>>149877780
I live in a shithole redneck area so there are barely any activities or social events for anyone that isnt a literal child or elderly. Society just doesnt care about people in my demographic and i resent society all the same for it. Also its been too hot for walking at all in the last two years. I want to meet friends with like minded interests around my own age but there just isnt anything sociable in my area and the internet is designed against socializing like it used to be merely 5 or so years ago. Im tired of life, i know i cant kill myself but sometimes i really deeply want to. I want so very deeply for things to get better but after 10+ years of events going downhill why would they suddenly change course out of the blue and improve now? I dont know if life will ever return to normal ever again or if ill ever not want to shoot my brains out anymore past this point