>>82287263
I can't. I'm mentally disabled by aspergers (sensory problems) which also gave me low self esteem. I cannot be a normal person. I've been a NEET since 12 years old. It was over a long time ago. My life has peaked, this is it. NEETing at home, playing vidya and gardening. That's my entire world. This is all I can be
When I recovered from the long term stress and extreme agitation of sensory bombardment for years, I gave it a good stab at it when I was 18-20, I tried to go out and do normoid things. I was working out, I gained a good physique and physical strength, I overcame the social anxiety I had developed in my teenage years from isolation, but all I did was discover my own limits, which sent me into a deep depression. I couldn't do anything. I quit everything. It all just made me feel sick. I couldn't even play vidya or watch tv, all I could do for a couple of years was stare into blank space and contemplate
I never really got over it, really. I never found a way, I never came to a conclusion or answer. You can only suffer so much and life goes on and you learn to reconcile that you will never be the person you wanted to be or that you can respect. And that's just life for some people. That's life for me. It's going to always be that way. It's only downward from here
