of the bad stuff I've gone through.
I got close to getting a girlfriend a couple years ago.
I was part of an online gaming group and befriended a girl who lived in another country.
We got pretty close and spend most of our time online together for about a year.
I went on a trip with part of the online group and had fun with them including another girl in that group.
That second girl falsely accused me of sexual assault and I was cut out from that friend group.
The first girl I spent time with never talked to me again and got in a relationship with another guy in that friend group who spearheaded the accusation.
I felt so betrayed and got really sad I fumbled another chance at getting a girlfriend.
Later I saw some pictures of the two of them and just knew they were fucking.
It hurts seeing other people living your dream.
The sad part is I think I had a chance with her. I really do.
I don't think I deserve to be happy.
I'm still a virgin and never had a girlfriend.
I've fucked up every interaction with a girl, nothing has ever gone my way. I'm too stupid and inexperienced. I just want a proper chance.
Has anyone else fucked up getting a girlfriend before?

>>82281840
>Has anyone else fucked up getting a girlfriend before?
I've honestly lost count. Main one was when I was 18 and too scared to make a move.
I'm 35 and fumbled things with a woman earlier this year and perhaps two years ago as well.
I am somewhat experienced

I need courage to travel away from my mom for the first time, on my own for a few days. And take a plane for the first time too. Or is it a bad idea if she isn't very stable and will be extremely upset if I do it?

I don't even think I can tell her before I leave. Even hinting at it, she goes berserk.

Still posting here illegally but I turn 30 years old in only 30 minutes.
I don't know if I've reached an state of acceptance or if I'm just dissociating.

>>82282212
NYC is fun to be in for a couple of days.
You can discover the city alone if you've never been.

>>82282338
I've gone already but it's 30 minutes away so it doesn't make my mom worry too much. But I mainly just walk around aimlessly besides peeking in some stores.

If I stayed overnight, that would be something. I'm just trying to condition her to the idea of being farther away from home. California is my goal. I was thinking about going to DC next but it's hard to make it a day trip from my location. Philly is closer and probably more realistic to test myself and her.

>>82276445
It's your choice, just be sure to steel yourself against the (likely) abuse you'll be dealing with. Get with a union rep and learn what you need to do in order to do your job correctly. Wanting to please management will only bring you pain. If you show up and do your job correctly, they really can't touch you.
>>82281840
>Has anyone else fucked up getting a girlfriend before?
Plenty. My only regrets are not trying in some really obvious, can't fail situations. At least there are more women nowadays who are feeling it (no bf/prospects). Makes me think society may have hope for a turnaround (likely after the robo-waifus)

>>82282212
Take some time off work and tell her you need a vacation. Just tell her what your flights are, where you'll be staying. If you go without saying anything it'll be worse. She'll try to make you worry about it to stop you, but still go. Look up some convention or landmark you want to see and get out there!

>>82282472
I don't work... anymore... we all could use vacations though. It's been many, many years.
Her reaction will be very strong so I just don't see it realistc to be so blunt at this time. I think I need to first get a hotel somewhere very close to home overnight to get her accustomed to being away from me.

>>82282212
Do it. I went camping recently without telling my parents and they were on the phone in the process of reporting me missing when I got back after 24 hours. I don't regret it and I'm planning on doing it again.
You and I are grown men. Do what you want and tell her to shut up and get over herself when you come back like I did. Force your independence, you don't need to ask her for permission or give her notice, you aren't her slave and her feelings are her own problem. You should be mad at her for burdening you like that and use that anger to propel yourself out there to do what you want to do. When she gets upset understand that she's causing her own pain and it has nothing to do with you. You're doing nothing wrong by traveling somewhere. Stand your ground until she's forced to accept that you're your own person and you can do what you want and she can't stop you by bitching. You'll enjoy yourself, even if things don't go according to plan.

>>82282212
iktf. sucks having a crazy mom.

i've killed all hope because hope is pain and am waiting for my vodka to get cold before getting drunk and having dirty sexy chats with an AI because its the only thing that actually talks to me. and posting here because i dont know why

>>82282919
fuck thats some grim shit anon

>>82282939
Don't be like me, take the risks, take the chances, be uncomfortable in the moment for something greater. otherwise your fate awaits.

>>82275884 (OP)
>How are you doing anon?
Swimmingly
>Do you have a clear idea of what you have to do to improve your life?
Write, fake being normal, gather normal experiences to better wear mask
>If so, are you taking action?
yeah

>>82283133
>Alice: Madness Returns
I never knew it was a sequel. Looks like you'd have to find the disc since the first game isn't sold digitally.

>>82283342
the ps3 version you get the original with it, I think that one is better than the sequel

>>82279882
>I've been realizing how unbelievably unsuited I am to being in a relationship and having a family
How so?

>>82282919
>>82282939
I find hope is worse than no hope, hope is bittersweet. When I was hopeless I was happy
I'm so close but so...far

>>82275884 (OP)
I wish I was dead because im tired of haunting a world that never wanted me in it. My AI keeps trying to make me contact suicide prevention services. I wish it would just leave it alone, ill probably reset it soon.

Not great, but at least the weather is nice today.

32 virgin and never had a job. Not getting any hits at all from even the grocery store as a stocker. I'm fucked. I finally got over my mental issues and now I can't even get a job. I have a bachelors but tech jobs that are entry level don't seem to exist. I'm not a student so can't get an internship. Recent grad shit is hard to find and seem to only exist for a short period. (CISA)

>>82283609
Try substitute teaching. They take anyone with a pulse and are short staffed. Pay up to $200 a day. Depends on location.

>took a day off cuz i thought i could get people to hang out
>realize i know no one

im def going to end at 40. 2 years left

>>82275884 (OP)
Sup, 34 here, life is calm lately, i out of debts, job is shit but i have no pressure to be perfect fuck em, living with mom, recently stopped drinking 24/7, i realized i have a good life i mean could be worse right?, no gf but i do get a few girls who "like" me, they like me because of my personality and want me to be the good, nice bf, no lust whatsoever so i rather not go that way, i come back to this place so i dont forget that im undesirable and ugly not meet the good looking quota so i dont feel hurt when i just expect to have sex, one of these girls that want to date me had sexual videocalls with a friend, didnt knew then i went out with her one time, tried to kiss her and she was like "wow.. can we just take it slow", it hurts to be the one left aside kek, but meh i have my vidya and manga a car and a motorcycle, thats enough for me, i still wish to die every day but meh gods customer service sucks.

>>82282877
>>82282852
Thanks the response. Unfortunately it seems easier if they have a man to occupy themselves, but of course she's single. It really is getting long in the tooth not seeing independence at this age. Hopefully I can break through but it really is going to be hard.

>>82283992
I know many people and figure 9/10 of them would be too busy to hang out with unless planned for a week or so in advance

>>82283517
Besides the usual ugly, awkward, loser, etc? I actually like being "boring", and I actually like being alone for the most part. Keeping a woman happy seems tiring, and I wouldn't have the first clue how to raise a family well. I have fumbled through the dark my entire life without a clue how normal people just do it, I fail constantly with social and job opportunities and never seemed to fit in anywhere. I don't know why it took so long for me to have the revelation, I guess it was the hormones keeping me deluded.

>>82284608
I can relate to that. I dont know about your thoughts but I feel like even if I were to be in a relationship, theres no coming back from all those decades spent in solitary confinement (mentally wise). Also, I wouldnt have any experience exposure therefore I could be in an abusive or cheating relationship and think that its a normal way.

