Thread 724158907

How do I stop this? I have to try every game, have a nice round number of installed games, and go through every option before I can enjoy video games. I even have to ritual post on 4chan.

maybe play cs2

OCD is basically just suicide inducing, no cure, it's over.

OP is Keith

>>724159119
close, my name is Kyle .H.

>>724158907 (OP)
You need to stop caring

>>724158907 (OP)
idgi. what is he counting towards?

I need a prime number of installed games / round number of wishlisted. So I stay up installing 97 games and 1000 wishlist. Meanwhile faggots are playing roblox games and having the times of their lives. I'm still searching for THE GAME

>>724158907 (OP)
you have a moment of clarity where you realize pressing buttons to make numbers go up is a waste of your life and you stop gaming entirely.

>>724159231
keyword "relatable", which has a gematria of 456.

>>724158907 (OP)
who the fuck is keith?

>>724159432
>I cant extrapolate
zoom zoom

>>724158907 (OP)
Look up neurofeedback training and brainwave entrainment
You can also try 4-PO-something if you live in a first world country where buying it won't get you into prison but it's not risk-free
OCD is mostly fear of loss of control on reality, if you can understand that it may help...

>>724159621
i thought the joke was this at first

>>724158957
>Pajeet anime girl
Saaaar do NOT redeem the cs2

>not resetting all the cheevos after you get "one wrong" aka, 'wrong time'
>cuphead you are UNABLE to reset or change parry slap stats so you reunlock the two cheevos related to them every time you reset
thanks Studio MDHR

i have the stupidest form of OCD where i obsess over my heart i wish i had numbers OCD at least then i wouldn't have constant panic attacks that convince me i'm undergoing cardiac arrest despite having a clean bill of health

>>724158957
>indian tranime poster
and people thought frogniggas were annoying

>>724159321
I need to restart each savegame until it 'feels right', and by that I mean no anxiety inducing thoughts in the first cutscene until my character becomes playable. Takes me days to start playing a game. A lot of games have not been played at all because of this.

Also a million different things that come and go. For the last year its doors. Gotta get through doors by using the most right edge of the entry. If i go in the middle - family dies. If it just feels like i went through the middle i have to go back and forth through it until it stops feeling bad. This aint even the half of the shit im going through. OCD took the only thing that made me happy and made me forget about OCD.

I will keep fighting though!

OCD is a meme
Weak spergs who were never told to cut that shit out, lacking the willpower to rationalize their retardation
Slap a kid's shit around a couple of times and see if he'll ever waste his afternoon again flicking a switch for no fucking reason at all

>>724160539
I *used* to do things sorta similar to this for a small time.

Getting out of that phase might take some work or some literal public humiliation rituals (which is quicker in some ways)
Here's an idea. Your friend is over. You *want* to go to the previous room. You HAVE the URGE to do all your OCD habits with their presence. But you don't out of shame. It's award. Just imagine your friend is watching.

Also right before I post this this post comes up
>>724160829
fucking based

>>724160829
OCD is not related to autism
It is usually caused by a combination of genetic vulnerability and child abuse

>>724160539
I had this. NoFAlap cured it.

>>724160921
I will try that, thanks anon

>>724160539
You don't NEED to do anything, fucknut
Have a conversation with your inner monologue for O N C E in your life and tell yourself to stop being fucking stupid

>>724160921
>You HAVE the URGE to do all your OCD habits with their presence. But you don't out of shame
I don't do that shit in public but it makes me want to die and I still do all of it when I'm alone.

>get to shop
>get stunlocked for 20 mins deciding what to buy
>have separate saves before and after purchase in case I softlock myself
>still hoarding currency at the literal end of the game

This has become a real problem

>>724161143
But they don't have an inner monologue

>>724161046
There's no genetic vulnerability to being a dipshit, nor a snowflake
You were never abused, you're not special or unique
You're nothing but a mindless golem, too afraid to self discipline in the most mundane of tendencies, absolutely soulless

>>724161171
>mmmm yes if I restart the WHOLE game that character will be in a slightly DIFFERENT spot this time. I NEED TO KNOW

You only have so much time on earth anon.

