Thread 723195530

When I was young, I always played games as an escape from my horrible life and abuse, but after expanding my horizons, I found the games that meant the most to me were because of their story, art, or how it related to me emotionally rather than pure gameplay.
Why do you play games anymore? And do you enjoy what you play?

>>723195530 (OP)
Absentee parents and lack of guidance made it so being good at video games was my only saving grace. I was the one in my friend group who could beat every boss in any game for my friends growing up so that became my personality. It made me feel like I had a skill and was wanted.

Fast forward 25 years and nobody cares about how good at vidya I am because they all grew up and became real adults with real reaponsibilities. I keep buying and playing games to escape reality but it gets less and less effective every year. Today I opened Animal Crossing on a whim and broke down crying when a fucking NPC told me they missed me and scolded me for leaving. "We don't know what to do without you!"

>then
because i thought it was amazing that there were these little universes existing inside a metal box that i could interact with.
>now
because i get bored or anxious if i'm away from the computer for too long. it helps me calm down.

I have fun playing games with dense or well-written stories more than actual gameplay without story. Games that have you look through character's lives, finding meaning in small things, there's a certain art to it I enjoy.

Initially, it was lack of social interaction.
Then with xbox live being new, it became my sole form of social interaction.
Moved to PC for more interesting games and got into TF2 around 2009, and it was great for social interaction even then. Everyone on mic and playing/bantering.
Recently (last 5-6 years) I got into to fighting games because I got tired of team games because it's all just RNG and SBMM fuckery. I was tired of losing because the algorithm deemed it necessary to put an absolute mouth breather on my team or some god gamer on the other. So I grinded fighting games. My motivation was that good players are impressive and I wanted to be impressive too. It's especially great when 2 great players have a close match.so fighting games just seemed like the natural step for me. The original goal was to just be good enough to play a worth match on stream, but I'm long beyond that now.

This thread is off-topic

>>723196907
I used to play TF2 around 2015 and got really sick of how quiet everything got. Too much drama and it just went to shit.
>>723196983

As a kid I played them to escape from my parents fighting and screaming at each other. As an adult I play them to escape from my brain screaming at me

>>723197123
nice hex

>>723197086
Yeah that's about when I stopped, too. I forget when exactly they introduced matchmaking, but it was definitely the final nail in the coffin for our arena server. No more fresh blood, so we just bled out to casual queue until we burned ourselves out.

>>723197173
2016. It's been longer with MyM than without.
The game is just a den of drama and pedophiles now, so I stay away. I probably put at least 4,500 hours into it and maybe 1,000 of those was fun.

>>723197086
Not vidya.
Take your baaawing thread back to /r9k/ and /adv/, faggot.

>>723197385
that's not what this thread is

>>723195530 (OP)
Moved too many times as a kid and was not able to make friends due to culture shock, anxiety, issues at home etc. It literally is just a time waster because I'm alone 24/7 apart from my parents. I always played single player rpgs and multiplayer fps. It's just to pass the days away. I always thought that at some point in the future things would get better. You know, like move out, hold down a job, whatever. All that fell apart and I literally got cancer lol. There simply isn't anything else to do.

>>723197581
>I'm a sad faggot please listen to how I cope
Not vidya.

>>723197697
if you're so not-sad but are also playing vidya, then why are you playing vidya? surely your reason will turn the thread around from whatever you think it is

>>723195530 (OP)
As a kid it ranged from having fun to escaping.

Nowadays I don't really have any motivation for playing them at all. Looking back I also have regrets about decisions made regarding them and the internet to a degree.

>>723197776
If the OP is off-topic, the thread is off-topic. There is no point in trying to "correct" it.

Tomoko pegs men with her dragon dildos

I'm just playing games for escapism. I'm a loner and never learned to appreciate the company of other people. I have never had any real ambition or dreams for the future, I literally just wanted to have a 9 to 5 and play vidya. I got what I wanted and I don't really regret it.

I play open world games mostly. Stuff like Elin, Mount and Blade, and Fallout New Vegas. I don't really care for story driven games much, I like games that have more of a focus on gameplay and player freedom. Video games are still a fun distraction for me. There are still a lot I haven't played yet.

>>723198203
Tomoko IS the bottom

They are fun

I'm torn. I've gone months without playing video games and everytime I want to start one I need to force myself. In fact, I feel like I've been forcing myself to play them for the last 11 years (I played them as a kid but didn't take them somewhat seriously until 16). And honestly,

Life has no do overs but if I were to get one, I'd most likely stop myself from doing that. Heck I'm currently debating on trading my PS3 after going through MGS, though its long overdue so I don't really think I'd get sellers remorse.

>>723195530 (OP)
i play for fun. i tried sports and music growing up but found no genuine joy in it. i think its because i found vidya to be struggle-free. i hated struggling growing up and even now. i joined the military and i thought it would make me more comfortable with struggling. that didnt work lol. i think my parents never properly taught me that “it’s okay to lose”. whenever i won, they would congratulate me. whenever i lost, my best wasn’t enough. i had an okay childhood though but not every upbringing is perfect. i think everyone has at least one personality flaw that affects them on a deep level. some have more personality flaws compared to others tho

>then
Cool worlds to explore, mentally challenging games you had to figure out on your own, few guides and no internet yet
>now
Keeps my mind sharp, my reflexes from degrading as much, entertainment, and distracts me from the existential dread of life and the shitshow of a world we currently live in or else I'd lose my sanity

>>723198771
Tomoko IS the dragon dildo