I had been sober for a long time, last night I relapsed with Adderall and weed. It was a pretty normal night and then at some point while watching Netanyahu speak I was overcome with the strangest sensation of emotions. I got on my knees and began to pray and in the pits of my stomach I felt like I came face to face with true evil, like for a fraction of a second I understood everything like everything was a play being enacted by higher spiritual beings or Aliens and the blackness was so intense I began saying jesus christ is my lord and savior over and over again. After praying half of a rosary I felt like I was in an elevated level of consciousness. Normally I scroll on my phone before I sleep but I just very simply thought to myself "no, those are just fake thoughts being put in my head" and I was able to resist.

If drugs are bad why do they make you feel closer to God? Was this a demonic spirit possessing me?

>>40557993 (OP)
Clean up.

>>40558091
answer me

>>40557993 (OP)
>watching Netanyahu speak I was overcome with the strangest sensation of emotions. I got on my knees and began to pray and in the pits of my stomach I felt like I came face to face with true evil
that's a fairly understandable reaction.

>>40557993 (OP)
> I began saying jesus christ is my lord and savior over and over again. After praying half of a rosary.

“But when ye pray, use not vain repetitions, as the heathen do: for they think that they shall be heard for their much speaking.” (Matthew 6:7)

>>40557993 (OP)
>If drugs are bad why do they make you feel closer to God?
This is a flawed and inaccurate way to put the question. It appears in this case that you experienced your consciousness in a more vivid manner than your routine sober self. I am not making a case for drug use, but it is entirely possible to be 100% sober and operating in a sleepwalking consciousness, controlled and fed (bamboozled) by external negative influences. One of the (limited, and sometimes costly) possible benefits of a drug like weed is that the intoxication shuts down certain parts of the brain and forces you to deal with more primitive bodily and emotional sensations.
>Was this a demonic spirit possessing me?
If you refer to your reaction, no.

>>40558244
addendum for clarity:
>the intoxication shuts down certain parts of the brain and forces you to deal with more primitive bodily and emotional sensations
that most adults are conventionally "taught" (or forced by circumstances, culture, peer pressure etc.) to ignore, in favour of more "important" things like job, money, conformity, etc.

>>40558150
Yep, he's a bad lot, that one.

>>40558176
What is a rosary

>>40558359
What is a dictionary?

I hate it when an anon makes a thread about their own personal situation but can't be bothered to engage with or even acknowledge the people that take time to offer advice.

>>40558488
My gf made me watch Netflix with her

>>40558588
nevermind

>>40558593
Nobody really gave me worthwhile advice, I was talking about god someone said something about brain chemistry and we agreed Netanyahu is evil, yes drugs influence my brain chemistry- insane take- I am talking about my relationship with the divine.

>>40558605
allright dude

>>40557993 (OP)
Yes
Adderall makes demons easier easier to possess you
Pray to whatever God believe in
Sage your house, if you don’t have sage to burn use rosemary, or roses Any of those herbs or even tobacco, but preferably something natural

Dude you just have problems, stop abusing Adderall and talk to someone.

just yell out: THE POWER OF KIKE COMPELS YOU
over and over and over until the divine messenger sent to assess the state of your spiritual development has verified firsthand you are an npc who rejected his own soul and goes on his way

>>40560495
Shut up, Dave

>>40560333
Redpill me on sacred herbs

>>40558091
Great advice

Fifty cent and B I G my bigger. Amen.

>>40557993 (OP)
Okay.. I can actually answer this one thanks to a similar experience.

>If drugs are bad why do they make you feel closer to God?
The right drug combination can apparently cheat your way into generating proof that there are more than three dimensions that your brain can perceive under the right conditions. For me it was the combination of THC and Fluoxetene/Prozac. The right conditions can program your brain to receive messages strong and extreme enough to start up a legit spiritual journey. But at the same time, relying on drugs without more healthy and known spiritual practices, is not wise. You need protection to not get wrecked if you're going to experiment further.

>Was this a demonic spirit possessing me?
Computer terms! There was likely a demon on standby trying to convince you to drop your firewall. Can't say that I'm an expert on demonic possession, but I'm currently under the belief that you have to consent to it for that to happen. That is why alcohol generally makes you more prone than weed does by nature.

>>40564038
I have this friend who experiments with DMT heavily and was telling me he interacted with spirits and eventually broke through to the "Plane of unconditional love" and was saying that we are all God experiencing itself in a gazillion different ways. It's my inclination that these were spirits he was interacting with and I tried to warn him the Gnostic eye is closed for a reason- but I see myself making this same mistake and following this sort of "drugs will lead you to spiritual experiences" because psychedelics have given me my most influential spiritual experiences.

>>40564110
So let's just put it this way. If you are perceiving a dark path when you're not even trying, don't expect it to change as you currently are. The cosmos is there for all to 'see', not control.

Also, and this is easier said than done, don't overestimate your own spiritual limitations. If you drug responsibly, you can receive these visions again, but depending what the cosmos will 'grant' you, you may not always like the results, nor are you guaranteed to be in full control this way. I would say that the phrase 'slow & steady wins the race' applies more to spiritual workings, because ain't know way a senior jogger is beating a young adult marathon runner!