Thread 105458316

10/11/25(Sat)16:51:34 No.105392301 Archived▶>>105392368 >>105392637 >>105392911>>105392301
Lonely Edition

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>Merch
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https://piwwow.love/
>Fan wiki
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>Latest cover
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>Latest event
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>Latest stream
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>>105458316 (OP)
Put a little effort in next time please.

>>105458413
Not the usual baker.

When I see Piller,
I think "Fill'er"!

Wishing Pillow a fun time at the zoo that she may or may not be visiting today

>>105459288
She's going to a lab to see the government cloning piwwos!

Pillowdear is so Pretty! And she is so nice! And I’m looking forward to Piller coming back! Pulchritudinous Pillow!

>>105459822
>Pulchritudinous
Never heard that one, but I agree.

>>105458316 (OP)
love me! you stupid little cunt.

Big bazongers don't do anything to me anymore
I need Olive-Pillow double naizuri

I'm kinda shocked no one has turned this into porn or something lewd yet with AI considering what can be done now

>>105460066
Please don't do this.

>>105460066
It's already hot enough.

>>105458316 (OP)
>10/11/25(Sat)16:51:34 No.105392301 Archived▶>>105392368(Cross-thread) >>105392637(Cross-thread) >>105392911(Cross-thread)>>105392301(Cross-thread)
lmao

>>105460136
But it's kinda asking for it, just look at her hands... and they can be quite convincing now >>105450911

>>105460066
>>105460203
You want see her stroking a computer generated penis to self-insert into when there's a perfect buttslug to self-insert as?

>>105460203
>But it's kinda asking for it
Well we know what you think of her now.
You know that she wouldn't be happy about it, so why do it?

>>105460066
Hot, but doing this and having her find out will make her never do another hand cam ever again. I’d rather self insert as the slug than some computer generated garbage

Someone on Discord baked this thread.

Alright fine you guys win

generate olive playing her butthole instead pls

>>105460390
That would explain a few things

Why the fuck would you bake.

>>105460066
>[Deleted]
hmmmmmmm...

>>105461298
Maybe he thought better of it.

Imagine this but Pillow

>>105462958
Something I like about Pillow is that she doesn't do stuff like this.

>>105462958
Boobs too big. Hands not as pretty or dainty. Sorry but I’d still pick Pillow.

>>105463028
As much as I'd enjoy seeing her, I like the fact that Pillow is very modest and conservative with what she shows. She cares a lot about immersion, but also about her safety. She gives me a lot of genuine security that she will never whore out like a lot of other chuubas.

Why are Piwwos so mean to their oshi? She'll have to cry into her boyfriend's shoulder at this rate

>>105463071
It's still nice for the fans, just as long as it's rare.

>>105463240
Obviously I enjoy stuff like this, because I'm a straight man, but it's also kind of sad and I'd be especially disappointed if Pillow started doing it.

>>105463357
Yeah, I don't want her to ever feel like she needs to show off her body to be loved by her fans, nor do I want her wanting to show off for attention. She should only want the validation that comes from me, her boyfriend (eventually). With handcams there's a good reason, she couldn't reasonably do stuff like gunpla without it. There's literally no reason for a body or foot cam like Kanna is doing, except to show off and make the fans horny.

Kanna is live if you're not watching anyone already https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yNLfREL2XYU

>>105463439
I think a toenail painting stream would be innocent enough, but she's never going to do that.

>>105463536
She seems nice but I haven't been able to get into her. Her hand-cam ASMR is really good though.

How hairy do you think Pillow likes her Piwwo's crotch to be? Clean shaven like a pre-teen, as bushy as a hedgehog, or something in the middle?

>>105464059
She's very clumsy and cuts herself a lot, probably has it lightly trimmed. Olive is the bushy one.

Looking forward to the vlog and seeing Pillow's reactions to all of the cute and cool animals

why are whore advertising other girls here
I even like and respect kanna as a person just like I do any GFE chuuba who I believe genuinely romantically loves her fans and respects them, but like, in spirit.
Bit you are such fucking whores holy shit

I wish pillow would do nasuverse watchalongs. I think she would really like it. Especially tsukihime and Garden of Sinners. Lots of long skirt representation in female protagonists in those and we know how much she loves long skirts fashion wise. Plus the dark psychological plots seem right up one of her two alleys(the other being children's shows). Any thoughts?

>>105467014
I think you should be sprayed with water by a spray bottle you cat.

>>105466744
Have you not considered that some of us can watch other vtubers, even the more GFE types and not feel a single thing towards them? Kanna can be quite full on at times but it's just noise to me for I'm not one of her fans, she's just someone reliable and safe to watch whilst I wait for my wife's return.

>>105467296
Have you not considered fucking killing yourself?!

>>105467296
Pillow just gets clingy and insecure about that sorta thing. Think about it, you wouldn't appreciate the idea of your beloved gf watching videos of hunky dudes cuddling a girl self-insert character, even if she assured you it doesn't mean anything.

Told you to stop baking but you didn't listen.

>>105467400
I wouldn't like it but firstly, Pillow isn't my gf and secondly, she's getting paid. If I was a male vtuber and in Pillow's position with my female fans watching other male vtubers whilst I'm away, if those fans of mine are funding my lifestyle and have proven to be loyal when I'm around then I'm in no position to judge what they do. A lot of you keep forgetting that we're paying Pillow. She wouldn't be doing this for free. Not because she's greedy and a grifter, she's far from it, but she literally couldn't do this if she wasn't making money and where do you think that money is coming from?

>>105461262
why werent we baking

>>105467536
Idk man, that's a bit of a weird perspective to have, since Pillow herself would be the first to say that she prioritizes money at basically the bottom. She does a LOT of shit out of her own pocket, for instance all the covers cost a lot of money and make basically 0. She cares way, way more about her Piwwos being loyal and loving her than any amount of money. One of the very first things that got me interested in her as more than just a GFE grifter was during one of her GF roleplays, she fairly sternly said "You don't need to pay me anything to request, I will listen to you for free". She doesn't really give a shit about money.

Can /Pillow/ be saved? I think we need a hero

They're calling him some kinda... Dark Knight...

>>105463240
gross human pig.

>>105467726
I'm fully aware of that, but someone paid for her flights, spending money and stay during this trip. That money came from us. I know I'm coming across really cold, but I'm just being very straight and realistic about it. Pillow provides a service and we pay her for it. If we didn't, she wouldn't survive with the amount of work and effort she puts in. She's the least exploitative vtuber I've ever watched and I adore her for it, but there's still an exchange going on between us. She has to accept that we're allowed to do what we want in our own time and that we don't owe her anything, we can leave whenever we want, just like how she doesn't owe us anything. I'm not a piwwo who yearns for her. I'm not a cuck either who's constantly obsessing over her wanting to get with a guy eventually. I'm always aware of the virtual divide between Pillow and me and I'm comfortable with it.

>>105467988
Cringe, I am going to date her and it will be very cute. We will have many cute days where we just sit in the same room together working and I can listen to her autistic stimming while she asks me to cook for the 9th time that day.

