>>716203064 (OP)
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>>716203064 (OP)
To be wanted, to be able to provide and care for someone.
To save someone from hardship. Its like the biggest dream for me.
I always romanticized the idea of such a woman. Expecting to have something in common with her. I am quite damaged too after all. Like what Ronnie said. "A girl that hates everything I do, expect me."
There is no such thing as a woman in OP's. Its like tsundere. Just sublimation of specific attractive qualities.
Despite spending most of my life in communities centred around mental illness, I met very few of crazy women. I only got close to one, and she wanted to make me a cuckold, despite never having sex with me in the first place. The whole situation with her was just sad rly, but I learned lots about women so that's good.
I am a caretaker. I was always trying to help others. Spent countless hours in various support groups listening to people about their problems. One would think I would meet countless crazies through that method. However, what they don't tell you is every crazy bitch got an army of orbiters to bitch to. You know who don't have anyone despite being in a fucking support group for ACoAs/depression/bpd etc.? Single man.
Its really grim. So naturally when I joined a community to help others, I would talk to those who needed it. I regularly talked to over a 100 people or more and only few of those were women.
I still would gladly date and marry the idea. But the real thing is not like me at all. Real thing is a single mother of 2, with unresolved mental issues sprinkled on top.
btw. don't care if you read or not. Blogposting about my life on anonymous forums works better than therapy for me.
