Good or not, never hate or resent your father. Your father is just another guy living his life. His actions don't reflect upon you, you aren't any better or lesser of a man yourself because of what he does.
>>212686583 In a time of non existence mental health, and with the social prejudice of having a sick son, he sends him to a private teacher to learn sign language. Life was hard af back then, he did what was necessary to set him up in life.
I thought of my father as someone getting in my way most of the time growing up. As I got around a bit in the world I realized that he was right almost all the time and even when he actually didn't have any idea what he was talking about, he still was trying to do right by me. We have more in common than anyone else and he's now my best friend if I ever had one.