I watch others have sex in my dreams now after doing succubus rituals and messing up years ago. I also prayed to lucifier/satan for help but seems to have made it worse. Usually I'm spectating as a conciousness, as opposed to being in the dream itself and it's some dude I never seen having sex with a pornstar I like. They go into detail and it seems pretty real which leaves me waking up angry, because that's what I wanted to explore. Am I being controlled like a matrix battery? Possessed and used? I used to be able to be lucid when younger (though never got to explore sexually the way i wanted to), usually very synchronised when awake (people walking by would say things I am thinking for example) and have practiced buddhism and meditation so what gives? It's not like I'm an NPC to just be used but this seems recurring. I sometimes will hear voices in head call me bitch/slave, kind of like a devil or so (or reptilian). I try to cleanse my home with sage, do aura meditations and deatachement practices but it doesn't seem to work too well, any thoughts anons? Please helpful answers only. And no, I don't have a cuck fetish, I'm more sexually frustrated, want to explore sexually and feely. I'm a virgin but had tastes of sex dreams just not fully in the way I'd like.

shouldve just been smarter than jews
thats all you had to do

>>40645210
Care to elaborate? If you mean religion, then yeah I'm no longer obsessed with it like I was years ago but I came from a religious background so it has imprints. That's kind of way I said (or reptilian) because that's how it feels, a negative being taking on a form of a stereotypical devil or so but I can see more in the sense of just a negative astral being or the likes.

Are you sure you don’t simply have a porn addiction?

>>40644742 (OP)
If you prayed to Lucifer, you're an NPC. Can't help you with that.

>>40645238
Not really I mean sometimes I watch it but not a lot. If that where the case though would it not be me watching porn in the dream? I mean I do desire and would like to explore having sex with women that are like in porn but I try to stay away from it as masterbating and watching others have sex is less appealing overall.
>>40645251
It was more desperation desu, kind of dumb I admit since I wanted to get away from religion as a whole (and yes i'm aware it's mostly just symbolism for a planet etc) so it didn't make much sense but ye, I was pretty mad and still am just less so.

>>40644742 (OP)
>I also prayed to lucifier/satan for help but seems to have made it worse

>>40645276
Ye that's on me I guess, but I didn't really no who else to pray to and seen him more of a anti judaism symbol than a evil or bad being at the time so thought maybe I'd get help but nah

>>40645263
This is what you need:

“For I delivered unto you first of all that which I also received, how that Christ died for our sins according to the scriptures; And that he was buried, and that he rose again the third day according to the scriptures:” (1 Corinthians 15:3-4)

“That if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thine heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved. For with the heart man believeth unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation.” (Romans 10:9-10)

“¶ For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.” (John 3:16)

“For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God: Not of works, lest any man should boast.” (Ephesians 2:8-9)

>>40645288
So you think christian prayers are the way and it's the devils doing? Do you think it's other people having sex using my dreams and desires to fulfil there own (devil worship etc) or just the devil trying to make me feel bad in this context by using my dreams? If the first, then why wasn't I able to explore my desires when I first prayed? If the later, then I would care a bit less, just don't wanna be used by others like a battery or some shit when I wanted to explore really badly. I'll keep those prayers noted though, I'm open for all advice and beliefs for help.

>>40644742 (OP)
Identify yourself with the guy. Search points in common between you and him. Maybe it will trigger a switch of position. You're clearly stuck in third person mode

>>40645315
That's the thing tho, it seemed to random to just be "my own mind as somebody else". Like personality and everything was just not me, so that's why I'm questioning it. I wasn't exactly "lucid" btw, it's like ye I was watching or aware of it but not in the dream if that makes sense? Like a cloud watching from above but I never was like "Wow I'm dreaming and this sucks", more like floating awareness which I had no control over and would rather not watch those things since I'm not involved if that makes sense.

>>40645312
I think all that garbage you involved yourself in has done damage to your mental health, and there's also the possibility of you being under demonic influence to some extent. What I have given you is the gospel. If you get saved, God will forgive you, cleanse you and turn you into a new man.