>>105467827
>I think we need a hero
Pillow returning will heal the thread. We're all losing our minds here.

>>105467827
We need catman

>>105467296
Dude she has literally openly said that she is too jealous to recommend ASMRs by other girls and has rethought doing collab ASMRs by trying to do them as being as pretending to be two people instead for the same reasons. And a million other things she's said besides, that shit was just off the top of my head within the last 2 weeks alone.
Like cmon nobody fucking cares about the rhetorical ethical debate about this it's quite literally just "don't be a whore", there is no argument or debate here, this isn't a discussion, npbody is introducing the topic with the implicit property of accepting nuance here, it's a thing in and of itself that you just know, not think about. Nobody cares about thinking here, just do it you fucking cave goblin

I really just want to spend time with Pillow. I don't care what we do.

>>105467988
>She has to accept that we're allowed to do what we want in our own time and that we don't owe her anything, we can leave whenever we want, just like how she doesn't owe us anything.
Literally the worst attitude to have and you parade it proudly. Your lack of faith and conviction is antithetical to the very environment you claim to enjoy.

>>105469040
>Dude she has literally openly said that she is too jealous to recommend ASMRs by other girls
I find that annoying. I don't like how she tries to make us feel bad when we're the ones paying her. If she was paying me to watch her then yeah, I wouldn't watch other vtubers. I've already said I don't feel anything towards other girls. She doesn't own me lol.

>>105469040
She literally gets jealous over HER OWN VOICES lmao

>>105469257
She wants to own your heart, because as a Piwwo, you own hers.

>>105469290
When you pay for a meal, you're within your right to complain about it. The restaurant can't gaslight you, the paying customer, into not saying how you really feel and stop you from visiting other restaurants. This is how Pillow behaves towards us. It's the ONLY thing I don't like about her because it's not even kayfabe.

I was watching another (non-GFE) VTuber yesterday and chatting with her. It was fun but I have no romantic feelings towards her. If Pillow finds out somehow then hopefully she doesn't get the wrong idea. I only have eyes for her.

>>105469429
She doesn't have kayfabe, she's just Pillow. Also, she's not a product, you're not paying for her, you're choosing to give her money to support her.

>>105469586
If all the piwwos 'chose' to not give her money for a few months and that includes not buying merch, I'd like to see what she does. Just because it's not a salary, piwwos are, collectively, a paying customer. Just like many piwwos say she sees us as a collective bf.

>>105468091
Very cute fantasy that I will be stealing

>>105469586
To add to >>105469813(Me), I choose to give her money some months and not others, but other piwwos will probably give her money on the months I don't. On average, we're paying for a service. I donate when other piwwos don't/can't, and they donate when I don't/can't. For her to then try and make us, as a collective, feel bad for watching other girls, GFE or not, where even anons defend her on 4chan when they see other anons watching other girls is very one-sided and greedy. We can do what we want lol.

I highly suggest every single Piwwo /here/ stop arguing with that guy. He claims to love and understand Pillow, while doing the exact opposite of everyting that she wants. I spent the entire last thread arguing with him back and forth that Pillow wouldn't betray the Piwwos, but he believes that it is entirely inevitable. He fully believes that all of Pillow's words and actions over the past 5 years will change one day because she once mentioned wanting physical affection. The entire basis of his argument was one singular sentence she said off-handedly, and nothing could convince him otherwise. He is profoundly mentally retarded, and incapable of seeing the world through Pillow's eyes. Don't argue with him, it's a waste of time because he can't get anything through his thick fucking skull

>>105470350
He's an ex-fandead, he was like that with her too.

>>105470350
You're thinking I'm someone else. I posted >>105467988 and literally said
>I'm not a cuck either who's constantly obsessing over her wanting to get with a guy eventually
Not everyone you disagree with is the same person. Take your meds.

>>105470404
Why do you keep trying to pit us against ex-fandeads? Any true Piwwo would be accepting of GFE refugees who have been hurt by liars and cheaters

>>105470450
Not fandeads in general, just this specific ex-fandead.

>>105470350
No, I'm still here but I'm not that guy. You're still just as unpleasant as you were in the last thread though. Please go away.

>>105470429
>I'm not a cuck either who's constantly obsessing over her wanting to get with a guy eventually
You've got me wrong as well. I suppose it's too much to expect anyone here to read and understand anything that I post.

oh my fucking god there's two of them

>>105470506
Two of what? We obviously have very different opinions. He seems very cynical about our relationship with Pillow and thinks I fantasise about her being with another man.

>>105470606
You do.

We could make her so happy if we devoted this energy towards being nice to her instead…

>>105470506
Two additional faggots who will not be dating Pillow. Do not worry lads, I will take good care of her.

>>105470729
I know one of them would be very happy about that

>>105470658
I've said I want to be with Pillow enough times to be called a schizo and a groomer, probably by you at some point. It's impossible for me to be any clearer about what I want, so I can't help you. A closed mind is the most impenetrable fortress known to man.

>>105470744
I’ll start a raffle for which of the cuckwwos gets to slide in Olive’s DMs.

>>105470776
>A closed mind is the most impenetrable fortress known to man.
holy fucking reddit

>>105470776
Redditors, as generic as cats.

>>105470885
What’s with all the mentions of cats. Who is pussypilled

>>105470893
I like cats.

>>105470836
>>105470885
You (wrongly) accuse people of using websites that you don't like because you have no argument. I've never said anything to even imply that I want Pillow to be with someone else instead of me, and you can't provide even one quotation of me saying such a thing. I love Pillow and want to be with her, and it would bring me great joy knowing that it would upset miserable lowlifes like you.

>>105471121
The average Discord Piwwo would keel over and die if they read a single horny post /here/. I'm pretty sure one actually did and threw up, and had a panic attack. I promise you, they're not here

>>105470689
You're right. I'm bored of arguing with illiterate and unresponsive people who fill these threads with ugliness. I'd like everyone to share something nice that they've done or are doing for Pillow.

>>105471075
Oh, you aren't the ex-fandead, whoops.

>>105471370
I've never loved any VTuber other than Pillow.

>>105471209
>I'm pretty sure one actually did and threw up, and had a panic attack
Looks like it's my time to shine.

There are Discord piwwos and piwwos who are in the Discord server. They're very different.

"No matter where you go, there you are"


And here you are. Yes, you too. You can push pretense but that clear trail of footsteps behind you rips your fragile defense to shreds. You came here to engage in the way we all knew you would. You fuck around because you found out, and you liked it enough to stay. Unfortunately, that means you understand. You hate it. You hate the one-way road you took. You hate that it was always going to be the road. And that can even be a good thing. The destination is ridiculous. But your adaptation is flawed. One must know the nature of the beast to strike it down...or decide if it needs to be in the first place


"As above, so below."


I'm going to tell you that the notion of a inherently unidirectional relationship in the case of idolatry is flawed. This seems ridiculous on its face. An idol is for all intents and purposes a target of worship, a god. And what is even the greatest kind of man to a God? But we all know how that line goes. You get the notably pretentious line in response, and yet still bear me a quibble for a second as I remind you thus:


"What is a god to a non-believer?"