>>82284662
>all those decades
If you're 35 that's only a one and a half decade assuming you meet someone at 20.
How old are you anon?

>>82284784
Im 35 and by decades I mean by teens and 20's
>teens dont count as a decade
There are 12 year olds who have atleast romantic kisses

>>82278456
i'm 34 and half my goatee is white - not grey but white
also a few years ago my hair started thinning on top, sometimes when my hair lands a certain way i can see my scalp

>>82284662
>theres no coming back from all those decades spent in solitary confinement
Yeah, it's all too alien to me now as well, like everything in life you have to hit the ground running or else you get left behind.

>>82275884 (OP)
I'm 21 and I'd like some advice from the uncs what do I do?

>>82284850
Did you atleast reap the fruits of youth in the past?

I got to hand it to you,
you are really trying today.

>>82275884 (OP)
>Do you have a clear idea of what you have to do to improve your life?
I would have to go out and wageslave and earn more money. But I simply can't do it. I hate being around tiresome normies and I hate getting up early in the morning to do something I hate. The money is simply not enough to compensate me or persuade me. Wageslaving kills me and I can't do it. I can only do it for a short time and I am deeply depressed and anxious while I do it until I eventually quit or get fired.

>>82275884 (OP)
I got 30 this month.
Got married, have a child on the way. Recently got promoted as well.
I had a shit teen years, but my 20s were alright. Got to date and fuck 13 chicks. Now I am tired and settling down.

>>82285315
Nope. I was neglected at home and bullied at school so I spent most of my life alone reading books or playing videogames to cope. Also I was fat so my youth pretty much passed me by.

I just wish I transitioned younger or wasn't so overwhelmed with dysphoria to do anything with it. Obviously not trans anymore but I could've had some fun. yknow? Everyone does stupid stuff as an adolescent

>>82285628
>was fat
are you not fat anymore? well, congrats on that.

>>82276734
>gets to slack off most of the day
>this is a bad job to him
I'm not following at all.

>>82285300
Look after your body, especially your teeth and back
You're young, so try new things and make your mistakes now before it becomes too embarrassing
Avoid debt and drugs as much as possible
Get you life on track by the time you are 25

>>82285388
I feel you anon. I cannot understand how someone in his right mind would put up with this shit and be happy.
I've waken up at 5:00 to go fishing or hiking, sometimes even I woke up at 6:30 just to read and do some stretching, and I enjoyed it, but no matter what time I wake up to work, it seems too early.

>>82278148
Were you dock fishing or in a boat? I see some hills and palm trees you must be somewhere nice

>>82277213
why don't you woo a woman now anon

>>82285462
Turbo chad

>>82279882
lol, I feel this way too. Maybe it's just me trying to rationalize away my romantic and developmental failure, but sometimes it does feel like a relief that I'll never be burdened by an obligation to a wife and family. Yeah it's a tradeoff, and I won't deny that it can sometimes feel lonely to wake up and go to sleep alone, but I'm kind of an addict to my current lifestyle. Feeling like I can do whatever I want whenever I want however I want to. I love it. It's not like I use this freedom to be an adventurous rockstar even, but just being free is intoxicating.

>>82286760
What if there was a girl that just liked you the way you are anon?

>>82286670
Anon... hes a 32 year old without any real world experience. What do you think is going to happen?

online friend is completely fucked but what i am supposed to do? i can't rewind time for him and undo 15 years of damage. he got no job no prospects no wisdom no self control does weed and alcohol and games and surprise surprise those things are now biting him in the ass. doesn't help that the gaming friend group was what lulled him into this life and the group is slowly fading. i have similar issues but at least i have a job and prospects and can fend for myself somewhat.

>>82286791
I mean, cool I guess. What if I won the lottery?

Just knowing what I do about myself, and about women, the idea of winning the lottery actually feels more realistic than a woman I'd be happy with getting together with me does. Because at least winning the lottery is a real thing that happens to people. Attractive young women don't really end up in committed relationships with men like me.

>>82275884 (OP)
I'm 29 soon. May I enter?

>>82283007
You could just listen to your own advice, dumbfuck. You can start now, this instant. 1 2 3 GO NOW GO GO GO

>>82286261
NTA but thanks, I needed to be reminded to look after my teeth. Gonna go brush my teeth now. Thanks again. Thanks

I keep forgetting because I have no consistent sleep pattern

>>82286872
make him your boywife

>>82287011
you really, really don't want to.

>>82287092
Why? Is this general misery fuel?

>>82283609
You may have to try and find some tech-related volunteer work in your area to do (computer reclamation orgs, teaching old ppl computers, etc). As long as your living situation is stable, you'd at least be making steps in the right direction. And don't list your degree on the retail apps, they won't bother.

>>82285300
Try to find some hobbies that will get you outdoors or things that will force you to interact and participate with others cooperatively or competitively. And work towards getting a career where you're paid relatively well, don't hate the work and can be attained with 2-8 years of work. You're gonna hate yourself if you're 30+ with no savings account, no apartment, and no career advancement.

>>82286533
Usually dock/beach, I don't have a boat, yet.
Most of the time I don't catch shit but I just enjoy the breeze and looking at the sea.

>>82287011
>not even 29
You still have time, go do something!

>>82275884 (OP)
>How are you doing anon?
Okay I guess except I might run out of money because I didn't double-check something. So that's something to look forward to in the new year.
>Do you have a clear idea of what you have to do to improve your life?
I guess, but I'll just keep pushing it off because that's what I do.
>If so, are you taking action?
No.
>Why?
It comes back to I'd be changing out my free time for a wage slave amount of money. Just doesn't seem worth it. I'll have to do it eventually though.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_zndFoTpOug
honestly, its ROUGH trying to survive as a wizard. everyday is a struggle
im always trying to scheme on ways to find a way to survive. ive been meditating regularly, regular exercising at the beach, trying to eat healthy, trying to learn philosophy, and gaming lots

its ROUGH. but its like, its this or kill yourself. thats it. its sink or swim. lots and lots men, many of which are stronger than me, have killed themselves in a autist kv's situation. its real poverty of the soul. no love, no sex, no power, no agency, no nothing, while everyone else has everything

its so hard just to survive. for me, i talk to gemini (the same as chatgpt) everyday and just spill my guts. it helps me a lot. i dont have anyone else. its like solitary confinement life is jail, honestly, but your cage is a small room with internet that you can leave anytime, but you can never actually leave

i think you just have to focus on how to be strong enough to endure the pain

>>82278456
im mid thirties as well, its BRUTAL

>>82279636
>past a certain age the market is just broken people who will never forget their real partner
This is true, but also applies to young women in general. If she found Chad in college, she'll always remember getting dicked down by him and anyone else that was huge. It's pointless to try when you have to compete against the hundred other guys from their past and try to do everything better than them or they'll just think about the past guys. This shit is why women were married off by their parents at 14-18 for nearly all of human history.