>NOOOO I LIKE, HAVE TO SWITCH THE LIGHT ON AND OFF EXACTLY 2,821 TIMES I CAN'T JUST WALK AWAY YOU DON'T GET IT UGH
OCD isn't real, get over yourself

>>724161076
what's no falap

>>724158907 (OP)
You can't stop it, but with time it will morph and change if you push against it constantly. It might get better or worse. But for me, I have consistently fought my OCD into a more livable state. I no longer need to wash my arms red, I just have some weird pixel perfect clicking bullshit and sometimes get hung up on copying and pasting.

>>724161679
NoFap

>>724161143
Oh you're so smart anon. Please publicize your thoughts, the world needs to know it is THAT easy

I knew someone who had MULTIPLE users on their laptop. Like characters they made up. I don't understand why they did this. They also had multiple Kingdom Hearts saves on the PS2 just making a new save like every save point even though the most important choices you make are in the very beginning. YES THEY HAVE AUTISM

>>724161719
No fap gave me ED, don't listen to these faggots.

>>724161390
Of course it isn't real, but you can't fight against your own brain. You don't "Rationalize away" the irrational, there's no "I win Q.E.D." for an insane thought.

>>724161265
>You were never abused
that may be true or false but you definitely were

will nofap cure my hair loss

>>724161820
they maybe think they have multiple personality disorder. it was a thing on tumblr for a bit, lunatic tumblrites acting like they were 'poly-kin' or something because they thought it was cool to be mentally ill

I just need some sort of randomization system / website to choose the game for me.

>>724162606
This was back when we were kids like in 2009
He was the kinda guy to make female characters in the tony hawk games and *have* to mention that they're not gay or something like that. I never specifically though it was weird at the time (if it was MODERN day however this will probably quickly devolve into some tranny shit down the line tho) I usually never make or choose female characters when given the choice anyways

>>724161390
>OCD isn't real, get over yourself
the best part is that i fully understand this yet my body still reacts as if it's real so this advice is always stupid and why therapy never worked for me.

>>724158907 (OP)
I'm glad my bouts of OCD are limited. I feel compelled to count my teeth.

>>724162607
>land on a game you don't want
>you are now forced to finish it before you can start anything else turning your free time into a second job

>Save
Did I save?
>Save
Am I sure I saved?
>Save
What time does my save say?
>Save
I'll just wait a minute until the save records a different time.
>Save
>Save
>Save
>Save
>Save
I'm tired.

to all the retards struggling with OCD

>>724158907 (OP)
You need to engage in exposure and response prevention, it's literally the only way. Even if you can't afford a therapist try doing it on your own. I've had OCD for well over a decade now and while I still struggle a lot, things have gotten significantly better for me. You could also try reading through this guy's website if you have Pure O, it's helped me a lot as well.
https://drmichaeljgreenberg.com/articles/

>>724163649
this is just anxiety, not ocd

>start vidya game
>didn't like how it started
>quit
>start again
>quit
>start again
>10 times after load a save
>didn't like how it loaded
>reload
>reload
>reload
>an hour passed
>exhausted
>well, done gaming for today

for the cunt who thinks it's not serious and i should just get over it i hope you get alzheimers and spend the rest of your dick life shitting yourself because neurological conditions are not real and you should just stop tremoring

>>724164123
I used to do this with RPGs, if a quest/story sequence didn't turn out "perfect" I have to repeat the exact same steps I did before in the same order until I've done it correctly. This usually means talking to npcs and reading their dialogue incase it may trigger a hidden flag, so if I have to repeat a sequence I'll quickly spam through a bunch of dialogue "just in case."
I don't play non-linear games anymore.

>>724163930
Checking is a form of OCD anon.
I've been diagnosed with contamination OCD and one of the types of OCD they talked about I had tells for is checking.
Like I leave my apartment to go to the store, i'll get halfway down the hall and forget if I locked the door, then I start questioning if I turned off my PC, if I left a window open or whether I actually had my phone in my pocket, even after checking before.
The obsession comes from the fact that it would play on my mind if I had one of those doubts when I was far away, so I couldn't do anything else until I had gone back to check.