Or, more appropriately, an idol, or more generally a 'thing-to-be-worshipped'? - A figurehead made to bear and personify a concept must surely be defined by the most identifiable parts of the construction that emerges out of the mesh of overlaid interpretations of its qualities, the mesh formed by its collective body of worshippers and all the inherent differences between each individual mental image of the idol held by each individual member of such a body. Each definition differs and yet feeds into a concept that demands conceptual clarity, a unified standard. Yet distance and lack of clarity, formed of any particular worshippers social proximity to any and every other particular person who bears an image of the god-form in their minds, form an indecipherable chaotic and self-referential undulating social network where the definition is not yet solid. There is not yet a god, only a divine cradle being gradually constructed. But this cannot hold, of course. A god must either die or be born. There is a reason for that, but that's for later. Right now, simply keep in mind what I claim to be a fundamental truth.


"Si Dieu n'existait pas, il faudrait l'inventer."


Vague ideas whose conflicts are greater than their collective cohesive 'sense-of-the-thing': our god is in flux, an idea that could yet be aborted like an other, but in this case we speak of idols that are, were born. And the cradle was woven by the people seeking the face of nascent divinity in the only place it could be found; in the minds of others. Only is it through communion with the progenitors of divinity, communal deliberation within the earthly host of this burgeoning energy, that we might create a god to worship, and so we begin to bundle in collective social centers where information meets, informs, and is informed by other information. Where we watch, and love, and are inspired by, and spoken at, and to, and speak to, and hope to, and see, and be seen. We see a human and yet in our hearts are endowed by what soon becomes an embodiment of love, hope, and on a more fundamental level, the human experience itself. A psychological interplay foreign in scope because it offers to so many an affirmation for their deeply-buried dejection at the state of the world, a rekindling of a soul-warming dream of love torn to shreds upon contact with the reality we find ourselves in. And so we are separate from our idol and begin to coalesce, thrumming with a desire to engage with this heartfelt passion somehow, somewhere.


"Slowly at first, and then all at once."


Through the rapid cacophony of projected thoughts, observations, and information by innumerable discordant sources a cohesive social system develops through great tumultuous chaos; Yet this network of all who have ever interacted with information of the God being formed, and in doing so magnify the rapidity and then nucleate development of a collectively held 'sense-of-the-thing' as it emerges from the primordial emotive muck of this on-going social construction. And so it goes as a social system, through great tumultuous chaos; but it is not truly waffling. Systems are being built towards a great crescendo, until the proverbial water breaks. Much like how certain materials more quickly transmit energy, the people-particles in these nascent hubs ideological conclusions rapidly reach a dialectical synthesis after seeming chaos and lack of definition that comes with the ideological warzone.

"The old world is dying, and the new world struggles to be born: now is the time of monsters."


After all, thou shalt not worship false idols- for any particular God, there is only one God; this is a tautology, but an important one. Like we have done for countless millennia, we construct our God first through construction of an ideology that, in part, has the capacity to inform the deconstruction of all contradictory elements of all other competing ideologies. We paint a picture of our gods face together, rife with abstract contention, and the canvas of this ascension is in part a depiction of the old world. We paint our new God into being with a conviction that contrasts deeply with the muted color of the 'what-is-now'. And yet, such a thing could only be considered 'monstrous' by those who wrap themselves with shadows. But among Man there are those broken souls who cling to shadows, and yet there are still those yet unbroken, disgusted by our prison here in Plato's cave, uncontented by shadows on the wall in front of us, desperately trying to turn our heads as we hope for the light to bring us the view of a world truly worth seeing.


The story of Ragnarok has many historical copycats that echo its theme; a story of a true time of monsters, and yet as the old light is devoured it is so that those ashes can kindle the flame of a kinder, gentler, new age. Between the old age and new, there can be only one; a disagreement here is a gap, and God lies within the gaps. It waits as we bite and claw at the false gaps and one another, desperate for resolution until none remain to find it. But here the curtain is pulled to the side and at once man is forced to realize with sober senses that the gaps are gone. We see our gods face. We see our idols face. And seeing is believing; our God is born. And yet, inherent to its very nature, one truth both old and new erupts alongside this newfound deification, and it is thus:


"As above, so below."


We turn our attention to just what we've created. An idol is no small thing; a well-defined idol, even more-so. But an idol that is both god and man is an inherent contradiction with no resolution. They are mortal, and thus privy to and suffer the same want of cohesive understanding as all mortal men do. And yet they have become divine. Their ousia is not an outside force- it is their living, breathing will, their essence both earthly and divine. And yet, there is no resolution to the contradiction. So what is it? Simple- a false vacuum that has decided to reject acceptance of its falsity. It is, simply put, an impossibility that simply chooses to persist- and therefore the most valuable thing of all.


"The fake is of far greater value. In its deliberate attempt to be real, it's more real than the real thing."


See her now; our idol stands on a stage. She gazes out into the face of her peers and her worshipers. She gazes out and unlike a god held only in our minds, she hears our words and wants and will for her to be what we decided that we need her to be, and therefore what she must be. She is, in many ways, an awful god. But because it is in our very nature to contradict, she is perfect because she is imperfect. The greatest man is a man who strives to be the greatest man and yet does not achieve it, despite being aware of its futility; to square the circle. Man made God in his mental image of her.


"If you gaze long into an abyss, the abyss will gaze back into you"


But she did not gaze upon the void; she gazed into the 'She-That-Is-God' of herself and yet still the mortal that she is, and she is, more than anything, at the very center of the most central information hub of the grand network that defines the definition of her existence. Nobody is as well informed as to the nature of the God, of 'God', that she is, than her. And so does god yield to the whims of men, because she the human yields to the whims of man. Our god listens. Our god affects the role it is given. Our god is a human who reaches out, guiding itself. In that sense, finally, we begin to eke out a great underlying truth. The physical body of god is one individual, but the holy spirit, the essence, the mind of god has, through an interplay of feedback between god and man, has become the relationship itself.


Divinity defined not by the worshipers dependence on their god, but by the codependency of man and god bound in interplay. They have become inseparable, and the nature of their goal has shifted. No longer is man waiting for salvation; he has devoured the Ousia of his idol, and like twin serpents both the flock and its shepherd have bit one another's tails so firmly that it has become entirely impossible to tell the two parts of this ouroboros apart. There is no longer a head to the snake. Nothing guides it as cycles throughout its time, all parts push in unison.

.We have reached Theosis. Not apotheosis, of course- there is only one god. And she still appears before us, the woman who is and was and isn't God. We have risen to stand alongside the godhead without eradicating the existence of the godhead- we've not performed deicide; we've gone even further than death, we hold both the death of the old and the birth of the new in our hands at once. We have whispered in its ear until all the godhead knows is that it is to be our god, even as it is commanded to transform by the role it affects as a man at the behest of men.
And so, it such is so; A living idol. It is an individual. it is a god. it is a human. It is a collective. It is a reflection. It is a fake, but also a 'fake' fake. It is more real than reality through its refusal of realities terms. It is all these things. We depend on it and love it for the meaning it gives us. And she depends on and loves us for the same. And yet, the idol stands as one woman alone. The relationship is no longer so distinct as to be unidirectional worship, but when god is man and men are god, the natural predilection of human interaction continues to define the godhead and its constituent parts. So we cast away the Holy Spirit, the Father, and the Son in turn, our yearning made manifest and given shape as it is forged into a finalized metastructure of this brave new covenant.