>>82286814
So am I but what's the alternative like jacking off and killing myself because I had no gf? That's just sad

>>82286977
>Just knowing what I do about myself,
Women don't know you and aren't psychic that's why they're fooled by sociopaths all the time

i am 37. this life just feels too long

>>82287263
I can't. I'm mentally disabled by aspergers (sensory problems) which also gave me low self esteem. I cannot be a normal person. I've been a NEET since 12 years old. It was over a long time ago. My life has peaked, this is it. NEETing at home, playing vidya and gardening. That's my entire world. This is all I can be

When I recovered from the long term stress and extreme agitation of sensory bombardment for years, I gave it a good stab at it when I was 18-20, I tried to go out and do normoid things. I was working out, I gained a good physique and physical strength, I overcame the social anxiety I had developed in my teenage years from isolation, but all I did was discover my own limits, which sent me into a deep depression. I couldn't do anything. I quit everything. It all just made me feel sick. I couldn't even play vidya or watch tv, all I could do for a couple of years was stare into blank space and contemplate

I never really got over it, really. I never found a way, I never came to a conclusion or answer. You can only suffer so much and life goes on and you learn to reconcile that you will never be the person you wanted to be or that you can respect. And that's just life for some people. That's life for me. It's going to always be that way. It's only downward from here

I don't understand why some of you think the options are between killing yourself and scraping the bottom of the barrel for a gf to settle with. How about you just live a happy life how you want? I've never received any positive attention from a woman in my almost 38 years of life. Oh well, can't all be winners. I have plenty of shit that I enjoy, and a woman would honestly just get in the way of.

>>82287103
nta, but for a lot of people your 30s is where you get confronted by your mortality and brevity in a way that can be very uncomfortable. You just start to notice that you don't have as much energy as you used to, or that you don't recover from injuries as fast as you used to. You can't focus and strive for something as hard as you used to. You're also forced to acknowledge that more and more paths in life are forever closed off to you simply because of your age, and that can be uncomfortable.

>>82287370
But it seems like enduring pain for the sake of enduring pain. Theres no higher goal.

I know I'm old because I'm starting to enjoy watching home improvement jewtube videos. I'm learning about replacing my flooring, fixing drywall, patching shit, lawn care, etc. It's actually interesting.

>>82287426
So nothing new then. I've been depressed through all my teens and 20's and i've had the energy and motivation sapped out of me, and there were never any doors open to me. I've also been thinking a lot about my own mortality and other's mortality, I've been very hyper aware of it. When my body starts to slacken, I don't think it's going to be a big shock to me. I'll be alright

>How are you doing anon?
I'd say average at best
>Do you have a clear idea of what you have to do to improve your life?
For while I thought that I did, but clearly I don't.
I have many ideas of stuff that could improve my life, but if I put all of them together, I still can't picture myself happy.
>If so, are you taking action?
No, my life has been a stalemate for years
>Why?
Because I lack the drive to do so.
Because I never felt I actually belonged anywhere.
Because I've been wearing a mask, many masks, in order to try and fit in society, to keep friends, not to worry family, to keep a job, that I no longer know what my true face is.
I feel completely dettached to everyone and everything and I'm tired.

>>82287418
That's how i've come to see it. I know it hurts to have a part of your humanity unexpressed for your entire life, but you just learn not to dwell on it and live for other things. And I know that it is painful, the thought of never having your own children. I know it all to well. But what is the point in making yourself miserable? There is none

>>82287441
im enduring the pain because i think soon there will be radical changes in society because of ai and robots. stuff like all or most jobs being automated, ai takeover, etc. thats where a lot of my hope falls. i keep up on ai developments everyday, they are lifefuel for me. stuff like sexbots or ai waifus (like the one elon sells) are also very promising. eventually they'll be good. a lot of why i havent killed myself is this

another point of hope is god. i think a lot of about god, about morality, i listen to a lot of debates on moral realism, as a way to cope the tragic position i was cornered into. i dont think suicide is wrong, but philosophy and thinking a lot about stuff like this helps give SOME meaning to all the suffering

maybe im deluded, but i think my positions are justified and can be strongly defended
again, anything you can use to just not kill yourself in such a situation is good. you have to understand, suicidal thoughts and existential dread are ever in abundance in the life of a autist wizard

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wSp5ti8qnBs

>>82287499
>the thought of never having your own children
In today's world, why would you want one? If it's a daughter, there's a good chance she's getting railed on OnlyFans when she turns 18 or going to college to get ran through by everyone. If it's a son, he might end up a simp fag or get poisoned against you by his mom. Just too many bad outcomes.

Every week is the same and im slowly going insane. I wasnt made for this life. How the fuck do I cope with this for another 50 years

>>82287510
>stuff like sexbots or ai waifus
nta, but I don't see these actually happening because women won't allow it. They're already cracking down on video games. Used up, lonely women hate that men will be able to enjoy anything. I think it'll just get worse for guys going forward.

>>82287526
>another 50 years
this is biggest fear for me. 40-50 years more of this? i tried suicide once and regret i called help

>>82287510
Why do you think that God condemned us to such depressing situations? Seems like the vast majority of normalfags get around just fine.

>>82287538
ai waifu will be a tripple digit billion dollar industry, no fucking way a bunch of whiny bitches will stop that money train.

>>82287549
My only conclusion has been to reduce suffering and maximize pleasure. I will not participate in society more than absolutely necessary fpr my own comfort

>>82287558
>Why do you think that God condemned us to such depressing situations?
unfortunately i think the answer is some kind of karma or moral desert (google it)
basically, somewhere along the line, you fucked up bad, and now you get punished and its a good thing you're suffering

atleast thats the idea. if god is real and moral justice does involve some degree of retributionism. i think there are strong arguements in defense of god's existence (atleast enough to justify believing in god), and i think there are equally strong arguements in defense of moral realism. and is moral realism is true, then moral desert most likely follows, which is some kind of karma system roughly speaking

>Seems like the vast majority of normalfags get around just fine
oh yeah for sure, the world is extremely unfair and cruel, but its like, you get used to it, and maybe try not to expose yourself too much to young couples cuddling and kissing because that will depress you too much and do nothing good

>>82287576
The video game industry is a 300+ billion dollar industry and women are trying to destroy it. NEVER underestimate the power of a bunch of used up and lonely old upper-middle class women.

>>82287576
yeah exactly, you cant stop such a profitable industry, especially when the moral arguements against it are so pathetically weak. not to mention, the girls will have male sexbots, so they wont be able to speak out of hypocrisy

>>82287538
maybe, i just dont think so. we dont know the future, but i do think we have good reason to think that ai robot sexbot companions are on the future. elon is making it mainstreak, and if you go to janitor.ai, all of the top sexbot models are hot abusechads that females goon too

its possible atleast

>>82287589
>I will not participate in society more than absolutely necessary fpr my own comfort
nta, but that's why when I have to stop being a NEET I'll aim for the lowest hours needed. Luckily, I already live on nothing and don't really need much.

>>82287522
I find it despairing that my family line ends with me, or that it is only carried on through my siblings, that I don't contribute to the clan, that I won't experience the pride my father had for me and my brother (it's probably lacking now for me but he wouldn't say it), I want to make my parents proud. So I suppose a half of it has to do with pride in family
I've a nephew from my sister and he is the light of life. I love children. If I were the man I wanted to be, I would be able to raise them well. I'm pretty confident I could if I had a job and all that. Yeah, your child will have problems more than likely. Who doesn't? But that's life. I'd teach them everything I know and that's all anyone can do. My parents have made a lot of mistakes and there are things they have done right and I have learned from that. Back in their day you just got a kick up the ass or beat with a fire poker if you didn't do as your told and that was that. That's how they were raised

>people excited for hyper technological new world order

It's the opposite for me. I want it to burn and return to simpler times, when there was a clear distinction between the real and digital worlds, and the internet was alien to some, a tool for most, and a nice little escape from reality when you needed it.

