>>40704191Always had the urge as far back as I can remember, got intense in my teens but I went the autism level research and media consumption route to cope.
Started drinking blood when I started dating, came more naturally than making out and I always attracted the kind of people that were down for that.
Was in my late teens when I learned there was an option other than murdering someone, that some people take it more extreme than little jabs and blood drinking. I sort of went on a downward schizo spiral where finding people in this scene consumed my life. I'm more level about it now.
I'm from Texas and cannibalism is shockingly huge here. It's bigger than you'd ever know unless you engaged in the scene, and I'm just in the schizo occulist and fetish crossover, not the criminal or elite run side of it.
Something here makes people into very hardcore occultists and makes people want to devour other people. One of the indigenous tribes in the coastal region were cannibals. There is something about this land that makes people crave it.
Most southern cannibals I have met also dabble in the occult. All of them agree you take part of a persons soul/power if you eat part of them. Most also think someone's soul can never rest if you killed and consumed them.
You may have heard Dahmer talk about this if you research true crime.
I had occultism click into place for me after doing it, like the land accepted me finally. Manifesting got easier, I was always clairvoyant but became more skilled. It was easier to astral project. It all just... clicked.
It was enjoyable, while the focus for me is power I'm not going to pretend there isn't a sexual element. If a cannibal or aspiring one says its not a fetish, they are lying. It is sexual for all who do it.
It did taste good. People say it tastes like pork but to me it was more like veal in texture and a mild beef flavor.