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y'all are right; it's a really stupid and cringy story but here goes:
(Preamble for a bit of context: This April I confessed that I had a crush on this girl. She said she was flattered, but wanted to just be friends first cuz she didn't like the idea of jumping into a relationship out of the blue. Made sense to me at the time, especially cuz we only knew each other online. Ever since then we texted a few times a month, sharing pics and such. I never got close enough to consider her a friend, just an acquaintance at best.)
Recently, my crush started streaming on twitch after amassing a small following on Twitter that documented her craft projects and conventions. I began watching her, and was an active chatter. (There were enough other chatters that it wasn't awkward or simp-y at the time). Recently, she decided to play Halo CE, and I didn't realize until the final mission that she was playing with music off. Just SFX and voices. Now, I understand that there is no one right way to play a game, and I was willing to forgive and forget, but the thing is she played the most famous part of the game, the Maw's Warthog Run, without music on.
After the stream wrapped up, I went into our DMs and wrote a stupid spiel about how much the music in the final section elevates the game urging her to at least watch someone replay that part of the mission with music on and so on and so forth.
Immediately after sending it, I regretted writing the whole thing. It was stupid and autistic and basically "um acktchyually"d my own crush. She sent back an emoji and "I'll listen to it". I needed outside help to decipher what the emoji meant, but essentially boiled down to an awkward "what did I just read" reaction." In a moment of sheepishness, I decided to be extra retarded and vent about my regrets and feelings in a discord server- which I completely expected her to ignore, as she wasn't very active on it unless explicitly pinged.
(cont.)
