when i was a child i used to communicate with some kind of entity/ spirit. they communicated with me telepathically and through dreams. i knew at the time that this entity was something evil, but it kind of made these deals with me. i would ask if for things and it would then manifest them for me. these things were material things like money. i knew that this deal would mean something was taken from me, but i didn’t know what. fast forward to my adult life from the outside i look a lot better and have successfully relationships and such. however on the inside my brain feels like it is constantly being tortured. constant anxiety/ intrusive thoughts, i’ve done a lot of bad things to people as well and went through life not really caring, up until recently. i try to meditate every day now to try and find answers and i feel great amount of regret for every bad thing i’ve ever done. i feel like crying all the time when i think about others suffering. i understand this change was needed but it causing me a lot of distress every day. how can i deal with the pain of my loved ones suffering and how do i “fix” my negative energy?

for one stop being into pony shit for little girls. you are like almost 30 dude. stop being cringe and maybe demons will stop flying towards you like moths to a flame.

>>40582567 (OP)
You should smoke crack rock and think more on your feelings.

Diddled for PTSD.