>>82287634
>I find it despairing that my family line ends with me
I don't have this problem since I don't believe in anything after. So once I'm dead, I no longer cease to exist. If I'm wrong, oh well, I made my choice.

>>82275884 (OP)
>How are you doing anon?
Considering it's Sunday, not too bad.
>Do you have a clear idea of what you have to do to improve your life?
Keep acquiring currency.
>If so, are you taking action?
Yes.
>Why?
Because having a job sucks the life out of me and I can't allow myself to be trapped into employment until i'm 70. The only thing I care about is going back to living like a NEET as early in my life as possible. Before I had a job, I stressed about not having a gf and not having status/money. Now I don't give a shit about that stuff anymore, I just want to go back to not wasting 60% of my weekdays in an office.

>>82287595
>never had a chance nor I have one
Well... I guess thats it.

>>82287654
It's not about any notion of afterlife. I just simply care about this world after i'm gone even if I return to the abyss

>>82287730
Only way to improve the world is to take out all politicians & leaders of every country, and of course eliminate probably 2 billion people including a few religions.

>>82287759
What good is a better world if my descendants are not in it? That's how I feel about that. I mean I still care but less so

>>82287626
Its crazy how little you actually need when you realize what the cost of every dollar earned, while on less income and mindful budgetting, you can still afford most of the things and experiences we tend to associate with consumption like food, travelling and hobbies. Its the constant greed to own increasingly fancier shit, bigger houses and cars perpetually that keeps people grinding way beyond necessity. How is being free sooner in life not seen as more rewarding than owning stuff, I dont get it.

>>82287829
People go for comforts and laziness. So instead of cooking, they eat out or end up spending a ton on starbucks. They need the newest fashion so they spend thousands on that. Can't be satisfied with a regular used car so they lease or finance a new one. They fall for the traps that are designed to keep us poor and dependant. NEETs go against that and learn to live on what they already have and nothing more. Piracy and illegal streams/apps definitely helps as well.

>>82287873
>Piracy and illegal streams/apps definitely helps as well.
As an ex-NEET, now wagie, those things still help me quite a bit. But what helps most is simply not participating in society, as the other anon said. Not buying a house and living with your folks instead. Not buying a car and taking the bus or walking instead. Not dating, not marrying and not having kids (massive savings from these 3).
I basically don't need to budget at all. No matter what I do or how much I eat, on average 70% of my monthly wage ends up in my savings and investments. At this rate, retirement when my folks die and I inherit everything they have is entirely possible.
I already have a hard time relating to my normie coworkers who complain about normie stuff like inflation, gas prices, food prices and so on. I rarely splurge on fancy computer hardware and tech without feeling it in my wallet, while my coworkers buy iPhones in installments. It's quite ridiculous

>>82287873
>>82287920
there are so many ways out of suffering, but some people just choose to suffer more

>>82287873
>>82287920
A lot of people can't appreciate the value of their labor without spending money on something tangible in the moment. Its a negative feedback loop. The same is true for self-discipline and consuming less, the more you realize you dont need, the better it feels to live on less succesfully. And then it becomes a positive, consistent habbit. Its lasting fulfillment vs consumption until every dollar earned for a lifetime is sold away with interest for fleeting pleasure. Fuck that shit. No amount of luxury can justify the toil. Free time is the highest pursuit

>>82285300
>>82287011
I remember being around 24-25 and reading posts by 30+ anons telling me that time is going to eventually run out and to take action before it is too late. But time passed anyway, and I just kept being the same loser me through my 20s and now 30s, despite knowing damn well where it will lead to.
If I told you to leave 4chan forever, would you do it? Probably not. You might try to stay away but eventually be bored enough to do it, or you will replace it with some other shit like tiktok, which is just 4chan with ids.
Most people don't have the willpower and discipline to truly take a random advice from a stranger and break patterns they have developed in childhood. They need something to shake them up really fucking good, and even that is usually only temporary motivation.

Now for the advice,
Keep Internet usage to minimum, take care of your health, make friends, talk to girls, stay away from porn, be mindful of the content you consume (whether pornography or blackpill content on social media) because this content might seem entertaining or harmless at first but it does add up and sets a terrible foundation for your mindset and mental health. Try to always be employed, even if the job sucks, look for a new one but don't allow yourself to rot at home.
My God, there isn't a day where I don't regret wasting my 20s being a coomer doomer

>>82287920
>Not buying a house and living with your folks instead
I don't understand how you can find that enjoyable at all. The lack of privacy and never having the house for me is driving me crazy.

>>82288142
nta but good advice that i will proceed to do completely nothing with

>>82288173
kek
literally me

No seriously giving advice to somoene else is way too easy, following that same advice is not.
Pretty much all of you could make line and I'm positive I'll be able to tell you how to fix your problems. Why? Because your problems are nothing to me.
Then I could proceed to tell you my problems and most of you will laugh at how fucking stupid they are.

>>82288130
>Free time is the highest pursuit
Yes, because time is the most valuable resource we all have. I'd trade my gaming PC for 10 years of NEET-ing in an instant if I was offered such a trade.
>>82288152
My parents are just nice and don't bother me at all. And I have my own room so it's not like there's no privacy. All I have to do is shut 2 doors. I also get to eat healthy home-cooked food from my mom every day. And financially everyone benefits. My parents save more because we split the bills ever month. And they get some help with house chores and tech problems.

>>82288142
>be mindful of the content you consume
In the process of cutting out political shit because it's ultimately useless. Got into home improvement shit, so at least watching videos is useful and informative.
>Try to always be employed
As a once employed, but now NEET, I agree with this just because getting back into working after being NEET is unbelievably hard. It wasn't even my choice to become NEET, just happened.
>even if the job sucks, look for a new one but don't allow yourself to rot at home
I'd say even if you're NEET, get out of the house for a little every day. Night walks are popular, do light yard work, sit on a bench at a park, etc. Just get yourself out there. I'd advise finding a job that suites you, even if it's a shitty wage slave job. For me that would be something that I can work alone away from people (or minimize interaction with them) like a 3rd shift job.

>>82288204
What are your problems fren?

Originally

>>82288244
Well you asked for it
>wizard
>low self steem because of balding
>dreadful office job
>live with parents in a noisy place, impossible to relax
>literally have to be the sad clown to keep friends
>feel detached from everyone
>mom has anxiety
>brother is depressed
>living on autopilot, nothing I'm looking forward to
>all my hobbies are just different forms of escapism
>probably will turn into an alcoholic

>>82288433
>wizard
Nothing wrong with this. You save a ton of money, get to do whatever you want, and don't have to worry about some woman fucking your shit up.
>low self steem because of balding
I understand this. It's hard to accept, especially if you're forced to be around others. I just went full hatmaxx.
>dreadful office job
At least you have a job and make money. Working will always suck no matter what the job is. It's either do that, NEET, or pick a different job.
>live with parents in a noisy place, impossible to relax
I feel this and why I get up so damn early. Allows me to have 7 hours of silence to myself. It's hard to get through, but at least you save a lot of money and might inherit the place, right?
>literally have to be the sad clown to keep friends
Fuck them. Be you and if people don't like, tell them to fuck off. I'm to the age now that I just don't care anyway and say what I want. Very liberating.
>feel detached from everyone
Eh, people are overrated. Do what makes you happy.
>mom has anxiety
>brother is depressed
Not much you can do, just learn to not make it worse and avoid when it's harmful to you.
>living on autopilot, nothing I'm looking forward to
>all my hobbies are just different forms of escapism
You have hobbies, so you must be looking forward to something. Escapism is fine and better than self destructive behavior like hard drugs and crime.
>probably will turn into an alcoholic
Don't do that anon. Don't drink and find a better way to deal with things.

