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Dating apps are scams we're not retards so I won't go into how or why plus we all pretty much have the same experience.

My interactions with my female coworkers are for about 5 minutes before we have to start boarding. For the rest of 3 hours I sit alone in a room with 5-17 dogs cleaning up their piss and shit and entertaining and comforting/petting them.

While waiting for the bus at the train station today I almost stepped onto the tracks for an upcoming train nobody was around and I felt such a pull... But that insticnt of self preservation or fear of death always kicks in and here we are. Just hoping and praying for the day that that I can just ignore that feeling and give in. Technology advancements and AI scare me and I'm not tech savvy so everything becoming digital frustrates me. The news gives me hope for apocalypse but I know that if there would be an actual apocalypse I would just to die because I'm a retard who can't do anything or be killed by a main character Chad.
My outlook is beyond bleak. I am not having a good time. I believe in God but I don't believe prayer does anything I don't believe in a interventionist God. Just one who watches his fantasy play out like a cuck and this cuck hates me.