When did you get blackpilled?

There have been 3 blackpilling moments in my life
>parents got divorced
>when I didn't get an internship out of college
>when I came to realize that 90% of your abilities are dictated by genetics, and "just working hard bro" for that remaining 10% is ultimately unrewarding and just leaves you more depressed about your inadequacies

This sounds edgy but I was about 13 and being abused at home. I was seriously mentally ill, showing obvious signs like crying at school, underweight, shitty clothes etc, told my grandma I was thinking of killing myself and she told my mother who just screamed at me. I didn't really understand why no one was helping me. As time went on my feelings were just gone and I couldn't feel empathy, happiness, cry or laugh anymore, just an empty person.

Age 16 I just had enough, someone started on me at school and I beat the shit out of them. If anyone was unpleasant to me I shouted and swore at them and I started ignoring everyone around me cause it was becoming clear they were retards. Mummy was depriving me of food and shower, told her to move or she was going to hospital.

I'm now a doctor and don't see my parents/family and while it was years ago I will never forget those days, how absolutely no one helped and how I was utterly alone and how the only thing which sorted it out was violence, threats and thinking for myself. Obviously it isn't necessary anymore and my life is drama free but it will stick with me the rest of my life and normgroids just don't seem to get how alone everyone is at the end of the day.

>>211396243
>>when I came to realize that 90% of your abilities are dictated by genetics, and "just working hard bro" for that remaining 10% is ultimately unrewarding and just leaves you more depressed about your inadequacies

Not true bro. You get the odd freak and it matters but hard work and good parents both make a huge difference. I am a doctor and have seen it first hand at children's mental health clinics, it is incredibly rare for someone to be there without obvious parental failures. I've also met plenty of people with great jobs who I'm highly doubtful would have been able to hack it without good parents and a grammar/private school education.

Basically as a child, several times I was ganged up on by adult women after an accusation was made about me by a girl.

>>211396285
I've worked hard at many things in life and ultimately wound up extremely disappointed with the results. The things which I'm good at came to me with ease, sadly they're not things I care about. I'm pushing 40 and basically just checked out about a decade ago.

>>211396252
Bro... Im so glad you made it. Fucking impressive.
>>211396163 (OP)
I have quite literally never encountered severe adversity in my life. I have a healthy son, a wife who loves me, a big bicep and a fun job.

>>211396252
Just hit the gym bro just talk to the school counsellor bro

I saw the sneed joke.

>>211396323
Thankyou but sometimes I feel like I didn't really win. I am still unhappy and I think it's unlikely I'll ever have a normal life as opposed to being a "fake normie".

>>211396345
Lol gym was never suggested but counsellor was. I can't really remember what we went over but I think I managed to offend them through awful social skills or not understanding social etiquette.... which is expected if a child misses out on normal development and I feel like they should have been understanding of.

The whole thing was just disappointing how no-one helped and even now I have seen it with normgroids. Literally seen them walk past a young child crying in middle of street without parents presumably cause 1% chance of being called a pedo isn't worth stopping to find their parents to avoid some psycho abducting them. They just don't help if you are in need and there is any risk or inconvenience to themselves.

>>211396322
Idk maybe you haven't really had much direction or planning ahead. I know career guidance people get growing up varies massively from being encouraged to drop out of school to being guided down appropriate path when they're 12 and splashing out £30k a year on private school. I would not be too harsh on yourself I always thought it was genetics which determined success but med school was a real eye opener, if they're exceptionally good or bad it will have a defining effect but this is rare.

>>211396435
People dont help they just said they would to seem like a "good" person im glad you got out of your situation though anon it could've ended way worse at least

>>211396285
>a grammar/private school education
the quality of education is less important than the quality of peer groups in these schools. if you go to a shitty public school in a bad area you will be making friends with losers and are much more likely to become one as well just by hanging out with the kids of retarded criminals whose parents are on meth and molesting them. as opposed to going to a good school ie. private school (filters broke losers who can't afford it), academically selective schools (literally filtering idiots out by design) or a nice public school in a rich area (filtering brokies who can't afford to live in a good school catchment zone). but this all comes back to
>good parents
this is all that matters. if you have good parents they will be making sure you go to a decent school or more accurately, they will do whatever they need to do to make sure you don't end up in some shithole public school.

>>211396508
Yes this is exactly what they do.

Thankyou I guess it has turned out rather well in the end. My younger self would certainly be proud.

>>211396252
Shit man, I'm sorry for you. Sounds like you have absolutely stellar survival instincts though, good for you making a life out of that mess.

I hope you treat innocent people with kindness despite what was done to you. Breaking cycles of abuse is one of the hardest but also most meaningful things we can accomplish with our lives.

>>211396163 (OP)
when it was revealed to me that my online friend group essentially all had sex with eachother at different points in time. then i was told that real life friend groups always do the same thing. i was really disappointed, part of it was just hopelessness because i never imagined a girl i liked would ever be that kind of person. boy oh boy did i learn this one late in life. just don't want to know anyone anymore

>>211396527
Really accurate and almost exactly what I think. Good school (whether that is private, grammar or a comprehensive but the highest performing one in the area) and good parents (rich doesn't always mean good but strongly correlated obviously) seem to make a huge difference.

>>211396584
Thankyou. Looking back on it I think so much of it was just luck, like there were so many ways it could have gone differently.

Yeah I would never do this. First few weeks I was on a children's ward and saw how children actually looked/acted (much younger than when you're one yourself or see them in the street) I just couldn't understand why someone would ever hurt them yet alone someone who was 30+.

>>211396627
What is the problem with this? Cheating is awful but just being a slut doesn't mean someone is a shitty person and it's not like they'll be fucking other people while you're with them

>>211396670
i don't think they're shitty for doing that, i just feel like a retard. i am the shitty one, i'm overly judgmental i think

>>211396696
Oh sorry I misinterpreted that. I'm a KV myself so don't have a clue on this.

When I started carrying my meme folder with me everywhere I went

When I realized I was born into a country that's spent the last 200 years being bounced around between incompetent and malicious rulers like a whore, into a family that despises me no matter how hard I tried or whatever I achieved, into a religion I despise, with a chronic illness that'll probably end in me painfully shitting my guts out and the fact that nothing I'll ever do will amount to anything because I've had a late start and will probably get bombed to ash before I produce anything of note.
Oh you mean movies and televsion it's when I saw american gladiators and thought "damn, I'll never have an Storm/Blaze gf"

>>211396656
>I just couldn't understand why someone would ever hurt them yet alone someone who was 30+.
I've interacted with a lot of shitty parents, and while some people end up in bad circumstances where it becomes hard to be a good parent, most really monstrous parents are mentally ill, narcissistic or psycopathic or similar. Types who should have never had children and don't posess even the slightest bit of empathy or care for their kids beyond how the children reflect back on them to the outside world.
It's terrifying.

there's no such thing as the blackpill. it's made up newfag nonsense. there's either the redpill or the bluepill and if you're not redpilled you're bluepilled. hope that clear things up

>tfw had loving parents, went to a good school, never abused. no mental illness but still blackpilled incel neet
haha...

>>211396163 (OP)
in my teens

>>211396243
ahh the gattaca pill. that's a really harsh one. I recommend philosophy, comedy. work out as much as possible

/tv/ - feelings and shit

I grew up as a fat kid and never had female attention. Then when I was around 16 I started doing martial arts and lost a ton of weight and gained quite a bit of muscle. The change in how I was treated was stark as fuck. Since then I've hated society.