>>212741529>I don't want my first time to be with a woman who doesn't love me for who I amThis idealised concept of your "first time" is so incredibly damaging. Most people's first times are either a drunken one-night-stand, or with their highschool partner and empty teenage platitudes.
An incredibly small amount of people actually love their partner with any sort of maturity their first time. And if your upset is that you don't care, you think it's the right way of doing it like some tradcuck, then don't complain that you're missing out on an experience that so many others have.
Either join a church, be a moral (lol) and sociable man that church-going fathers would want their daughters to marry (mormonism is pretty perfect for that I hear), or get over this retarded notion that sex is some magical thing that only happens between 2 people who deeply love each other.
And you also need to accept that "who (You) are" is someone who hasn't found love yet. I'm not saying there's definitely something wrong with you. But you're on 4chan complaining about being a virgin so there's probably something wrong with you.
The biggest lie that's been internalised is this idea that everyone is perfect the way they are and there's someone for everyone. Charisma is a thing. Popularity is a thing. If one can attract lots of people, one can also attract no people. No one's perfect, but you need to put effort in to actually connecting with others.
You're delusional if you think that you can just rant about trannies 24/7 and eventually find a girl who wants to marry you and hear those rants.