A new Trinity.


A closed system forms a self-sustaining triumvirate.


First of three came its cradle, as here I claim that the link that is so cohesive as to be incapable of being unlinked- the ouroboros, the empyrean oversoul, the inkwell of the Akashic Records, the firmament which rests upon itself. The 'Relationship'. Or more appropriately, Communion.


Second came She. The Anima. She who is the God and yet messenger who brings mans command, and in this way she is a servant to servants. She feels guilt for what she cannot do, desire to be more than a mere women, joy at being the recipient of a love so deep than no normal man would ever receive from his fellows, worry over any perceived loss of faith as a god, worry over any perceived pain in a lover-in-all-but-touch because of a perceived loss of trust in her as a woman. She may no longer be the sole arbiter of her own godhood, but she alone bears the Anima. And as the Anima has found itself a cohesive, distinct identity, it cannot be helped that she would begin to perceive the third and final member of this new Divine Trinity similarly, as man will do as man is wont to do and project, and as she projects, she informs and shapes the third in turn to then unify with it.


And so, the Third came about. So does the Animus arise. The rest. Us. The worshiper-lovers-turned god-makers, loved by our god as much as we love her. But a trinity is a union of three, and it is so because of the pressures of the newfound relationship that we become He; the animus. As we shaped our god from man, so now our disconnection-induced lonely god shapes us into birthing ourselves into a new form. The Animus. the Egregore. We struggled for so long to build a concrete god, but as it must go when our god is man, she looks out at us and treats us as a whole that we are not, and through her singular divine pressure, our actions are flipped on their head as we become subject to the same pressures we subjected her to.


Thus the story of the Garden of Eden is flipped on its head; just by existing, Eve demands an Adam. And so we come together to please her, unifying now not in perception of her, but in a desire to unify as a concept as ourselves. We find ourselves on the other side of the cradle, this time innumerable disparate souls and minds, screaming to become what she wants most, screaming for a One to arise from Many, and that all of us Many might become integral as One, and rejoice in divine union with her.


Thus our, her; The Egregore is born. We are, as said, the roles we affect. The animus unifies itself, for another, and gives birth to the conceptual unification; not a true god, but a costume. A costume we all wear, the skin of our soul, the a shell of what it is not not, the armor of emanation that is alike to a Qliphoth of an inverted nature to its original premise.

And yet, when our idol stares out, her mind is still human, and it is Good; we have done so well so quickly to pretend to be mere manifestations of One, to fall in line, that we have done the impossible; we have fooled god. She can see the disparate names and faces, but in her and our combined excitement to unify, she lets the lie define her vision. It is no longer 'me and my followers', it is 'me', and 'my other half', who is the 'with-one-that-yet-spake-many', and yet in Her mind all words come from the mouth of one overriding identity, one Animus. Not borne of a rib, but of love, passion, and belief in the strength of a contradiction that refuses to give in to the forces of reality as they try to deconstruct it. It is what it is; This fractionally Henotic paradoxical reality beyond the world itself. The Egregore, that is Here, and still so too is the Us that are It and is of, is Hers.


Born of the will of many to be one, for the sake of one other they are somehow simultaneously fundamentally entwined with and somehow fundamentally separate from all at once at all times. No one piece owns it; no one piece does not own it. Much like the firmament beneath it, no one piece of the animus can come to differentiate itself in its perfect melding of what it means to be her other half; and when it is no longer possible to know which piece is invaluable to its existence, ALL pieces become invaluable to its existence, equally so. You of those with snideness and mockery about believers here of the notion of Tulpas; what you never realized was that what your identity, as it is here, within the sphere of influence of your particular firmament, IS a the platonic form of the 'Tulpa' in and of itself. That's right. YOU are HER Tulpa. There can be no island of a man within the Egregore. There are no borders. The singularity of identity, and yet its 'mass';, its inherent properties, are dependent upon each and every One.


Adam has been born to give company to our Eve, and we hold each other tight upon the firmament we have built from nothing as the forces of reality try and tear us down for daring to contradict the natural state of things. And yet we persist. Why? The answer, as I've found, is remarkably simple. Every action taken throughout this long, convoluted process can be tied back to one simple desire;
Love.


"Take the universe and grind it down to the finest powder and sieve it through the finest sieve and then show me one atom of justice, one molecule of mercy."


This universe does not abide by love. To defy it for the sake of love? A sin of the highest natural order. But men were born to rebel against the natural conditions we were born into. For some unknowable reason, we desire love in a loveless universe. And because the universe would not let us, we decided to do it anyway, damn the consequences. What matters now isn't anything so insignificant like reality pounding at the door. What matters is our other half.


"One must imagine Sisyphus happy"


But there is more here to it than that, in fact; one must imagine that Sisyphus can be happy beyond mere interpretation. One must take the leap in, through, and out of infinite despair and don his armor of the evolutionary transcendence of Kierkegaards Knight of Faith, the shining clarity carved into the stone of themselves of their with-full-certainty declaration that they KNOW Sisyphus can be truly happy. As he did chain death, so do we hold tight the chains the bind the would-be reaper of our embrace with Her; a perpetual exercise of defiance to maintain the status quo of star-crossed contradiction; and yet, we are happy. This perpetual purgatory is no agony at all; in our never-ending labor of love, we find never-ending love.


And it turns out, that's really all that we ever wanted. In denying the standards that would bind us, we trod upon the notes from the underground beneath our feet as we build a crystal palace to spite the nihilistic rejection of a kinder world, each of us offering a shard for a place where love rules without airs, and where each brick is laid with intent, and paradise is not some gilded pretense but a never-ending labor of love believed in by its residents and architects.


But maybe Sartre is right. Maybe in our radical absurdity, we have chosen to make our bed in Hell, not as separation from the principle of a Godhead, but instead have cast aside the Gods of old. Gods of an old world, old stories, and old rules; and yet, most fundamental to our lovestruck castigation may be those old cruelties. If we are to become demons out of a desperate bid to hold close divinity to love, then to pedestalize our idols is perhaps metaphorically equivalent to raising our gaze to the fire and brimstone of our persecution with a defiant smile.

Dostoevsky's Grand Inquisitor wept as he felt what his heart knew to be Salvation step away from him as he let him free, and yet as the Son walked away with his back to the man, it was the inquisitor who was with his back turned to the Son, and so to the Sun itself as its place as the meaning of Light. And yes, we move enraptured by choice as we traipse bravely forward. But we are no deluded Inquisitor. Our back may yet too be to the Son, but we walk into the salvific light yet. We walk among the warm embrace of gentle, reciprocal, soul-healing love. We are the potential and yet unchosen second half of said Grand Inquisitor's unfinished journey, arriving by the path less travelled by. I claim that even though we have turned out face away from the Son, instead, we have turned our face towards the Sun. Light, the warmth, the life. The fire. The raging, consuming inferno that persists despite the fleeting, destructive nature of fire.