>>40645343
Both are most likely true, tho I have taken a buddhist approach mostly these days so I practice deatachement even to bad things, which I hope will make them lose power or control over me but it seems like those dreams persist. Tho I'll keep this in mind I need all the help I can get really

>>40644742 (OP)
>prayed to lucifier/satan for help
well, there's your problem

>>40644742 (OP)
You attempted to summon a succubus and get astrally cucked every night now?
Holy shit, anon, get it together.
What was your method for getting this whole thing started? When exactly did things turn south for you in that process?

>>40645423
it was lik 10 yrs ago I did a ritual, and she would appear some nights but I was dumb and thought I made a mistake and that's why she doesn't appear outside (but felt touches and stuff while awake), and wanted to be lucid more often so did more rituals which probably angered her, like, alot of rituals, always wit same intent of "becoming more vivid, more often etc" yes it was retarded even tho the extra rituals weren't to "cheat" or "have someone else" but more to increase what was. Dreams got replaced by torture dreams etc, now I deal with this since torture dreams don't do much.

>>40645227
you trusted jews
and even when you thought you shouldnt trust jews, you trusted jews again
your development was arrested at the level of the easter bunny and tooth fairy and now you cant seperate your imagination from real life. you look like a fully grown adult but inside of you is the mind of a child. they call it spiritual semitism.
the guy holding your hand is your daddy, the jew
he is your fate
purge yourself of everything, start over
you use jewish maps, make your own maps
where their maps said here be dragons, yours know not, they are uncharted
are you willing to do that?
without willpower you will be forever fucked, and if youre being bullied by your own inner monologue, then babby, youre fucked lol.

>>40645438
What kind of rituals?
I'm not trying to be obtuse here but there's a lot of esoterica out there and what you're experiencing sounds like it hinges on what was done. Praying to Satan probably didn't help. I'm not religious per se but Satan doesn't seem like the kind of entity I would ever ask for help. If I did, I'd try to have some kind of "worthy" offering and id still expect to get fucked over.
I dont expect you to remember the names of what you did but if you could briefly describe the rituals in order and what your intentions were at each point, that'll assist me and anyone else who stops by in picking this apart for you.

>>40645448
That makes sense desu, I guess you're right even by turning to lucifier/devil praying it's still jewish roots.. but I did turn to buddhism as an answer and it has helped mentally (to just be as no self, conciousness, not clinging, seeing suffering and the root) but i'd still wish for those dreams to end, which buddhism doesn't really help, it would just say "don't cling to the desire itself".

>>40645468
it was Lilith letter method, multiple times after first few contacts, wanting it to be stronger/more often but probably only angered/made jealous or caused all sorts of problems wit new entities fighting each other. Praying to Satan was more in regards to Joy of satan beliefs at the time, but I see that mistake now too. What has helped is seeing it all as mind/mara in a buddhist context, kind of gets me out of the whole mess/mistakes of the past but not a full solution

>>40645489
Sounds like you've correctly identified that the problem was the multiple contacts. Like quintuple texting a girl you're interested in rl while she's at work. Nothing could develop and frankly, it sounds like what you were doing was annoying. I'm not blaming you; you were younger and didn't know. Life happens.
My first thought as I was reading your posts was that it reminded me of frantic anxieties I had during some depression and other mental health problems. Though my problems weren't sexual, the way you're talking about it was somewhat familiar. What ultimately worked for me was realizing that a lot of it stemmed from being self absorbed. As I continued to add things and activities to my life outside of "self", the better I felt. It pissed me off, really, that this was the answer because it was very unflattering. I feel past the hump, though. I mention this because you said
>What has helped is seeing it all as mind/mara in a buddhist context
Sounds like you're getting very close to the same. Try to add to your life outside of self. Take care of a plant, be nice to someone (maybe even if they don't deserve it), interact with your pets more and more mindfully if you have any. Call your grandparents. Just keep it going. Yourself ABSOLUTELY matters but do not let your entire mind explore that alone. The key out is activity.

