Thread 105670806

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ns08Y6GYWEc
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8C6LGy2A4S8

>Latest stream
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rc0tqcyy3LY
>Upcoming stream
TBD ASMR

Thread rules:

When I see Piller,
I wanna Fill'er!

>>105670682
It makes me happy that Pillow has us now (that thank-you post yesterday was really sweet) but stuff like this makes me sad for her. I fear that she still feels alone in some ways. I hope she can talk to her VTuber friends about it, as they might be able to relate.

>>105670783
>I'm a yearnposter so it's not something I'm particularly happy about
I'm also a yearnposter, so I AM happy that she maintains strictly professional relationships with men. I don't imagine myself establishing a personal relationship with her that way, and I certainly don't want some other guy to do so.

>>105670999
I feel bad for her. Imagine not even being able to interact with 50% of the population publicly, to the point that if you did something CRAZY like... Comment on a dude's tweet or something, you'd have hundreds of people crashing out and trying to fuck with your life career. She already struggles with the fact that she has very few friends and relationships. What does she get in return for the sacrifice? The adoration the Piwwos, who she also cannot meaningfully interact with in any way, or else it'd be special treatment and she'd also have people getting upset with her.

>>105671126
>Comment on a dude's tweet
She already does this every time she replies to a piwwo, but I get your point.

>>105671266
Yeah, I meant more a dude that isn't a Piwwo, but you'll also notice she's careful not to comment on shit that isn't related to her. I know she sees more than that, she likes half of my posts, and I post about more than just her.

Just feels bad knowing that there isn't really much meaning she can get out of her relationship with the Piwwos. Yeah, we can heap as much love on her as we want, but kinda like how she was getting frustrated with the Piwwos during the last nail painting for doing nothing but glazing even her ugliest nail, it all doesn't mean anything if you're just hearing noise. Loving noise, but it's still just a constant deluge of glazing and ultimately meaningless when she's actually struggling. I

I have to respect that she's happy with her lifestyle and has no intention to change it, but I see signs that it's sometimes difficult for her. I can only hope that she's headstrong enough to do something about it if she has a change of heart. And I don't mean "start deceiving and manipulating us", before someone complains. I trust her to always do the right thing, but I fear that she won't prioritise her own happiness when she should.

>>105671601
Similar to how she was tearing up a bit ago on a members only about how she feels bad for not doing more for a the Piwwos, I suspect she'll be carried along more by sense of obligation to always be there for the Piwwos, beyond anything else. I've been watching a lot of the VODs and it seems like she's just increasingly sitting and verbally yearnposting about shit that she wishes she could have.

>>105671882
I remember her talking longingly in the last nail art stream about having someone hold her hand and paint her nails. I guess she could just go to a salon for that, but it's something that I want to do for her, so hearing her express that feeling really got to me.

>>105672162
Unfortunately for you, I will win, but I will treat her very well.

>>105672368
I know I care for her more than you because I would never think of post shit like this. She’d despise your competitiveness.

Somebody in the previous thread wanted a loving girlfriend ASMR soon. I guess he's getting what he wants tonight https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8DLsSFDyuh0

>>105673623
She actually loves us!

Is Pillow okay? Something feels off and she’s more clingy than usual :/

>>105675194
She gave a hint so subtle that I'm entirely sure that it's accurate, but she did hint that it may be seasonal depression. I think she'll be okay, just be there for her whenever she's clingy on Twitter

>>105675194
She's just been feeling kinda depressed recently, she talked about it the other day, she was a sad girl on Friday. She'll be okay, if it was a real tangible problem she'd mention it, this is probably just her needing a hug.

>>105675411
She's said flat out that both her and Olive get depressed with relative frequency. It's easy to forget because she always maintains high energy on streams, but she's a genuinely very depressive and anxious girl. Unironically, the Magical Cure Love Shot cover is pretty much a summary of how her life is currently, she works hard to be a cute sweet idol for everyone and cover up all the pain and sadness so nobody is worried.

>>105675194
I feel for her and I hope she's okay, but I don't think it's anything serious. She wouldn't want us to worry too much about her.

Thinking about Pillow while listening to the Smiths

>>105675411
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>>105676306
Thanks piwwows. I'll hold back my hornyposting until she's feeling better. It's hard to feel horny when she's down anyway. I just want to give her the biggest and warmest hug in bed and watch cartoons all day with her. Doing all the house chores and cooking her favorite meals until she perks up.

>>105675545
The best thing we can do is return the favor... Be bright and cheery for her like she is for us, so she knows all the effort she puts in to make us happy is paying off. Better times will come for us all.

>>105676903
>Better times will come for us all.
I don't know man

If you were with her right now, what would you do to cheer her up and give her confidence again?

>>105676937
The only way you can ensure that is by working hard. The only thing you can control is yourself, so forge your own future. Even if you don't feel like you can be with Pillow one day, she's an example of what a good wife should be. At the end of the day, her priority is that every Piwwo is happy.

>>105676987
Hold her hands and paint her nails. Let her wear (and keep) my hoodie. Prank Olive. Give her a head massage. Tell her how fucking beautiful she is.

