>>40514676>defeat of deathLiteral suspension of actual reality, friend. Which is what that whole schemeamyd thrives on. Then again, I really doubt that anyone who wants to live forever has lived very long in the first place. Kurzweil comes to mind. Last I heard he still pitches his brand of bull shit even at the ripe old age of...what is he now? 90? Anyway.
My Dad is dying. So am I, but he is much closer to it than I am. Affliction from lifestyle choices. Anyway I don't like it of course. What can I do? I can't live his life, I can't extend his. So damn. My cousin died this year, a past ladyfriend I hadn't seen in years did too, so did her sister. She was younger than I am now. He sister was as well I think. Close to my age anyway.
I think about this shit daily. I'm pushing half a century. Never wanted to get this old but things are ok. Aside from being unable to see some people and spend time with those who I could see in the past, same as it ever was. But my time will come. Sometimes I'm impatient for what happens at the true end of me. Other times not so much. But I'll stop before I write a novel about it.
Why do I continue visiting this place even after almost 20 years? The people. You, each and all here. It is a good time when I choose to return willfully and not habitually and when I see the gifts that you all share when you can. Best fuckin' wishes to ye all, all. Coffee time, manchildren. Call Sabrina. <3