A quick rundown about what's going on in my life
>26yo
>NEET loser, average failure, the only positive thing I'm not obese, that's it, videogames porn junk food the whole package once you give up on life
>Learn about SR and LOA
>Try to improve my life, start going to the gym, better food, stop jacking off, etc
>Sudden gains, my life gets better, I'm happy, thinking about going to college, get a career, etc.
>I relapse, twice, give up, then come back to improve myself, etc
>Focus on "CONVINCE YOURSELF SAY THAT WHAT YOU WANT IS ALREADY A REALITY" thing regarding manifestation etc, "BECOME DELUSIONAL! BELIEVE IN URSELFFF AND PUT THE WORK!"
>Actually delude myself into success
>Now I am part of a big political movement here in my country, some fucking how after just A MONTH, I am delusional, I believe 24/7 that I am the boss.
>Now my social circle is all rich people and hot chicks, the life that I thought would never get, and I AM STILL NOTHING NO CAREER DEGREE OR EVEN A FUCKING APARTMENT NOTHING IM STILL THIS POOR GUY BUT I AM THE BOSS NOW
>Suddenly I'm becoming a total asshole with everyone including my family, I'm losing myself, all while this sex energy becomes fuel to me, but also if I nut even with a girl, it's like I lose my will to live, it's terrifying.
>I am 101% sure that I will succeed, but now I cannot even recognize myself, I am becoming a truly bad person, to the point I made my parents cry for how bad I'm treating them
>I have sudden mental breakdowns where I end up cutting my arms
what is going on here, I was a loser before, but a """good""" person, now I'm skyrocketing myself but I am becoming a complete monster of a person, I dont even want sex anymore, I just want power, the stars align for me almost every day, but I just want more

Power is temptation, and you are being tested

bump for insight and learning, I do SR too

>>40621666 (OP)
>I'm losing myself
you lack the insanity to hold on
and the logic to feel others pain
you have taken the path of Icarus
and power burns

>>40621666 (OP)
So you have become the inverse of Job. With all of your power, what will you do? What path will you take?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rR5xTgMwpiM

>>40621680
and how could I pass the test? I have no clue
>>40621830
actually I am becoming insane, I deluded myself into believing who I am now, I know it because I don't lie to myself, I didn't lie, I deluded myself, and now I AM that person, it is a reality, but yeah I lack the logic to feel others pain, in fact I manipulate people on daily basis, and yeah it feels like it burns
>>40621842
I don't know, I just want to reach the top, and I mean the fucking top, I want to be there, I want everything I lacked my entire life, most of all, respect or fear

>>40621972
>actually I am becoming insane
no, you are breaking
if one doesnt wish to slay god, how could one manage the power?

>OP volunteers for a libtard political party and proceeds to go insane

>>40621666 (OP)
>>Focus on "CONVINCE YOURSELF SAY THAT WHAT YOU WANT IS ALREADY A REALITY" thing regarding manifestation etc, "BECOME DELUSIONAL! BELIEVE IN URSELFFF AND PUT THE WORK!"
>>Actually delude myself into success
>>Now I am part of a big political movement here in my country, some fucking how after just A MONTH, I am delusional, I believe 24/7 that I am the boss.
That's good

>>Now my social circle is all rich people and hot chicks, the life that I thought would never get, and I AM STILL NOTHING NO CAREER DEGREE OR EVEN A FUCKING APARTMENT NOTHING IM STILL THIS POOR GUY BUT I AM THE BOSS NOW
Those people are satans

>>Suddenly I'm becoming a total asshole with everyone including my family, I'm losing myself, all while this sex energy becomes fuel to me, but also if I nut even with a girl, it's like I lose my will to live, it's terrifying.
Don't do pre-marital sex, succubi want to mine your male energy for evil

>>I am 101% sure that I will succeed, but now I cannot even recognize myself, I am becoming a truly bad person, to the point I made my parents cry for how bad I'm treating them
Satan promised Jesus the world when he was testing him in the desert but the Kingdom of God is not of this world

>>I have sudden mental breakdowns where I end up cutting my arms
Those are demon attacks

>what is going on here, I was a loser before, but a """good""" person, now I'm skyrocketing myself but I am becoming a complete monster of a person, I dont even want sex anymore, I just want power, the stars align for me almost every day, but I just want more
You have to fight for what is transcendental and not what is terrene. The soul is from above, but the flesh is of the earth. If you can overcome the cravings of the flesh, you will live forever.

>>40621972
So you are taking the left-hand path. I wish you all the best.

>>40622078
Im working with Trump team

>>40622230
then I was right

>>40622230
BASED

>>40622156
We have seen this play out hundreds of times, don't bother.

>>40621666 (OP)
>what is going on here, I was a loser before, but a """good""" person, now I'm skyrocketing myself but I am becoming a complete monster of a person, I dont even want sex anymore, I just want power, the stars align for me almost every day, but I just want more
You found a source of power, but you lack balance
This is better than being a loser, but now you're becoming a bad person. This is a normal stage in the development of a young man that starts out as a "nice guy"
You will learn lessons here, and how to be powerful, have money, have women, without being an asshole. That's the balance

So you'll have power, by being a leader and being a problem solver. So people will rely on you, trust you, look up to you. This is the positive form of being a tyrant/power.
You will bring value, do a good job that people need in society, so you will get paid good money. This is the positive form of being a grifter/getting money.
You will find love, with a good woman, so sex with her energizes you and revitalizes you, this the the positive form of sexual energy alchemy/SR, or getting sex/female attention.

Just manifest yourself to not be an asshole, and revise all the previous crashouts you had.

Another shoehorned Semen psyop thread to prevent people from activating sigils

>>40621810
>I do SR too
what is that and how to do it

>>40626575
>from activating sigils
how to do that
>>40626550
>Just manifest yourself
HOW

>>40626857
SR is Semen Retention >>40620836

>>40626876
You can manifest by using sigils and/or LOA >>40624151

>>40621666 (OP)
Fucking beast mode... from my experience, you attract what you retain. So, if you retain semen, you attract semen to yourself.

>>40621666 (OP)
I NOW have a giantess bimbo gf with giant anime milkers that utterly worships me

>>40621666 (OP)
I though you were paralleling hitler
For the pent rage and stupidity i suggest you fix your mental traumas