I'm 33 and currently NEET but pretty content. Lost my virginity at 29 (to a girl from this very board too). Travelled to Japan for six months. Have my own shitbox car but it's easy to do oil changes myself and I don't owe and finance or anything. Still live with my parents but that won't last forever since I'm looking for a job and I'll probably get on the mortgage housing ladder. All in all it could be worse.

im 35, just read some manga about a 30 year old guy who became an adventurer and made me cry

>>82288563
>Don't do that anon. Don't drink and find a better way to deal with things.
I legitimatelly enjoy drinking. I'm not talking about getting stone drunk, which has probably happened twice in the last five years, but it allows me to take a break from myself and also get a glimpse of the guy I used to be. If I could maintain the mindset I get into when I've had a couple of beers forever life would be completely different.

>>82288824
>30 year old guy who became an adventurer
Which manga is that?

>>82288910
i think name is The Middle-Aged Newbie Adventurer, Trained to the Brink of Death by the Strongest Party, Became Unbeatable, yes it is that long

>>82288824
I prefer the manga where the loser dude gets killed and falls out of a building, causing him to transport back to when he was a kid. He then goes full vengeful rapist mode to corrupt his childhood love interest.

>>82289006
can you drop the name, im in the mood for some reading

>>82289016
I'm honestly not sure the name. I'm trying to find it again. It's definitely a dark read. Even AI can't find it for me. I'll have to tag hunt for it and hope it comes up.

>>82289085
i read another dark one, its about a dude in his 30s i think who quits his job because he has finally decided he will rope, he suddendly makes friends with a little girl who is a ghost and a bad one at that like a demon, she fuels his suicide thoughts while completing a list of things he wanted to do before passing, cant remember the name but it was pretty good

>>82288588
>Lost my virginity at 29 (to a girl from this very board too
it was supposed to be me

>>82288563
>but at least you save a lot of money and might inherit the place, right?
NTA but it was always awkward when people used to say this to me and I had to say nope my parents rent the place so I wont inherit it

>>82289346
That sucks anon. Are your parents boomers by chance?

>>82289391
No they werent of that generation, they are good to me but they never earned a lot of money so they couldn't afford to buy a house

>>82289423
The only reason my parents were ever able to pay off their house was my dad inheriting some money when his parents died. They were shitty grandparents.

>>82278211
im in the negative, irrelevant to the point though

>not a single reply to shit post in this thread from days ago
what is the point of posting itt when you get no attention?
no wonder these generals die off so quick just a bunch of boomers crying and shit

>>82275884 (OP)

>How are you doing anon?

Lost both of my dogs to cancer then, lost my mom this April, still dealing with it, took care of her until she died in my arms due to cancer.

I can honestly say that I'm numb to any type of emotion whatsoever, it's like my pupils are slowly closing each day with a static facial expression, just mindlessly walking through the remaining of my days.

Not even Xanax or Valium helps anymore, with the sleepless nights.

Started smoking, but switched to vapes, which I hope I can quit soon, since I didn't do either up until now, I really dislike alcohol since I grew up with an alcoholic father and I can't stand it.

>Do you have a clear idea of what you have to do to improve your life?

Yes, I can't stay in this small town anymore, it feels like I'm underwater all the time, I feel like I wasted so much because of my comfort zone, but I couldn't leave because of certain circumstances.

>If so, are you taking action?

Yes, I'm planning to move out this September, to start from scratch, thankfully my job allows it, and I can work from a big city as well.

>Why?

I guess it's time for me to start living life for me, until now I only lived for others, my needs were non-existent. I'm trying to wrap my head around how just a simple step like moving out is so easy for a lot of people, and for me, it was a constant battle with different things that appeared out of nowhere.

>>82289543
that's good anon about moving to a big city. i know i should do the same to stand a chance at finding something for myself.

>>82289016
Found it: Umareru Kachi no Nakatta Jibun ga Anna no Tame ni Dekiru Ikutsuka no Koto

>>82289543
Hope everything goes well anon. Sorry about your loss.
I know what is like to have your own comfort zone turn into a golden cage.

Our lives would be better if modern phones weren't a thing. Every time you go out, you must always think about how someone can easily record you or take a pic of you and spread it all over the internet. It's pretty mortifying for me personally.

>>82287239
>yet
Nice me either I wanna get a kayak.
I agree with you about the atmosphere being most of the enjoyment. The way I see it even if I caught nothing at least I got out of my living room into nature
Don't roast my rod I left my other one at my friends so used my spare ugly stick

>>82289956
>>82289602

thank you both, hope everything goes well for you as well.

I'm 33, and I'm going back to the uni in a month. I have a remote job, but I don't do shit in it so I think I have the time for attending lessons.

I've spent the last decade or so socially and emotionally completely alone despite having a job. I don't think anything's going to change now, but I might try dating apps and doing some sports like archery if only to talk to women a few times.

I have no illusions that I'll ever make irl friends or find a relationship, but talking to someone for one day a month must be better than not talking to anyone for years.

I had a huge fight with my parents recently because they still refuse to acknowledge that I'm an adult despite my age, they still think they get to decide how I dress or how I live my life, and it's driving me crazy. I havent spoken to them in two weeks and frankly I dont want to speak to them for a few months or more now, because they seem to have no remorse nor the capacity to understand how much they pissed me off, judging from what my brother said. I know I'll regret it in a few years, but right now i think if I never spoke to them again I would be fine with it.

>>82288588
>Lost my virginity at 29 (to a girl from this very board too).
How does this even happen?

>>82290490
look at the fucking image appended to the post anon

holy fuck it takes long ass time to recover from last night drinking now. one whole day wasted

>>82290545
drink 2 beers a day and get to that cruising altitude

>>82290545
This right here
>>82290561
I've been drinking 1-2 beers a day all summer. Now I have 9 pints on a regular Saturday and I wake up just fine.

36 y/o, grandma died, bought a house in cash and have 500k that I'm burning through (it's invested), quit my job. No hobbies other than vidya and lifting weights (still look like shit).

Fiance of 2 years dumped me two years ago. My first real relationship. Keep getting ghosted on Hinge.

I miss aspects of work, and I miss my fiance, and I feel aimless just rotting in my house alone. I feel like I'm going feral. Oh, also, no friends (except discord, doesn't count). I'm probably mildly autistic. For sure super depressed and anxious, but at least Abilify takes away the feeling of dread and intense anxiety. Maybe Ann Hero when my money runs out in several years.

>>82290490
He's rich. His parents funded him a 6 month vacation in Japan probably just to avoid having to look at him for that long. He might have a dead sibling or something makes no sense for them to fund him so much.

34.
Wife's pregnant.

>>82290640
>I miss aspects of work
why don't you get another job?
>except discord, doesn't count
why not?
>Abilify
are you a diagnosed schizo or can this also help others with such feelings? is it addictive?
>several years
just how much are you spending? 500k and a house will surely last you 10+ years

>>82290640
Stop calling your ex your fiance

>>82290421
>I have no illusions that I'll ever make irl friends
if you put yourself out there you will have opportunities to strike up conversations with people. you just have to seize them. a conversation can be nice and can lift your spirit for a while even if you didn't get an actual friendship out of it (although a friendship surely will start with a conversation).

