>>720032178 (OP)
They helped me get over my dysregulated nervous system. They were a kind of exposure therapy because I was always in fight or flight mode for decades. Hard games with stressful bosses trigger it. The repeated exposure increased my affect tolerance. This allowed me to eventually sit with every unpleasant memory and feeling I ever had in life. I moved on to using Carl Jung's word association exercise to trigger as much stress and trauma as I could. I do that for fun now. There is little in life that bothers me much anymore. In short, I don't give a shit. I used to go through life worried about things. That's impossible now that I know that my body can handle any feeling. No reason to worry about tomorrow because tomorrow is just another feeling my body can handle. I sit with affect. It passes. I solved life. Odd thing is nobody wants the solution. It's one sentence. Repeat it to yourself when you have an unpleasant feeling: My body can handle the feeling.
