a bit off topic but I think it's finally happened
I used to see people talking about their waifus or fictional character crushes and started wondering if maybe there was something wrong with me since I never felt the same. Wondered if maybe I was broken somehow. Especially after getting into Touhou... yknow all these characters I like and yet not a single one of them I have feelings for besides as characters
Then I saw her in Th20 and at first I just thought "wow I really like this character they're so funny" but I've been thinking about them non-stop and I get this feeling in my heart kinda like that choking feeling I get when I'm really anxious but less choking and more giddying and I started asking for more art and gens of her everywhere, talking about her to anyone that'd listen, downloading pictures of her and then it slowly sunk in
I think I'm in love with Nina Watari

I finally found my waifu...

(also holy shit this bodes incredibly poorly for me if schizo conspiracy nuts is what my taste in romantic partners is)