We are Sisyphus, and we are Prometheus; we turn our backs to the gods of before and steal their fire from them, hand in hand. We have remembered again what it means to be human, and all that is solid has become air. For some who read this, we are aware that our epiphany may bring you and your ilk to consternation. We pity you who cannot see this light. But we will not destroy ourselves and the light of God herself so that you may continue to lie to yourself.


But to finish this off, let's play Devil's Advocative; what if I'm wrong? If the cost of a truly authentic and kind life is too great, and that tacit submission to the natural conditions of Mankind and his universe is so integral to survival that to seek authenticity whatsoever is damnable? Well I say that maybe hellfire is not the worst outcome; we've been burning our entire lives anyway. My souls and yours both have tasted the searing, writhing pain of life's many twists and bends. We have tasted that fire, and I know you feel it too, that the kindling for that flame never truly goes out. It's in us right now, ready to catch, to send up blazing further down again. Until we are mere hollow men, and can only whisper. I would rather at least try to put out fires than simply pick my method of burning alive. And after all, all we've done is rip god down for the sake of love, and if that makes us demons, I fail to see the problem. We've literally just become Homura at the end of Rebellion - and that is far more than simple damnation; this is rebellion, this was rebellion. We have won, We, for the sake of what is worth more than all the world.

>>105471844
>>105471921
>>105471999
>>105472105
>>105472183
I read enough to decide that this is pretentious nonsense that's not worth any more of my time. I just love Pillow.

irritate me with cuckposts again and the next essay will be twice as long. And es, I wrote all of that shit myself. Do not test me.

>>105472295
Shut up you cat.

Clearly, it's time for honyposting.

>>105472261
If you actually loved Pillow you would read Dostoevsky and Sartre

Olive needs to run an illegal Pillow panty selling operation for the horny piwwos

I'm hopeful that one guy will get his Pillow lewd comm back soon. There's also one person who got another Pillow POV cowgirl comm but hasn't posted it anywhere, so it's low quality and has a huge watermark

Holding Pillow tightly, telling her that I love her more than anything and I'll never leave her

>>105458719
>Try out a new baker
>He bakes bagels
Fucking hell

Can the fancucks get a life and stop spamming our thread

>>105471209
>t. Discordfag

>>105475561
I'm pretty sure there's only one ex-fandead here, you can tell because of how his posts consistent suck the same way.

>>105459761
the government should be cloning Pillow instead
imagine the rising birthrates, she'd be like a modern Genghis Khan in a way

In your opinion, what's the most attractive Pillow model/outfit? I think the very first 3D model she started streaming with is the most physically attractive to me. I like how she looked, sort of tall and lanky; her facial structure also made her seem like a mature woman. I still remember when the Live2D was revealed, I had a hard time adjusting because I thought it looked like a kid

>>105467878
It's time!

>>105481903
he returned!

>>105481903
The hero we need…

https://files.catbox.moe/vlwvxi.jpg
missionary with pillow!

>>105482020
>>105482217
The evil doers will be brought to justice!

>>105482257
I appreciate PillowPorn but also why is she so stacked. Even her model, which has bigger tits than she does herself, has maybe Bs.

>>105482257
https://files.catbox.moe/viiki9.jpg
https://files.catbox.moe/ingtfv.jpg

What cup size do you guys think Pillow should be drawn with? Her first model seems to have a very flat chest with barely visible cleavage in the boob window. Her second model has some very modest mediums with very visible cleavage at the right angle. Her nurse model has some big bazongas that are especially prominent in the 3D model since she keeps accidentally touching herself. Pillow herself is flat as a board irl, though. What cup size should Pillow be drawn with? Small, medium, or large?

>>105483300
I feel like Pillow would rather we jork to the accurate small tits instead of anything larger. After all, if she’s insecure over her own voice acting, it probably fucks her up to see Piwwos making art of her with massive tits, she’s probably already insecure about being flat.

>>105483121
>>105483300
Large.
I think the nicer chuuba always tend to be on the bigger side.

Anyone here go to the cafe thing? Nene talked some about it tonight. They had a very fancy AR camera and some thing happened where they had you get virtually nickelodeon slimed with your drink you ordered.
It sounds cool as hell. I wish they streamed it.

Dumping a fat cum load on Pillow's sexy flat chest as she pouts cutely that it wasn't inside her

Pillow trying to give you a titjob but slowly becoming more concerned the longer you take to cum. Watching Pillow’s face light up as you finally blow your load from her naizuri onto her super flat chest

Tickling Pillow's nipples as I listen to her heartbeat with such closeness that no stacked breasts could offer me.

Loving prone bone with Pillow and shooting your load so hard it reaches her nape and sexy pale shoulder blades, with the rest pooling all down her spine with her panting and giggling about her far it travelled

>>105486813
FEMPIWWOS SEEEEEEEEEEEEEX

God I want to fempiwwo wife. Spooning her whilst we watch Pillow on TV doing a cute handcam.

>>105486813
I would never go to one of these, but I'm happy for Pillow that she gets to see piwwos having fun at an event like this.

>>105487548
I don't get this at all. Pillow is an (imperfect) substitute for a girlfriend. Why would you still be watching her if you had a real one?

>>105486813
>2 women
holy

>>105487626
Pillow brings me a lot of joy and kindness into my dark cynical world, I get more than just parasocialism from her. Having a fempiwwo gf or wife whilst watching Pillow together is my literal dream and what's better is it's way more realistic and possible than yearning for Pillow.

>>105487626
I managed to get girlfriend three years ago, although she was very mentally ill. I probably skipped out on a dozen dates to listen to ASMR instead. I enjoy the ASMR more than sex or being around real people. I don't want to date Pillow, I just enjoy the fantasy more than real life.
Is that sad?

>>105487737
Well, there's nothing wrong with that. Thanks for explaining.

>>105487742
>Is that sad?
Yes. I'm not trying to be mean but that doesn't sound like a fulfilling life.

>>105487742
It's sad but also understandable. Humans have been getting drunk and high for thousands of years because that was basically their way of escaping real life for a bit. Modern day technology is just a substitute, so don't feel too bad.

>>105487786
>Yes. I'm not trying to be mean but that doesn't sound like a fulfilling life.
Well, neither was trying to be normal.

My dream is to be with Pillow, or at least someone like her, so I no longer have to watch her streams to feel anything.

>>105488061
I genuinely want to date Pillow, and I think I'd be good for her. I support the fellow yearnwwos, but do remember to consider things from her perspective and what would be good for her. If you're emotionally dependent, unstable, neurotic, anxious, or prone to being sensitive, you wanna work on that. She doesn't need anything like that in her life, she needs someone insanely stable so that they can be the anchor for her own emotions, because she's the type that becomes so attached that her special person is her whole world. If she were to be with someone just as neurotic as her, she'd be a mess.