>>105670806 (OP)
me on the left

>>105676987
I would love to have her lay down on top me as I lay down on my back, so we’re chest to chest. I’d softly speak words of encouragement and compliments right into her ear as I gently stroke her back

>>105676987
A lesson from a war-torn Piwwo who has dealt with emotional women, and mine had bipolar so it was even worse: You can't fix it.

There is no single action or words that a guy can say that will fix that kind of sadness. You can comfort them and make them feel better, but it clings to em like dust. Best thing to do is simply be with them, comfort them, and let them understand that you're rock-solid for them. Refer back to when Pillow was talking about not having emotional permanence. A part of a man's job is to remind the woman that even if her brain is flooded with neurotransmitters saying otherwise, she will be okay, because he's a solid emotional anchor that she can use to keep herself grounded and know everything will be okay.

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>>105676987
Talk to her; try to find out what's wrong and work through it with her. If she doesn't know or want to talk about it, hold her close to me and tell her all of the things that I love about her, that whatever doubts she has about herself are wrong, and that I'll always be there for her. Make her feel like the most important thing in the world to me, because she is.

I think I know what would help Pillow. It will take courage and patience, but I'm confident she can work her way up and experience euphoria.

Is having an orgasm good for depression?

If the Mariners lose today please tell pillow it wasn't her fault I killed myself

>>105678585
I think women get more out of it because for them masturbating is more of a session and they stop when they feel like it or get too stimulated, whereas for us it's an end goal and that's it. We also get the post nut clarity which can be miserable.

It hurts a little that I'll probably miss the ASMR stream given how late it is here. I'll watch the replay but it's not the same.

>>105679501
I usually just set an alarm for 5 mins before stream, then yap a bit in chat while she puts me to sleep. She cares, and she does notice, she’s mentioned me directly before because she knows my timezone and was snapping at me for being up too late during the ASMR. I love my wife.

>>105679501
Same. I can't complain for she's been accommodating us more lately.

>>105680025
Yeah I've decided not to mention it where she might see anymore, because I don't want her to feel bad or think I'm ungrateful for what she already does for us.

I'm sorry for wanting something with Pillow that I can't have, but she makes it impossible not to.

>>105680226
it's fine, just please try to reel in the cuckposting

>>105680273
I don't know what you think I've posted, but none of it is close to what you call "cuckposting".

I believe that Pillow recently did something that makes me very happy. Love might be overpowering reason, but my suspicion isn't unfounded.

>>105681496
Vagueposting. What is it?

>>105682595
I'm probably being schizo but look at the timestamp of her "thank you for being here" post from yesterday.

>>105683007
Probably ARE being schitzo, what does the timestamp mean? She just posted it at like 6:22pm her time.

>>105683133
Yes now look in the last thread.

>>105683207
Could be the case, would be unnerving if she's watching the threads that closely though.

Pillow, don't read shit about my game. No spoilers!

>>105683394
>would be unnerving if she's watching the threads that closely though

The world's largest Piwwoooooo!

>>105683394
There's a lot of unsavoury stuff posted here that I don't want her to see, but I'm selfish so I like believing that she reads my posts. It's enough for me that she knows that someone feels the way I do about her, even if I can't let her know who I am. I'd send her anonymous love letters if I could. I'm her secret admirer.

Are you all ready for tonight?

>>105686823
yes. the stream has been all ive been able to think about the whole day

>>105686823
Of course I am!

I need her so bad I want to be held in Pillow's arms and called a good piwwo I LOVE MY VIRTUAL GIRLFRIEND PILLOW SO MUCH

>>105688230
I want to hold her in my arms and call her a good Pillow.

>loyalty goes both ways
Based.

im such a disgusting whore. i need to be better

Never know what to say on these streams. I try to chat during all the streams so she knows I'm in, but at the same time I struggle with just saying "I love you" the whole time. I put in a lot more work to prove that fact than pretty much any other Piwwo, but it feels kinda cringe saying it in chat and such.

>>105689186
She does care, she just understands that she can’t realistically ask the Piwwos to be obsessed with only her. At the same time, it still hurts her heart to see Piwwos cheating on her, particularly if it’s ASMR pampering type of stuff.

Did she just fart?

>>105689186
It's ok JV we still love you

Loving Pillow and letting her be the only woman in your heart will drastically improve your life

instant classic?

>>105693303
I'm one happy piwwo. Time to sleep now.

>>105690335
I make sure not to leave any evidence of my cheating. I don't think I've sent more than a couple of messages in another girls chat in about a year.
I do listen to a lot of other ASMR which makes me feel terrible whenever she talks about not letting other girls pamper us. I used to think it was silly to dedicate yourself to just one chuuba but I've grown to feel so much closer to her recently. Cutting all that out is the very least I can do, even if she'll never know.

Would pillow consider hiring an Etsy witch to help the Mariners win the next game so I don't kill myself?

>>105695483
Sorry we can't let you do that, my folks need the Jays to win.

I'd let Pillow batter my balls all the way to the base, ya catch my drift

>>105696010
What do you man mean (((your folks)))

Do you think Pillow would be upset if she knew I like to dry humo her daki

It's time!

>>105690169
I'd praise her lots; I think she'd appreciate that. As it happened though, it was already late for me so I fell asleep before I could say much.