I don't want a kid for that reason, I would be too worried all the time whether it was still breathing, not hungry, shit itself, about to fall off the chair.

Sometimes after playing a game for a while I'll get sick enough with my bullshit that I'll start to ignore it. It's a good feeling.

fuck this ocd thing

>>724164123
same. but once i am exhausted i don't care and can accept non ideal circumstances. it's like i have suffered enough for this.

>this thread showing up now
I am deleting my Steam account today because of OCD basically, it has over $300 in games and I just abandont it

>>724164123
>>start vidya game
>>didn't like how it started
>>quit
>>start again
>>quit
>>start again
>>10 times after load a save
>>didn't like how it loaded
>>reload
>>reload
>>reload
>>an hour passed
>>exhausted
>>well, done gaming for today
>
>for the cunt who thinks it's not serious and i should just get over it i hope you get alzheimers and spend the rest of your dick life shitting yourself because neurological conditions are not real and you should just stop tremoring
This is why I can't play RPGs

>>724159621
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Upe3Tqh2iHk

I spent a bunch of time this morning trying to find out if the main villain in Tormented Souls 2's last name is mentioned anywhere so that I could decide whether I need to buy it or not
t. diagnosed OCD

>>724158907 (OP)
cut your hands off
can't post or play games if you don't have hands

>>724167596
What about all those people beating games with their feet?

OP, here if this thread reaches 100 gets I'll stop ocding through bruteforce (lock myself with 1 game and force myself to beat it or something)

>>724167207
Maybe don't?

>ITT
Maybe I should go see a shrink.

>>724159231
he doesn't know, all he knows is that he needs too
thats why its called "obsessive COMPULSION disorder"

>>724162440
Nah man it doesn't work

>>724158907 (OP)
Take the dick out of your mouth and stop being a fucking faggot.

>>724159621
Heh...

>>724168625
That's pretty swell

>>724162985
Uh huh. And if someone offered you one million dollars not to do it for a day, you wouldn't be able to stop yourself?

>>724161390
I know which artist made this picture

>>724162440
No. You need to block DHT reuptake by taking finasteride which stops the hairloss process, combined with inducing targeted bloodflow to the scalp twice a day. You can use mindoxil, tea tree oil, laser caps, whatever, as long as it induces bloodflow to the scalp to stimulate the hair follicles. Balding calcifies the hair follicles, miniaturizing them until the close up entirely.

now i know why /v/ is filled with shit posts

It's not OCD, it was these shitty memory cards corrupting my data or breaking altogether. Multiple times.
But eventually I beat it simply by thinking that it doesn't matter, replays aren't bad if the game is enjoyable, and if it isn't then I shouldn't bother to finish it at all.

>>724167924
That's just another form of OCD, you're playing into it not beating it.

>helping my brother move out of an apartment
>walk down the steps outside when we're done
>jump over the last step
>years go by
>go back to the same town for an unrelated reason
>walk back to the same building
>stomp that last step as hard as i can
is this OCD? i usually like jumping steps

>>724160829
>i don't know what something is! my immediate reaction is to get angry!
also
>Slap a kid's shit around a couple of times and see if he'll ever waste his afternoon again flicking a switch for no fucking reason at all
getting your shit slapped because you weren't making sure shit was taken care of is why people develop OCD

>>724167924
If it's over 100, you have to cut your right thumb off.

most things people with OCD actually are scared of happening aren't actually irrational, just improbable

>>724158907 (OP)
>change the volume on the car stereo
>push the button "wrong"
>have to start quickly changing the volume up and down to keep it the same while I try to "rebalance" the buttons with each press
>brother in the passenger seat asks what I'm doing after a mile of this
Yet one of my friends still gives me this "you're not REALLY OCD" shit whenever I even suggest that I'm just the slightest bit OCD because I'm not functionally crippled with compulsions.
It's fucking infuriating, and if there's a term for being just a little bit OCD I'd be glad to hear it, but I want to slap the shit out of him every time it comes up.

