>>212468447I personally lean towards your sentiment but I think it's the kind of thing a person won't understand until they've experienced it. I was OP once and it took me my first (and hopefully only) relationship to realize what you're saying.
A year back I found a girl and somehow ended up in a relationship, it was very much a one in a billion type chance event because I never thought someone like me had any hope of being in a relationship. And I still don't, it's something that happened by pure chance. I can't get any girls even if I wanted to and there are actual, solid reasons for that, not due to lack of trying.
Now this bitch, I broke up with her just 3 weeks ago after putting up with so much bullshit, like you wouldn't even believe. I became a doormat for her thinking she was eventually gonna return some consideration towards me but she never did. It was a mutual breakup and it ended on a pretty bad note. I gave her everything, received nothing in return. I just genuinely regret crossing paths with her and I think I've had my fill of relationships now. Women kinda disgust me after her because this girl was almost the exact caricature of all the undesirable traits women are commonly criticized for. Completely averse to any kind of accountability, no real ability or willingness to return care, remorseless liar, borderline delusional. I used to think these criticisms only come from incels or whatever, but I think they might be based in reality somewhat. When it comes to a good few women out there at least. So be warned OP. For what it's worth, I do genuinely hope you find an actual nice girl, but just know that there's a risk you might run into a complete and total bitch that leaves you a mess.