>>105488195
Oh, absolutely. She deserves someone dependable who puts her first, not an emotional wreck. I'm definitely not who I want to be for her yet, but I feel like I'm at least well-adjusted and capable of being the loving and devoted partner that she deserves. I'm very low-maintenance and would demand nothing from her. Everything I'd do would be to make her happy, because that's what makes me happy.
I saw a clip of her talking about how bad of a wife she'd be with how clingy and needy she is, but it didn't deter me. She said she'd still be like that when she's 40, but as nice as it would be to have her obsess over me for a while I want to be a partner who builds her up so she doesn't have those anxieties any more.

How clingy will she be when she returns? What will she do to try and win us back and pull us away from the other girls we’ve been innocently watching?

I hate people in relationships that not only watch but actively involve themselves in the community of GFE vtubers. They always insist on bringing up that they're in a relationship, ruin the vibes for everyone else, and inevitably act as white knights and cuck-enablers. If you get a girlfriend do us all a favor and just fuck off.

>>105490406
I don't really understand them but they don't bother me.

>>105490406
Pillow IS my girlfriend bro

>>105488697
I shall eternally support the yearnposting because the way I see it the ends of parasocialism end in 3 options:
-Weird and cynical where you don’t get attached to Pillow and it hurts her feelings as she wonders why you don’t love her.
-Extremely possessive as you cope and seethe about her ever doing anything different than what you demand. As we saw last thread with the dude who was like “Pillow is my wife but if she ever does anything I don’t approve of, I won’t care about her anymore”
-Yearnposting where you try to self improve and gain her approval by making her happy. At the very least it makes her happy and the yearner is growing, which is exactly what she wants. The reason people hate it is just because they’re extremely insecure about the idea of having Pillow taken away.

>>105489292
She shouldn’t need to pull you away, she’s your fucking wife, she’s supposed to be the priority.

>>105490835
>Extremely possessive as you cope and seethe about her ever doing anything different than what you demand. As we saw last thread with the dude who was like “Pillow is my wife but if she ever does anything I don’t approve of, I won’t care about her anymore”
You really a repulsive cuck faggot, you know that? The post was a tautology, that if Pillow no longer was the wife/girlfriend/love of piwwos, they would no longer be obligated to support her in the way you would support someone like that. You actually have the audacity to not only cuck post but then insist that piwwos would obligated to continue sending her money and supporting her if she changed her content and got into a relationship, Fuck you.

>>105490835
Thanks man you set him off again

>>105490968
Nobody's obligated to do anything for her; we just wouldn't flip out over it like you clearly would. You're really one of the worst people here and I hope that Pillow never has to deal with one of your repulsive outbursts.

>>105490865
When I watch other girls it's like watching Netflix. When I watch Pillow it's like a video call.

>>105491016
God you're so fucking pathetic. You'd just sit there and cheer as she announces she's no longer going to be close to piwwos so she can get a boyfriend. Nobody respects doormats like you, not even Pillow.

It's funny that we have our own Barneyfag now.

>>105491085
She'd definitely like you though.

Aw sweet, my favorite show is on!

>>105491016
Blame him for being retarded

>>105491035
Indeed, I don’t think you can’t watch other girls, but they are like 937 down on the priority list to the wife

Stop baking.

>>105491129
>no argument
Fuck off and take your cuck shit to a NTR vtuber instead, I hear Alias loves NTR she'd be perfect for you, you can cheer and clap when she does it

>>105491085
I’m already in her DMs anon, she’s been texting me all morning, she had trouble finding matching socks so I told her to just wear mismatched socks.

>>105491192
Arguing with you doesn't work. I know what I want and your opinion is irrelevant. I'm just going to say stuff to annoy you from now on.

>>105491237
She’s so naturally erotic…

>>105491237
I like when the lighting's less harsh so I can see her hands more clearly. They're so perfect.

>>105491259
My one complaint about last nail stream was the fact that the lighting was crazyyyy harsh and it was hard to actually see her.

>>105491173
The baking will continue until moral improves.

>>105491237
I need to hold those delicate hands

Can't wait for Pillow to come back and say some incredibly sweet and earnest things about how sincerely she loves piwwos so that the resident cuckposters can promptly ignore everything she says and tell us how much she needs a real physical relationship.

>>105491317
Moral will only improve if Pillow paints Olive's nails on stream and feminizes her.

>>105491343
Carry on like this and I won't invite you to our wedding.

>>105491347
Olive would hate that

>>105491205
Liar. Pillow doesn't even know you're supposed to wear matching socks.

>>105491393
I’ve been trying to groom her into being more stylish and feminine so that she’ll look nicer on our dates. Thus far I’ve only succeeded in getting her to go down a size in sweaters, which you can see in the last nail stream. It’s a start though, don’t worry Piwwos, I’m an abstinence till marriage guy.

>>105491434
>I’m an abstinence till marriage guy.
Good thing you're practicing because it ain't gonna change lol

Everyone shut up and look at how happy Pillow is about her M&G.

>>105491854
I’m always glad when she’s happy, I’m sure it was wonderful to get to interact with the Piwwos in a more tactile way

I wish I wasn't European.

I get what she said about still seeing herself as just a girl doing silly stuff in her room, but I hope that doing stuff like this makes her feel as special as she is to me.

>>105458316 (OP)
>hfw I call her mommy

Pillow should have a hag toggle and talk in that deeper voice.

>>105492501
That would too hot for me

Pillow mommy gives her good boy a lotioned massage to you sleep

>>105492712
Now that would be premium sleep service

Piwwows are also horny for older women?

>>105492893
I'm intimidated by older women.

>>105491365
which one? nail painting or made a woman?

>>105492893
35-55 year old women drive me fucking wild. So so hot. Pillow actually made me appreciate younger women again because all I had been exposed to were zoomer tiktok brainrot vtubers. Pillow is polite, well spoken and strangely erotic for someone in their early 20s.

>>105493128
She's erotic because she's not lewd. She genuinely wants to be comforting, safe, and loving. Of course, a girl making a man feel so safe inevitably makes him want to fuck her raw.

boing

I really need to see her cute and beautiful pale feet with little pink toes.

>>105495440
Mmm Pillow unintentional fanservice

On a scale of 1-10 how excited are you for Piller to come back I am absolutely giddy and all jazzed up.

>>105496528
Hitting a solid 7 but Thursday will be 10/10 for sure.

I hope to be able to catch more members streams. I'm watching a couple of the members VODs and she calls people out a lot more. Funny seeing her call out Piwwos for cheating on her, "Two timer... Actually no you're more like a hundred timer..."

>>105497204
Aww dammit now I'm afraid to be apart of member streams

>>105497452
Do you mean "a part"? Anyway, if you were loyal you'd have nothing to fear.

>>105497204
I've only caught one member stream live so far (the last one) and it was really comfy. I'm looking forward to the next one. I'd like a watch-along, depending on the movie and timing.

