>>40665472 (OP)I have nothing to gain from lying.
I have had periods of focused practice. A part of the ("spiritual") practice was attempting psychokinesis while "fully awake."
It genuinely worked and got better, but the quality of pk was unstable. It was not a linear progression, just came in spikes. Sometimes nothing happened, other times I could slide balls across rough furniture.
It almost always made my heart and mind run like crazy. The sight of shit moving "IRL" is phenomenal and very scary because immediately you think "what if I give myself an aneurism now" as the object moves in this incredibly fluid and smooth way. Weird thing is, the movement could be directed, but it always felt like an subconscious happening. To sum it up, the state of mind required was expansive, detached and allowing.
I went full schizo periodically and never moved past it. In fact, I have developed some issues. I now hear a piercing high frequency point in my spacious auditory awareness. Mostly sits in my right ear, but I have managed to learn how to consciously move it around and sometimes it just does on its own. I can also fall into very vivid and deep daydreams if I'm not careful. Also, genuinely, feel like an alien. The biggest change has been the cultivation of a more expansive spectrum of "good" and "evil" within myself.
There is other stuff I won't reveal, but it gets weird.