>>212270575 (OP)Iโm seriously thinking about killing myself bros. I keep having dreams about my oneitis from college and then I wake up very depressed and full of regret about how my lack of confidence and self esteem issues back then prevented me from trying to pursue her despite the interest she showed in me. She used to sit down next to me before class and talk to me, she even asked me for a ride to her car one time when she could have walked. And I knew she liked me but I just convinced myself I was being delusional because I thought k was way uglier than I really was. I was so stupid. Funny thing is this only started Halle ing recently in the last year, but since turning 30 theyโre happening so often and Iโm just so depressed over it. I hate my life now and canโt get over my regrets. Iโm thinking about just going to a shooting range and blow on my brains out. I hate my job, gf, wife, house, no friends, no close relationship with my family, no money to start over. Itโs over for me bros. JDIMSA