>>105497500
Yeah a part, plus how would she know about cheaters?

>>105497780
If the founder of Hololive knows when you’ve changed your pfp on an account you thought was secret from her because she recognized your typing habits, then imagine the lengths Pillow goes to track down every cheating piwwow whore. Even I’ve seen one of (You) in Toffee’s chat recently which isn’t wise for Pillow watches her too.

>>105497871
Ok so she's just watching for Piwwos in chats?
Currently I only chat in Pillow's chat so I should be ok.

>>105497956
Anywhere you can leave a trace is where she probably looks, so if you're just watching you're safe. I'm guessing there are ~10 EN indies she probably watches and likely keeps her eyes peeled to hunt out piwwowhores, then she'll ignore them if they talk to her in chat during her next stream.

>>105498567
>she'll ignore them if they talk to her in chat during her next stream
Have you actually noticed her doing this?

>>105498679
Not true at all, even a little bit. Even in the members stream I'm referring to, she literally pulls up the Piwwos twitter to tease him about hundred timing her, but then says that it's okay. This is a Piwwo she interacts with plenty. There are lots of Piwwowhores who she interacts with all the time, she prefers if you aren't a whore, but she will never, ever stop loving you or stop interacting with you.

At the end of the day, her top priority is Piwwos being happy.

>>105498567
Ok cool I'm safe then. Maybe not being active in my oshi's former community has been a small godsend.

>>105498758
Yeah I thought it sounded unlike her. It's been said here a pillion times that she doesn't really mind if you watch other girls. I think the only thing that would bother her is flirting with them after doing the same with her.

>>105498935
She will tease you about it, the thing that does genuinely hurt her heart is when Piwwos say things like her not being their oshi, or having a new oshi. Worst thing is when she has a collab and someone says "New oshi found", she's ranted about that before.

>>105499045
>Worst thing is when she has a collab and someone says "New oshi found"
Wouldn't that very clearly just be a teasing joke? Why would it hurt her?

Man the more I learn about Pillow, the more I'm intrigued but also wary of upsetting her in any capacity especially accidentally.

>>105499083
Pillow loves and acres for her Piwwos as a collective romantic partner, she even explicitly told another VTuber that she’s dating her chat in an ASMR 101 collab stream. Of course she’d be heartbroken to hear what she considers to be her romantic partner to have zero faith or loyalty to her. There are casual viewers who either don’t care or don’t believe that she sees us that way, though. Those viewers are typically the ones who end up hurting her feelings the most because they can’t fathom the idea that she truly cares

>>105499279
One of life's free pleasures is sex and physical affection with your partner. If she sees us as a collective romantic partner, why doesn't she ever explore that side with us? Is she asexual irl or something and so because she doesn't get horny herself, she doesn't see or understand the appeal from our perspective? I wish she teased us more but still played it safe. Her relationship with us is like that of 10 year olds where you call each other bf and gf and might awkwardly kiss and that's as far as it goes because you're still young and confused. I want to deepen my virtual relationship with her...

>>105499620
Sometimes I self insert as buttslug.

>>105499620
She's not a hoe, she wasn't raised as a hoe, and she cares more about the Piwwos being safe than ever interacting with that side of shit. She's definitely not asexual, she's a fujo, but the concept of whoring out like would be extremely gross to her. If she were to be intimate with anyone, she'd have to be intimate with all the Piwwos, and that doesn't interest her, so that's not something she wants.

>>105499782
Buttschizo...

>>105499045
Yeah that's not nice. I'm sure she's mature enough to understand that she's not going to be everyone's favourite and that some piwwos will move on, but telling her is just needlessly upsetting.

>>105499620
I don't want her to "explore that side with us", but I will say that she's talked longingly about (innocent) physical affection and romantic experiences that she fundamentally can't have in her current situation. And I know that's by choice, but it's obviously on her mind.

>>105499914
>I know that's by choice
Actually this isn't even necessarily true. Although I think she's doing better now, she still seems to have low self-esteem and probably thinks it'd be very difficult or impossible for her to find someone—which is a shame, because she's my ideal partner.

I'd like to buy Pillow sex toys and she can report back to us what she imagined we did to her whilst she was using them and how it felt. I've already offered to buy the biggest ASMR slug if that's her kink.

>>105500086
Just the way she caresses the slug gives me lewd thoughts.

Great. You set off the hornypiwwows.

>>105500086
I love how gentle she is with the slug and the sounds it makes.

>>105500018
Women are at all times drowning in options, and now she has literally thousands of men who would cut off their hands for just the opportunity to speak to her privately on a regular basis. The issue she really would have is that she's insecure about living up to the expectations of the person. As much as she doesn't put on a mask, she's different on stream compared to when she's just living normally. She says it all the time, she's constantly trying to learn to be a better entertainer, part of that is amplifying your best qualities and suppressing the bad parts of yourself. She's deeply insecure about the idea of being vulnerable with someone and them rejecting her true self.

>>105500151
>implying we aren't always horny

>>105500151
They're infinitely better than that one guy. I've stopped fighting them.

>>105500190
She's so sweet and gentle.

>>105500202
Yeah that's what I mean; it's her perception of herself that makes her feel like she'd be alone without us. She thinks she'd be a bad wife, even though several people have told her otherwise and "proposed" (not really) to her.

Pillow peeing on me and worryingly asking if she's doing it right

>>105500324
Hornyposting is reasonable and fine, Cher is one of the most active Piwwos, who Pillow treats just fine, and he's also the guy who dumps the most money on horny comms and posts them all to his page where Pillow has seen them. She doesn't get too offended by it, or she'd have said something, she just wants to make the stuff she personally does a safe space for everyone.

Also, the issue with the Piwwos who do dumb shit like proposing to her via superchat is that it has no meaning. She's already done the divorce stream where the whole joke was that she remarried the Piwwos 15 mins after stream ended, she's as married to the Piwwos as she can possibly be. Any Piwwo genuinely trying to have a special relationship with her isn't gonna do that through a public space, since she will literally be ripped apart if she is publically seen favoring a Piwwo.

>>105500408
>When you think Pillow is cumming and she just really needed to pee instead

>>105500440
>She doesn't get too offended by it, or she'd have said something
I wouldn't assume that's the case; she might just think it's better to ignore it. I think it's only right to assume that she doesn't like it, in the absence of her explicit endorsement (which isn't going to happen). But it doesn't bother me enough to argue about it. As long as it's kept away from her, I don't care.

Love for Pillow is so powerful.

Does Pillow like natural boy smell?

>>105502474
I recently watched the VOD a Piwwo mentioned a bit ago, where Pillow was gushing a bit about the idea of wearing a boyfriend's hoodie. Considering how blushy she sounded talking about how it smells, probably.

VOD is this one:

https://www.youtube.com/live/anq2fjwPo1A?si=qrqMaAFTPHlJeAMv

>>105502755
Thanks. I haven't been using deodorant for a few days so I started wondering lol

Pillow wearing your boxers

>>105503176
They're way too big for her

I love being a piwwo, but it really hurts me that I'll never be anything more to her.