>>40644742 (OP)
I had a dream about gray large slug about the size of croissant, I poured salt onto the slug and a smaller slug appeared. Can someone interpret that

>>40645519
Right but this was like 10-12 years ago. I haven't done rituals since or the likes.. taking the other approach and not clinging to the idea of succubus or whatever but when those dreams still happen despite me letting go almost completely, living day to day not even giving it attention, I wake up angry , like back 10 steps or powerless. I stated my intentions clear about back then multiple times, that it was not the intended outcome, and that I should have rights that they at least let go but idk. I'd rather let go and not have to "watch" those dreams happen while completely powerless at the cost of experiencing it myself desu but they still happen randomly
>>40645539
kek at least you are the one in the dream.. suppose you could argue "it's just a dream" but do you not think it's odd that I'm never the one engaging like it used to be? Makes me think a little more but idk tho i appreciate the response all the same

>>40645589
All the best to you out there, anon. Life is hard and can be cruel. What i said about extending yourself outside instead of further in was something I felt was complete in itself so I dont have any more advice I could give you. Seems like the answer is floating around on the edges of your consciousness. Despite your struggles, you seem like you're at least a little bit smarter than the average person walking around. I hope you overcome and find that you enjoy those extensions of your abilities. You're not alone out there because, if literally nothing else, I will remember talking with you and think about it from time to time.

>>40645618
thanks anon I already feel better after getting up, I guess just talking about it helps a ton. Anon gets cucked by succubus in his dreams is pretty funny to say ngl

>>40645489
buddism is hella jewish
atleast in the sense of its philosophy, which amounts to the tuxedo pepe psyop

>>40645651
I had concerns about the passive nature, but when you are overwhelmed and don't no how to get out it can help wit letting go mindfulness. I use it more of a tool than a belief. Like I would use that deattachement, no self when it becomes too much but you wont see me praying to buddah for example

>>40645636
You in a US timezone? If so, I'll do my best to send you my "good dream points" tonight kek. Otherwise whenever it would be night for you, I guess.
Best dream I ever had was me lying down on this forest path, watersliding through the forest. I had my arms and legs crossed like it was a real waterside, gravity didn't apply at all. I went up and down and around corners safely and at a very fun speed. I was laughing and having tons of fun. A hundred times better than ziplining or some such. I woke up with that feeling of having so much fun you laugh and it lasted. Hopefully you get that one.

>>40645704
Sounds cool are you lucid during those moments? Don't think it's smart tho giving my current situation so probably best not, think i'll go meditate a bit and let it all flow. Still down for replies tho or advice will check back later peace

>>40645767
That one wasn't lucid, which made it all the more fun in a way. Just totally organic and cool. Tbh every time I've gone lucid, the dream ends quickly because it all gets too crazy. First ever one was a silly child thing
>getting kidnapped through my bedroom windows
>horrified, no idea what to do
>think "if I had a lightsaber right now, that'd be so helpful. Wish I had one"
>get lightsaber
>save self, dream ends
Silly and childish but effective I guess. Later on in life they've evolved into just ending because it gets so stimulating and interesting that I guess my body wakes up. Went lucid in a dream where I was driving down this big sunny highway and then woke up right away when I started making clouds that dripped swirled rainbow paint splashes all over the ground. Was just too cool and body couldn't be asleep for it.
>tfw too enthusiastic for lucid dreams

>>40644742 (OP)
>I watch others have sex in my dreams

Drug withdrawal, being a pervert or schizophrenia

Or all above

>>40645539
You have a demon(s) attached to you man. You’re attempting to remove the parasite(slug) with methods that you think will work(salt/cure), but it’s only making things worse(the slug reappearing). Slugs and worms tend to symbolize resistance as well as repulsion. You’re becoming a feeding ground for legions of demons to feed off you like a buffet. Please cut out the porn and get off 4chan.

>>40644742 (OP)
Those are called cuckmares, I've had cuckmares before. Sometime they involve me candidly observing a woman being assualted.

> I sometimes will hear voices in head call me bitch/slave, kind of like a devil or so (or reptilian)
>That's just your conscience giving you some tough love, maybe there's a part of you that wantsto drop the victim complex and engage in sexual wet dreams first hand.

>>40644742 (OP)
You fried your brain on coomer metaphysical stuff sucks man
The way back to the original virtue is 10x harder good luck dude
Way easier to destroy harmony in the neural tissue than to rebuild it
All you had to do was not sin in retarded way there's like actual material things happening rewiring spending energy building up stress and toxins, losing healthy behavior and habits that was second nature, subtly degrading spiritual beliefs into negativity it's just a bad deal dawg

captcha AKNKN a kinky nigga

>>40644742 (OP)
>Usually I'm spectating
>some dude I never seen having sex with a pornstar I like
>a pornstar I like

Isn't this just the porn experience without the screen? Lol