I did it.

You don't want to do it. It can cause schizophrenia. It will scare you and will leave you in pieces. You'll be stuck in an anxious state for a very long time, possibly years.

Magic(k) tends to be sympathetic (i.e. like affects like). What you put in is what you get.

I want to write all of this in an organized manner, but it's probably better if I don't.

Sympathetic magick means that when you stick a pin in the voodoo doll of a person, it's going to hurt the person right there. Yes, it's that simple. The concept of magick that religions have known for ages, as a pathetic little activity in which you do bad things indirectly to hurt people (like throwing chicken bones around their house) is really what magick is. You somehow associate something with the thing you want to affect. If it's something bad, you might hurt them. It should have some similarity to your target.

Anyways, enough about that. What happened to me is more important, although I'm uncomfortable discussing it.

How I did it was through sheer fucking force of will. I tore myself apart emotionally. But I didn't do anything too crazy, I only threatened myself to do those things. Knowing full well that those things would get me hurt, made fun of, ridiculed, killed, etc. Since hurting myself physically was not the goal, I obviously didn't go through with any of it (the strange, irrational behaviour that I tried to force myself to engage in).

And since like affects like, it hurt other people emotionally as well. I regret that to some extent, it was an accident. I never knew it would happen. All I did was stretch my mind, including my emotions, my identity, to its limits. For what reason, I don't know. For the hell of it. Maybe I was just stressed and wanted it all to stop. Yeah, that's probably it. I wanted to steer myself off the path life gave to me. Stress is an awful thing.

Anyways, is there more you guys would like to know or have I talked too much already?

Why do they spell magic with a k?

All witches will be burnt to death.

>>40547743
To be fair, that was the old-fashioned way introduced by Alaister Crowley.

>>40547734 (OP)
I did it too. It took psychedelics and trauma and then a Trigger word that completely shattered my psyche, only for me to repair.

I changed personalities through ritual magick.

I used to be something different. Then Something Happened. And now I am different. My soul literally changed. My personality changed.

But there was a year or two where I was not alright. Almost schizo. And had to heal.

I had a broken traumatized personality. I used to Magick ritual to Shatter It and CHANGE MY CORE. But it was a horrifying experience. I understand the concept of God being so Bright that you can't look at him directly. I understand what it means to Gain Truths That Make You Crazy.

It is possible to change yourself through Magick. Like actually change who you are. But it can be scary. And it can hurt. A lot.

>>40548861
It was a horrifying experience and I lost many people from my life and was like Brian Wilson level crazy for a year. I wouldn't recommend it but I don't regret it. I went from being a traumatized broken person who was being taken advantage of and used and manipulated and I BECAME SOMEONE ELSE. Someone who could never be used the same way again.

And I did it through Ritual Magick and gaining Truths about Life that allowed me to act accordingly. Really scary experience through. A complete transformation of Spirit through a humiliation ritual magick almost killed me/made me fully crazy, so I don't reccomend to a weak mind or weak willed person, but these things do work in the World.

>>40547734 (OP)
I was programmed a certain way through childhood trauma, everyone is programmed a certain way through upbringing, but there is a way to "hijack" the programming and change who you are through Magick, I do not recommend it but it was necessary for me.

>>40549044
>so I don't reccomend to a weak mind or weak willed person
You were weak the moment you succumbed to the pressure and desire to go through this process and thereby creating potentially more problems for others and those that manage things from beyond.

Talk to me about strength when you have to deal with what others do to you and your loved ones.

Fucktard.

>>40547766
Try me bitch

>>40547766
Why are Christians so violent?

>>40549088
Their beliefs are of war and genocide