>>40661119 (OP) >What do I do if I have the ultimate curse from god?
Impossible, unless you blasphemy the Holy Spirit, in some sense, I think. But even then, there is some escape, I think,
>Will worshiping Satan work?
It doesn't exist, seek the light instead, learn to forgive yourself and others, ask God for forgiveness, work on yourself, be more positive, have more hope.
>>40661119 (OP)
Can relate, everything that could go wrong went wrong.
It really does feel like i am struggling against god himself, the only reason i haven't killed myself is because i refuse to give god this victory, i will live for as long as i can only to spite him, this hate would be enough to justify living forever. I don't care how painful it will be, fuck god, i will bathe in his tears, drink his blood and corrupt his creation beyond recognition.
>>40661236
You sound like a teenager, grow up, learn from what went wrong instead of thinking that God have any strife against you because this is just not true.
>>40661119 (OP)
Step 1: The only curse comes from believing you are cursed
Step 2: Ask God to help you, but you have to mean it. No faking.
Step 3: Realize you were being stupid, but that's ok.
Step 4: Feel better.
>>40661318
You can't you won't, and the best way to do it if you are serious is to kill yourself and thus stop moving because movement itself comes from God.
God is an abusive relationship. He preaches forgiveness and communication, yet when Adam screwed up one time he damned him and his entire family forever to hell. Even after his son sacrificed himself god still refuses to let man back in to eden unless we love him unconditionally, yet refuses to love us unless we pay him. Any time you are broken he does nothing to help, and then whwn your faith faulters and shatters he does not come to you, but instead sends you in to hell for not loving him. God can betray you time and time again, but the moment you walk away he punishes you. How is that a healthy relationship.
>>40661327
You know nothing about God. You know the lies of the Leviathan and his priestly caste the Levites though.
Handing the authority of God over to neurotic control-freak desert jews. For shame. For shame.
God is good.