>>717598317 >Look at me stabbing myself in the leg, i am such not a pussy! please fuck my wife and rape me and empty my bank balance because im such a hardcore not pussy male
>>717598276 (OP)
Do something that gets you fans. I currently work on something I won't describe in detail that has several thousand followers and lets me make minimum wage on patreon on top of my current job. There is nothing, and I mean NOTHING, that comes close to putting art out into the world and having it be liked. Being a successful creator, even just a big fish in a small pond, puts your self-esteem in at least the top 10% of humanity. All the petty bullshit of the internet rolls right off you because you are a Creator instead of a Consumer. Even if you don't make any money the fame is good enough.
>>717598818 >people are horrible to me everywhere i go, they don't respect my space or care about me so what is there to love?
can't you be happy on your own? If people near you do suck then fuck 'em, be by yourself or find new people to be around with.
>>717598276 (OP)
You get used to it. Lately though I've felt like a pregnant woman emotionally and I don't understand why, if I laugh too much I start tearing up, I get sad more easily too.
Aging sucks.
>>717598276 (OP)
I'm not poor and the rent in my current cuntry is $250. Feels good to be slightly smarter than an average npc.
Also, everyone did lie - gaming all day doesn't get old as long as you don't have to wage or do some other stupid shit you don't want.
>>717598928
I'm never "on my own" there is always some person, neighbour, making noise, existing too close to me that I can't get away from.
I have literally tried walking out into the countryside to be alone but then some random walker or person shows up and ruins everything, I can't be alone.
>>717598812
I don't want to make any fucking art I want to destroy it.