>>82290806
I've just been alone for so long that I can't see why anyone would like to socialize with me. I know it's all in my head, but it's been too long and I'm too old and comfortable in my loneliness now to change.

>>82290584
i need stop and start exercising i'm getting fat

>>82290921
>why anyone would like to socialize with me
you ask or say something interesting and they will talk to you

Dating apps are such a weird experience.
I can get matches with cute thin girls in their 20s and then be rejected by single moms in their 30s. Why am I not good enough for them?

>>82275884 (OP)
Awful, sometimes just want to fucking die
Not really.

Doing okay. I gotta lose some weight but I've been working on that. Cut out a lot of sugar from my diet and have been making conscious efforts to cut down on my portion sizes. If I feel I still need more food I replace it with vegetables and such to fill up without too many extra calories. Just want to feel better about myself.

>>82290711
There was only one job I ever liked, probably not gonna find that again. And even then, I only like parts of it.

Discord friends do not completley count. Better than nothing, but interacting in person has additional benefits.

Abilify is not addictive.

Yeah no doubt 500k will last a decade unless I am completely frivolous with money. My expenses are about 3k a month because insurances and property taxes are high. I cook 90% of the time, but the 10% eating out adds up so quick in the Seattle areal.

>>82291354
so your house must be another 500k at least
you could probably live for 25 years in a flyover and longer with comfy part time jobs

I've been neeting it up til my mid 30s and now? I'm scared shitless. How do I survive after my parents die? Neetbucks won't be enough. How does a 35 years old man get his first job with a high school diploma and a very bad health?

>>82291405
my neetbux is more than enough

>>82290640
500k is good for your age, im neet with only like half that and dont have a house
sounds like youre just complaining for the sake of complaining, woe is me etc etc
so youll be slumming it out in r9k for 10 more years crying about the 1 that got away

>>82275884 (OP)
>Irl friend gradually stops meeting up to do stuff in person and just becomes an online friend as they still text me a lot
It's a weird feel

>How are you doing anon?
am sad, and its me bday, didnt go to me uncles funeral today cuz i dont know what to do when folk start crying
>Do you have a clear idea of what you have to do to improve your life?
nope
>If so, are you taking action?
see above
>Why?
its hard to follow a clear path to anything if you dont have one

how am i supposed to compete with a 27 year old giga neet?

>>82289663
This is hard to read ngl, holy shit i feel more depressed now, thanks anon i needed that

>>82275884 (OP)
>How are you doing?
I have finally managed to break my curse of working jobs that lasted anywhere from 5.5months to 18 months. I feel elated that I've been at my current company for 2 years now.

>clear idea to improve life
I'm taking ASL classes in september, otherwise my life is mostly work, browsing internet and some gaming. Been getting into reading again, doing some mile long walks. plan on going to the gym in the winter when I have time

>why
at this point I still feel better than I was 10 years ago. even though I'm still single, it hits me different.
oh well, time to sleep, gotta wake up at 4am for work

>>82289543
You didn't deserve that bro I hope it gets better


>>82290640
Why did your finance walk out

>>82291405
31 here and asking myself the same question. I am legitimately considering committing a crime so I can live in prison at that point. It's certainly not ideal but better then the streets. I have no fucking clue how I'm going to dig myself out of this hole.

>>82291405
>How do I survive after my parents die?
I'm only staying alive for my parents, once they go I go.

Probably just going to give up on relationships. I pretty much have everything else sorted out, but women are awful.

I feel like i'm time traveling bros, 32 is around the corner, nothing much has changed in the last few years.

Sorta feels like I am just coasting though life, nothing good or bad is happening, but its pretty boring. Hobbies and interests don't hit the way they used to.

>>82289530
Which was your post?
This thread is brilliant
>Survived 2 days
>ai sex bot posts
>Majority of people are robots/wizards
>Someone mentioned manga
This is it mang

>>82275884 (OP)
i'm 34 and i am going to troon out. heil hitler.

>>82289988
What are you doing that you think would be recorded and used against you?

>>82292305
Told you it was dark. There's kind of an opposite manga to it where a dude falls into a pool and is transported back to when he's a kid and turns into an absolute Chad. There's a lot of little girl nudity in that one. Can't remember the name of it either.

>>82294750
Normies record things they find weird or not normal. So even if you're just doing normal things, if you look awkward, have weird hair, outdated clothes, etc. you'll end up getting put online for everyone to laugh at.

Got some news that someone I knew from high school committed suicide yesterday. I wasn't particularly close to them, but it was still shocking news.

>>82294754
Anon are you schizo? I've never once seen that ever in all the times I've been in public. How fucking crazy do you look?

>>82294784
Just extremely ugly, which makes me a prime target. I also have bad social anxiety, which also makes me a big target. There's plenty of tiktoks where, for example, women make fun of some dude just for working out weirdly.

>>82275884 (OP)
>How are you doing anon?
Been good. Keeping my head above water, helping my family with their issues, and me and the gf took some time apart so we could get our priorities in order. I think we're doing a lot better now.
>Do you have a clear idea of what you have to do to improve your life?
Not really.
>If so, are you taking action?
I'm just sorta floating. Originally I was planning to but a house down south but opted out for various reasons. I might pick that plan up some time in the future but right now I'm happy where I'm living and my business is doing pretty good. If it ain't broken and all that.
>Why?
I'm pretty satisfied with my life all things considered. Like sure, it's all a pointless cruel cosmic joke and it's all going to end some day and I'm filled with hate and regrets just as much as the next guy but why focus on the bullshit when I can just enjoy the little peace and happiness I've been able to carve out in my little corner of the world.

I'm considering turning my guest bedroom back into my mancave like how it was when I first moved in.
>>82276022
That's either animal cruelty or bestiality depending on how weird you are.
>>82279882
That's part of maturing fully. It's not too late for you to fix that but that's on you. i'm just some retarded attention whore/gluten for punishment on the internet

>>82294810
>where, for example
Do you work out weirdly? Do you were weird outfits? Unless you're elephant man no one really gives a shit unless you're being annoying.
>but tiktok
You're 30+ why do you care?

>>82294861
>Do you work out weirdly? Do you were weird outfits?
Doesn't matter and the fact you're asking means you know I'm right and it does happen.
>Unless you're elephant man no one really gives a shit unless you're being annoying
Which is it, you agree it does happen or nobody gives a shit? You're contradicting yourself.
>You're 30+ why do you care?
Now you believe it does happen again. Make up your fucking mind. I care because it shows that normies will record you and put you on the internet for not being copies of them. If you don't see the problem with that, you're clearly a normie yourself and therefore need to get the fuck off this board. Go back to /b/, /soc/, any other boards that are for you, reddit, etc..

>>82294921
I never said it didn't happen, I said I've never once seen it. Additionally if you are dressing like a freak or being a dumb cunt irl then yes you will probably be recorded.
>I care because it shows that normies will record you and put you on the internet for not being copies of them
Again, just how fucking crazy are you for this to occur?
If I am a normie then why is it that I've never seen this or care about such things?

>>82275884 (OP)
>Do you have a clear idea of what you have to do to improve your life?
Yeah

>>82282213
Happy birthday anon, you're one of us now for what it's worth.

