>>95728325Does the game actually bear your pitch out? All of the memes about "oh no [Lovecraftian element] I'm going innnnnnssaaaaaaane!!!!" exist for a reason. Although I guess ultimately the game's what you make of it. If you decide to tug on Cthulhu's tentacles, spit into Nyarlathotep's face, and pull the mask off of Hastur then you've made your choice even if your character's just going to see a Dark Souls YOU DIED screen. A better choice, I guess, than to just never fill out a character sheet at all because you know all the stuff you know.
But I don't see CoC as the place for an epiphany like: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2gXaMnkmGq0
Just can't shake the feeling, even if I get what you're saying.
I don't really think a D&D protag is less heroic or the D&D universe is less hostile. I think it's more hostile. In CoC, big C doesn't care about you. Maybe a fishman'll want to fuck you, give you some of them Innsmouth looking buttbabies. In D&D, Asmodeus cares, a lot. And someone in the Upper Planes might, insofar as they can point you at the never-ending Blood War, or Asmodeus, or some other villain. And if you decide to be evil? You get rewarded. Decide to be good? Same. And if you choose neutrality good and evil want to stomp you for it.
>>95728338NTA, but it's cool if you don't like it. I'm in grimdark fatigue myself. Or more accurately, mudcore fatigue. I still think that CoC can be a good game and a lot of people can have fun with it. I had a fun time playing Stygian: Rise of the Old Ones (granted it's a video game) and it does get misery porn-y at times.