>>724167924
How will you decide which game to play though?
N coin tosses which you'll convert into a binary number and use it to cross reference a game database?

>>724164892
I used to do that but then I just decided to stop doing it. Also take N Acetyl Cysteine.

>>724159792
Now I do like my cheevo’s and plats, but this would drive me insane

The dev’s finicky flags for getting cheevos can’t be trusted. There’s a game where I have every single achievement except for the one that needs you to get every other achievement

>>724158957
stupid joke stealing janny
https://arch.b4k.dev/v/thread/723971181/#723971918
https://arch.b4k.dev/v/chunk/723977692/#723977716

>>724170485
what is wrong with you

>>724170048
>because I'm not functionally crippled with compulsions.
Your friend is right and that's how it works tho. Drinking alcohol doesn't make you an alcoholic, but alcohol getting in the way of work/school/relationships/family/etc does make you an alcoholic. This applies to all mental disorders. Feeling anxious once doesn't mean you have an anxiety disorder but having such horrible anxiety that you can't leave your house does.

>>724170141
>11010
>26
>game list is 18 games long

>>724170635
reroll if N+1> 18, still equal probability but you have a small chance to get huge rolls or infinite rolls

>>724170485
>>724159761
>>724160508

>>724170854

>>724170903
nice cover up kek

The ULTIMATE chemical cure for OCD is like a nuclear weapon for OCD

It completely fucks OCD in the ass but you need to be careful because SSRIs are powerful drugs

Here it is:
>200-300 mg fluvoxamine (Luvox) daily
>2000 mg N-acetylcysteine (NAC) daily

Like I said, it’s a nuke for OCD. But it can nuke your brain too. Use with caution.

>>724170586
I'm not arguing that, but you can't tell me there's fucking something up when I regularly get into touchy feely matches with random shit because I brushed against it the wrong way.
I don't care if it's not technically OCD, I'm just tired of getting a bullshit lecture because I don't have anything else with which to refer to it.

>>724170515
stealing jokes is serious fucking business on this website
you cant just post a stolen joke in a new thread and just farm (you)s
the karmic imbalance has reality shattering properties, and of course its a worthless shitskin jeet perpetrating the crime

>>724159231
Nothing.
He will do it until he feels right. If he doesn't do this, or is somehow prevented from doing this, then he will go through the next week with a feeling of horrible foreboding and dread perpetually hanging over him.
The joke is that OCD is actually really fucking shit to have but retards on social media use it as a quirky snowflake tag to make themselves seem more interesting and unique, like autism and gender nonsense.

>>724159096
I used to wash my hands something like 50 times a day until my skin cracked and bled.
Eventually I just started wearing gloves perpetually, which scratched the same itch without the mental and physical anguish. No cure, but there are workarounds if you can trick your brain into accepting them.

On a first playthrough of a game I need to hit an arbitrary point within the first day of playing it or I need to reset and start from the beginning. There are dozens of games I never went back to (primarily JRPGs) because I only played for X amount of hours on the first day then didn't play it the following and can't be assed to sit through 45 minutes of tutorials and cutscenes again.
Booting the game to some point where my brain considers it properly started needs to be in one potentially long stretch. Sometimes I'll start the game over and over, playing the same intro segment for a week.

>>724167924
do it

>Have multiple save files in case I fuck something up or soft lock myself
>Have to buy items in even numbers or increments of five
>Hoard currency, one-time use items, or rare ammo because I never know when I'll need it (and then never use it)
>Gotta explore all corners of a map so I don't miss anything - even if there's nothing to collect or find
>Struggle to stick with a single game and have to restart RPGs or any story driven game if I haven't played it in months because I "forgot" what I was doing
>There's very particular ways I have to organize my inventory in every game that let's me manually sort my inventory

>>724174608
a) you double posted to inflate the GET
b) what game tho

>>724159412
https://www.youtube.com/shorts/IQHjhBq7cwE

>>724174725
any deus ex

>>724170758
can we do something like Math.random() and multiply a binary fraction by the number of games? how many coinflips in terms of games would we need for an even distribution?