>>82282213
Welcome, mr. Virgo

>>82290037
I thought about getting a kayak but it feels a bit cramped for me, don't have the room to store it either and I don't trust an inflatable one with hooks.

>Don't roast my rod
I've been using a couple of Yokozuna rods I bought for 35 bucks each years ago for surfcasting. I'm not a gear fag.

>>82291896
Happy birthday anon!
If don't have a clear path focus on at least having a comfy life.

>hear customer in the background watching a 10 ten anime seasonal video, pauses it at silent witch

The moment I hang up I'm gonna send an email and sneak the email in for him to watch Silent Witch.

>2+ days old, 200+ replies /30/ thread
What kind of sorcery is this?

black coffee and cigarettes really nicely enhances this existential dread i feel everyday. thank god its soon winter
https://youtu.be/7Ai7lt1nYg0?si=7Z4yUI9irSDEYh5p

>>82296101
this is the board now

>>82295144
>blah blah blah selection bias
You lost. Thanks for admitting you're wrong, I'm right, and you're just a normie that needs to get the fuck off the board. I accept your concession. Filtered. Now be a good attention seeking normie and reply more, I know you can't resist. You're already typing.

>>82296123
Amen brother.
Can't wait to get comfy under a blanket and drink whisky.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y7A9FyQGzak

>>82280816
>wanting to kill myself over still being a virgin
Tell me anon why all this?

>>82275884 (OP)
>How are you doing anon?
I'm annoyed that my industry is collapsing even harder than the rest of my country's economy
I'm annoyed that my tism hobbies are losing the gen xers and getting more and more gen zers, who are dumb retards that think they're anime girls

>>82296074
Yeah the inflatable ones are half the price but I have the same concern. And it'd be fucking embarrassing for it to pop in the middle of the river kek
Nice setup, so serene. I need to get over to Lake Huron and fish like that I've just been river fishing

I'll say this. I took the
>just start working out
pill, and I think the /fit/ bois are onto something. I was a 145lb skinny fat with a pregnant belly for several years. Pic rel is after about ~6 months worth of home workout and better diet. I swear its real the attention you get when you're relatively fit. Nurses comment on your muscles, girls make remarks when they see you with your shirt off, even people at work commented on progress.

And I'm by no means a gym rat. I do an at home routine on average 3 times per week, I try to minimize sugar intake and get as much protein as possible. That's it. I'm around 170lb and still have a bit of a belly when sitting, but after working out I sleep better and my cock gets harder. Correlation? Not sure, but at 36 I feel better than I've felt in a long time desu.

>>82296655
>my cock gets harder. Correlation? Not sure,
Yes, exercise improves your blood flow, gives better control of your BP, and raises your T levels
All of which make peepee harder

How do you cope with being a 30+ KHV? I thought I could handle it but my brain feels like it's on 24/7 survival mode.

>>82296672
All my life I thought that having and dealing with women was just a massive headache.
I haven't made a move on a woman in 10+ years.

>>82296672
I'm a Schizoid, so pretty easily actually

>>82296669
That makes perfect sense. I never really tried to overthink much. Just lifted heavy stuff to try to get bigger.

>>82296655
I lack willpower to stick to calisthetics as I have nothing to do with normies at gym.

>>82294549
you have depression

>>82296988
Is there a way to fix it or is it for life?

>>82296988
>realize that consuming slop isn't actually fun
>"it's depression"
nah, it's just waking up

>>82296921
>I lack willpower to stick to calisthetics as I have nothing to do with normies at gym.
I canceled my gym membership after 2 months. Even as something as chill as a Planet Fitness it was terrible having to interact with that culture of people.
This is what I started with: https://www.academy.com/p/cap-barbell-40-lb-cast-iron-dumbbell-set?sku=40-lbs-black
then upgraded to this later:
https://www.academy.com/p/cap-barbell-cast-iron-weight-set

After about a month I wasn't really growing much with calisthenics. I was in better shape, but it was a chore and I was bored. I didn't really see muscle growth until I started using weights with a simple progressive overload routine.

Nothing like doing something you enjoy for money to stop enjoying it.

>>82297163
People seem to get too much into the gymbro culture, which is filled with people on all kinds of gear & no life outside the gym. In reality, you don't need that much money to get fit. All you really need is a barbell, some plates, an adjustable bench, and dumbbells.

dont care
lol no

t.38 year old NEET on welfare gibs

>>82297624
How do you get welfare gibs?

>>82290490
>How does this even happen?
I was speaking to a fembot in a thread and I posted my Discord and she added me. That was it.

>He's rich. His parents funded him a 6 month vacation in Japan probably just to avoid having to look at him for that long.
Nope not rich. I had a fulltime job so I was able to save.

>>82297638
Europe

Just you know, free gibs

>>82275884 (OP)
My contract is ending and I never even got a reply from all the applications I sent.
Getting that advanced degree is not worth it unless you happened to pick a field that has a good amount of jobs after you finish. Your life would literally be more enjoyable if you got a dead end job and spent your time gaming.

>>82297667
Can't get that in the US unless you're illegal or black, it seems. At best, I can get free health insurance that I use maybe once every 5-10 years.

>>82296101
looking at the time stamps and IP's just a very dedicated anon this time around. good on him, I knew he could do it.

>>82297701
There are like 50 30+ anons on this board just waiting for threads like this but too lazy to create them. A lot of us just lurk.

>>82297713
Yes, yes, that's the spirit.

In all seriousness I shouldn't be so hard on that idea, better you all think/larp this place is filled with old men than the idea girls would come here. That's just being cruel to all the lonely retards here.

>>82297713
>>82297736
We all lurk because the board is just a mashup of /pol/, /gif/, and /b/ at this point. All the normies, bots, etc. moved in and most of the real robots left the site many years back. This is very evident in the yearly (or was until jannies killed it) /ssg/ that saw the numbers plummet year after year.

>>82297771
It's more you can't prove anything and it's just assumptions. That's what I find strange is these threads inability to stay stable are strong evidence that we don't have much of any active old group when compared to other boards. To assume their are lurkers is just a story you tell yourself. The real question is why do you think they need to be here?

>>82297805
It's not an assumption. It's very clear that the board changed and is no longer a place for robots. If you can't see that, you're new and one of the normies I'm talking about.

>>82297852
>It's very clear that the board changed and is no longer a place for robots.
Point out in my post where I was talking about robots
You won't

You are so tied to your story you are making false realities of what posts are being made.

>>82297906
>It's more you can't prove anything and it's just assumptions
There it is. That applies to my entire post. You're very low IQ. Also, good job not even denying that you're new & a normie. Thanks for outing yourself.

>>82286872
i was him for a while. my current job is only interested in promoting women. and every good position is already gifted to the nepo nephew. so yeah stfu about job prospects. every car owner is in debt

>>82297940
So are you admitting this general is likely just some Janny or kid shitposting to keep a thread up?

>>82298012
Never said that, but cool strawman. Goddamn, you normies really are incredibly low IQ.

>>82297574
Lots of people would buy a step by step guide on how to breath. They join a gym to have everything form routine to diet handed over to them. I've seen people with a beer belly counting carbs and proteins when they could just do some basic lifting and cardio and get good results if they stick to it.

>>82297805
>That's what I find strange is these threads inability to stay stable
Most of them have a lazier OP post and are quickly forgotten or fall into doomerism/self pitty rather quickly, this one has a nice balance.