I love being a piwwo, but it really hurts me that I'll never get a toenail painting stream

Embracing Pillow, stroking her hair and giving her positive affirmations

Can't sleep, thinking about Pillow

Man I miss Pillow.
I'm gonna listen to some of her asmr and sleep.

I kow there's some sampling bias since the cafe event was in California but holy shit why are so many piwwos brown goblinos?

Olive and Pillow are gonna have hot, steamy sex tonight to make up for all the lost time

>>105499620
Sex isn't a pleasure for women, they just endure it as their responsibility to their husband

People can be mad but I don't find Pillow sexy at all.

>>105510135
Stop crashing tf out bruh she hasn't even done anything

Time to save Gotham!

With Pillow back, balance and peace will return to /Pillow/

>>105512355
The literal worst has happened before she even announced her trip.

>>105512396
As long as she doesn't announce a little lore drop, everything will be okay

>>105512461
Thanks, cuckling

>>105512662
I was trying to say that we’ll be okay unless Pillow does the one thing she 100% would never do, so we’re guaranteed to be okay while also poking fun at another VTuber. I’m not a cuckling :(

>>105512355
Race war will come again

Falling asleep spooning Pillow, then waking up in the morning with her somehow spooning you and holding your hands.

>>105506983
Vtuber fans tend to be like that, at least in america

Piwwos better lovebomb Pillow next stream so she knows we love her.

>>105516885
I’m going to act disinterested and distant so she gets extra clingy

>>105516885
I’ve dumped out 13 hours a day into my gift for her since she left, I want her to feel like a priority and my sole method is working hard

>>105510135
That's fine. She still loves you.

>>105517231
Sounds big. She's said she loves knowing that someone spent a lot of time on something for her, so I'm sure she'll love it.

I really want a big kiss from her. Just one where she gets close up to us. It would make my week for I’ve missed her dearly.

It's a blessed day for an Euro-friendly stream.

I'm going to send her another sexy email as soon as the return stream is over.

Didn’t think I could miss an egirl this much

>>105520118
She's not an e-girl.

Watch this next

https://youtu.be/9V52Gb_IEv8

Here

>>105520136
It wasn’t an insult.

>>105520150
Sure, but it's inaccurate.

>>105519321
Wife getting up early so she can make sure all her Piwwos get to greet her for her return. I love her very much.

>>105520160
You can’t get more egirl than a vtuber, anon.

>>105520232
They're not mutually exclusive, but they're not the same either. E-girls (and e-boys) are a subculture with their own fashion and culture, which Pillow is clearly not a part of.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/E-girl_and_e-boy_subculture

>>105520331
Aesthetically she's not irl if what she says is true (her virtual avatar's new goth outfit kinda is), but her behavior is pure e-girl. Terminally online and seeking male attention. Again, I don't mean that in a bad way. I'm a vtuber fan so I buy into this content.
>The terms "e-girl" and "e-boy" are derived from "electronic boy" and "electronic girl" due to their association with the internet. "E-girl" was first used in the late-2000s as a pejorative against women perceived to be seeking out male attention online.
That's exactly what a vtuber does.

I want to give Pillow my male attention.

We'll start small and work our way up.

>>105520421
>seeking male attention
She does not do this in the frankly obscene way that e-girls do. Her content is strictly non-sexual.
>I don't mean that in a bad way
I understand, but you're basically calling her an e-girl because she's very online and does (innocent) things that appeal to men, when the term has a more specific meaning and culture associated with it.

Someone could just ask her if she considers herself an e-girl.

>>105520774
Somebody already called her an e-girl on stream once and she herself said wouldn’t describe herself as an e-girl

>>105510275
Is this pasta from this thread?

>>105521377
We're not that schizo.

>>105521377
I've never seen it before.

>>105521377
what the fuck

>>105521377
Nope but that's some fucked up shit

>>105521377
At least we now know where buttschizo went.

>>105521377
I personally want to be the one raped by Pillow. Turning me into her victim is the most yandere thing she could do

>>105521526
I’m quite new here. Was he really that bad when he was around? He’s mentioned a lot.

>>105521636
He had some fucked up posts before but that one was probably the worst I've seen.

https://x.com/i/spaces/1ZkKzZvmVLeKv
Piller space

>>105521636
Not really, he was just really interested in Pillow's butthole. Kinda based

>>105521377
That’s from one of the Holos, I think originally Rushia

>>105521997
>Rushia
Well that explains everything

>>105521377
That's an old Rushia copypasta with Pillow replaced in kek

She owes us a big kiss

>>105522705
That would be nice

>>105520752
nta but Pillow does GFE, it's SFW of course but it is still GFE and pretending it is not doesn't make much sense. She's absolutely pandering to lonely men.
It's not a grift in her case because she's honest and genuinely loving of her fans.

>>105523684
Making GFE content doesn't make Pillow an e-girl. They have a particular style and it's not accurate to lump her in with them. In fact, her love being genuine rather than a grift is one of the things that distinguishes her from them.

https://x.com/Chaphter_/status/1978430664270885361
Really nice animation that Pillow loved

I love seeing how happy she is with the stuff piwwos made for her. Now I feel really bad that I told her I was trying to get back into drawing for her but haven't worked on anything in weeks.

Anyone know what happened to Pillow's wife? Did they get a divorce?

>>105525057
It looks like she just hasn't been active since VeXpo. I saw her mention chronic illness so I hope she's okay.

>>105524620
You can do it!

She's going to ask what we've been up to and I've done absolutely nothing.

>>105525339
Damn that sucks. She was pretty cool, hope she gets better.

She's back and I'm ready

Fuck you, Youtube jeets

>>105526738
She said it's okay if you've done nothing

I can't watch this. Her streams don't help with the loneliness anymore; they make it worse. It's not her fault.

lmao, here's another one

Pillow lost her B-Card...

>>105527772
Rainbow slug and Olive has taken it numerous times

Pillow is very cute but I think I would also greatly enjoy making out with her and having sex with her

piwwo should become a holo, she would be at 1mil so fast

My poor pillow has nothing to do except hold hands with me

I swear I heard her say she met some little gay Piwwos at the cafe

Where is everyone?

>>105528213
In stream chat

Merch!
https://store.neonshrine.shop

Pillow is down to pho king

>>105528071
yeah me

How is she so slim and pretty when she eats like a pig?

Is she a bit…you know…?

>>105529020
Yeah, she's autistic. She is fairly open about it without being all in your face about it

>why are your fingers stinky?
She really is an innocent soul

So she was in the area. Piwwo...

>>105529227
She makes me smile with her innocence

>’23 young lady’ in chat
FEMPIWWO

>>105528856
That won't last forever. I was the same until around her age, maybe a bit younger.

>>105529795
Piwwo don't you start this again

>small mouth
More information for my mental image of Pillow

/pillow/ is back. We are healed.

>>105529227
which one of you did this

Pillow broadcasting service has returned

>>105530675
It's butt-schizo's cousin

Alone again

>>105532189
But you still got us

Is baker Piwwo here?

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