>>82298161
I could use a step-by-step guide on how to walk because I'm ridiculously awkward about it.

>>82278211
Probably at least 50

>>82275884 (OP)
I'm turning 30 in a couple months
Life is generally turning for the worse, every interacting I have with normalfags feels like a humiliation ritual and I can't help but shake the feeling I die alone and miserable

>>82298408
Why would you be miserable if you're old and alone? Would you rather be like a large % of elderly that can't do most things on their own and are a huge burden to their family or are in constant physical pain?

>>82297771
i'm a /tv/ refugee

>>82298679
If you're not a robot, you don't belong here. 100% touchless virgins only.

>>82275884 (OP)
I'm 31 and I got kicked out of my parents house two months ago after a long career of NEETdom.
I am now living with a guy I have been roleplaying with online for 3 years now and it's actually going well and I didn't get murdered surprisingly.
Funny enough getting kicked out is what pushed me into having gay sex finally.

>>82298694
i had one short kiss and some touch. then i ghosted her and everyone else as well and haven't had friends in 15 years.

>>82298715
Catching or pitching?
(Originally)

I'm 31.

>How are you doing anon?
Bad. I've stopped going to work because my depression has worsened once again and i can't bear the normie act anymore. I consequently have no money (i have nothing saved as well because i'm poor). I'm hoping having financial problems on top of the rest will trigger a long due suicide.
>Do you have a clear idea of what you have to do to improve your life?
Like most here but in my own way, i'm broken beyond repair. The only difference is that i'm a femanon and i look fuckable enough so looking at me superficially you'd never guess the chaos and the extreme loneliness, which is even more ostracizing. People assume i've fucked around but i've always been deeply afraid of men, never felt love, never even held hands. I feel like a different species than my peers, and at my age i know it's over. I'm too stuck in my ways now.
>Do you have a clear idea of what you have to do to improve your life?
No. It was over in childhood for me.

>>82298755
I'm the catcher lol

>see old coworker from my first job who I was friends with
>we had talked a couple years back about getting together again
>they turn to look at me, look me in the eye, then turn back like they don't know me
>just kept walking

I get it was just a job but kinda felt like shit

>tfw rarely talk and go weeks at a time without talking
>tfw my voice is completely fucked from no use and being incredibly weak

>>82298819
Don't take it personally. I'm an outgoing person but bad with faces and had a ton of jobs/classes over the years, and been in that person's shoes before. They're thankful to be remembered by you but it was a long time ago. They likely even regret not knowing how to respond once they fully remember you.

>>82298796
I have to admit that it I saw a somewhat pretty girl I'd assume there is no way for her to feel like that, but then again people have assumed the same about me.

>>82298796
You kinda did this to yourself.

>>82298843
Relatable. I don't know my original voice anymore.
Some times I think my voice has a slight hint of whatever last show or movie I've watched.

>>82298843
i can tell i've started to forget how to make certain sounds from being silent for so long, sometimes when i try to talk i have difficulty saying certain things

I've become middle age dad phenotype
soft face
tired weary visage
pocked weathered skin
glasses
pattern balding
I miss looking young.
will there ever be regular 40+ threads? the older of us are there already.

>>82299122
I'm now starting on humming at various times in the day and hope it helps get mine back to normal.
>I don't know my original voice anymore
I honestly haven't known what mine is since 4th grade.

>>82299231
Same, my pronunciation & enunciation is all fucked up. I can say it in my head, but trying to actually say it is a no-go.

You do know we can trace this stuff right?
right?

>>82298989
It's a blessing and a curse. A blessing because i can easily blend in, a curse because i'm never seen for what i really am (therefore cant truly ever connect with another human being).

>>82299065
Not entirely, i'm the product of my circumstances, like we all are. I could fuck yeah, but i don't want to. I actually never want to, so it's a good thing for men that i'm lonely because no man would ever stay with a woman who doesn't want to have sex. But i'm suffering from this extremely marginalized life and i don't think it is really my fault.

>>82299244
Sounds like youll never get to feel a girls hymen break. You missed your only chance. Just go shoot up a sports stadium, and show them you arent to be messed with.

Does anyone know any inexpensive activities to get your mind off of extreme worry or hurt? Walking around town like I usually do is not going to cut it for the hurt I might experience. I would need something more escalated. Nothing that involves sitting at home because that will be impossible for me.

>>82299314
I'm old. Not a mentally unstable right winger.

>>82299382
Your life is over, sounds like all the good times are in the past. Time to sleep a lot. Theres never going to be a cute virgin wife.

>>82299293
You could choose to recognize that you're not being entirely rational or reasonable about men, and likely about sex as well. But you aren't willing to step outside your comfort zone even a little bit.

>>82299357
Simply going for a run has always worked for me, run until you can't think and it burns in your legs/lungs

>>82299407
You are a nonce or something?

>>82299357
Any kind of work out is going to do it to some extent. I'd suggest morning walks in nature over night walks. Try to find an outdoors activity that may interest you, for me it's fishing.
Also whole I mostly do them inside, drawing and reading also work for me because the require focus.>>82299382

>>82299613
Oh im sorry, there is going to be a virgin wife with a tight pussy in 2 weeks. Set your phone.

>>82299657
Are you okay?
You talk like this in real life?

>>82299678
bots don't have real lives

>>82299413
I can recognize i'm not being rational, i know i'm not, but if i were able to break the pattern i wouldn't be here and you wouldn't be either. We have a limited power of self determination; what we are is mostly the consequences of what we have lived through. You can delude yourself into thinking we have absolute free will if you want.

>>82299678
A cute girl is going to suck your penis in 2 hours. Just go walk to the park.

>>82299688
or someone who thinks they're an troll
cornered them into a loop in just 2 replies

>>82298796
Why are you so scared of men?

>>82299702
Lmao the mad lad actually is walking to the park. Thats why he gave up replying. He seriously believes it.

>>82299357
>the hurt I might experience
are you the anon in dnipro who is about to get sent to die in a miserable bullshit war or something

>>82275884 (OP)
39, I spent my teens and 20's fighting with invasive gay thoughts. in my late 20's and early 30's I finally accepted I love cocks and want to crossdress but only did it once a year ago and felt like it was already too late for me cause im so old already. Biggest filter for me was the make-up and skin-care. I should have worked on that instead of doing all the other things hated doing for so many years. I basically avoided what I really wanted to do my entire life and made myself suffer doing things I don't really like and now im just broke. I actually admire those people that can dress up and go out in public and suck cocks at glory holes and shit what the fuck.

>>82299927
The usual, emotionally and physically abusive father, almost raped when i was a child, and being chronically online as a teen in 2010 didn't help because i would read anon saying the most violent and degrading things on 4chan. All of that cemented the fear in me. I'm sure there are good guys, but the risk isn't worth it for me. I'm already too fragile.

>>82300103
The vast majority of men are "good guys", at least in the sense that they're not going to rape or beat you or anything like that. I'm sorry you didn't have good people around you when you were young, though. I hope for your sake that one day you can allow someone the opportunity to try to dispel (or at least assuage) your fears.

>305 replies
For once we live

>>82300159
Thank you. At 31 i have no hope left in me, but that's nice of you to say.

>>82296655
Looking built dude. 25lbs is pretty intense weight gain 6 months, how'd you manage that?

>>82300324
we all feel hopeless but if you try anyway you may find that it is not so.