Three years ago, I had a traumatic brain injury. I was knocked unconscious and was in critical condition for a while. I could have died. Since my recovery my life has been COMPLETELY different. Like everything has changed. I'm not gonna bore you with the details (unless you want me to)

Anyways, I'm just wondering if this is like some kind of purgatory. Like, I didn't really wake up in the hospital, no one found me lying on the sidewalk and called an ambulance, and I just fucking died.

I want you to.

>>40696050
yikes, buddy, what'd i ever do to you?

Are you conscious?

>>40696064
well yeah of course i am. we all are

>>40696072
Good enough

>>40696078
that's not a satisfying answer, you can be conscious in the afterlife too

>>40696085
What's the difference

>>40696089
there's a pretty big difference. in one, you died, and in the other you didn't. how can you ignore that even if they feel the same

>>40696042 (OP)
The holder of a first-person perspective can never die in their own world.

>>40696042 (OP)
nothing around you changed,the only thing thats changed is your brain

>>40696105
are you saying i died with respect to the world i was in before i fell?

>>40696107
i did suffer some cranial bleeding. so there's definitely damage. hmmm

>>40696113
You can appear to die from other perspectives, effectively disentangling from other timelines. Only God knows the details of how it all works. But it's all by design.

>>40696157
that's quantum immortality, right? kinda funny if you think about it. every minute we're dying in a new, hilarious way

>>40696167
>quantum immortality
Similar, but God is always guiding the process. The 'randomness' is illusory.

>>40696042 (OP)
Give me the details, what changed after the traumatic brain injury.

From my perspective you should be alive, because I assume I am real and alive and from what all I know about the technology of the internet and making posts on 4chan you must be alive and real aswell, or you could not have been making this post.
So from all I know you must be alive.
(ofc bots exist, but if you would be a bot this whole question would have been meaningless anyway, so lets ignore that possibility)

>>40696346
>details

ok. i tripped and fell on my face. spent two weeks in the hospital. the two months after that were a slow buildup to a full psychotic break that put me in the psych ward for 10 days. then i was moved to a residential treatment center for two years. i live in government-assisted housing now or whatever the fuck they call it. housing for disabled people

>>40696302
there might be a god, but right now i see no reason to believe in one. but there definitely seems to be something beyond us, something we don't understand, like we're in plato's cave

>>40696354
what were you psychotic break about?
so saying "you life has been completely different" was more referring to outward circumstance and not so much about your perception and cognition?

what were you tripping on?
do you regret your trip?

>>40696363
Look into gnosis. Once you know God, everything changes.

>>40696042 (OP)
Same exact thing happened to me after a car wreck in 2019
congratulations, you’ve experienced quantum immortality

>>40696379
i became convinced that the singularity had already happened and all consciousness was code

in other words we're all bots

>>40696387
i'm so tired of people offering vague spiritual bullshit advice. you gotta be more specific if you want me to have any idea what the fuck you're talking about

>>40696423
so your life completely changed too?

>>40696379
>what were you tripping on?
>do you regret your trip?

no i mean i literally tripped while i was walking

>>40696431
hmm I see.
I think I can relate to some extent with the impression that we are all bots.
I know we aren't but I understand and gotten the impression to once.

But I never got the impression of the singularity and code part of your pychotic episode.

>>40696445
oh well. very unfortunate then
hope you will get your life back together soon

>>40696042 (OP)
I was in a car crash and also suspect this is the case. I could also be the digital twin of the original, which lived on. So much of what I encountered and focused on in my life, going back and revisiting, is essentially based on. Physical traits are identical, events are identical, names and dates are similar or identical, gematria matches, my birthday is everywhere. But it's been spread out into pieces and obfuscated a bit, like how the unconscious mind (or a machine) would derive things from a base template and then obfuscate it a bit. Like a hall of mirrors based on your life.

So I suspect often that this is the life review. And it's trying to get me back to the point where I can conceive of and recall my death, so that I will purge all negative aspects and regret and accept reincarnation. Which I will not.

Or we all got jacked into a virtual world, most are bots, and we don't remember what we were doing before we started dreaming. Only that a lot of this place is clearly based on us.

>>40696555
>is essentially based on.
me*

>>40696555
nice trips

did your life also completely change after the car crash? i mean everything about my life changed after my TBI

>>40696433
Jesus Christ

>>40696590
jesus christ taught the golden rule, which i like a lot, but i'm not crazy about anything else he said

>>40696584
Not at first. I fell asleep driving and hit a guard rail going probably 60 MPH. Woke up to see it coming toward me, then there was a sort of skip. Next thing I knew I was in the air, then the car sort of rode the guard rail, came down, rolled several times. I was smashed in the head with a jaw of strawberry jam that spattered everywhere and made the inside look like it was covered with blood and flesh, gash down to the bone in my head, but mostly just jam inside the car. Bruised lungs, seeing stars, etc. My life before that point was like a slow TBI in progress and I already was not functioning all that well and had been tortured endlessly more or less. Many years later I went back and calculated, the crash happened on a Friday the 13th when I was exactly 8888 days old.

That was 2018. Everything did change after that I suppose.

>>40696604
ummm are 8s like magic numbers or somethin

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>>40696619
oh great a schizodoodle. whooptydoo

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>>40696624
>8 + 8 = 16 = 4 squared = 42

is this nigga for real right now

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>>40696631
>88 = HH

heil hitler? why the fuck are you bringing nazi shit into this you cringey incel

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>>40696646
What's wrong with Nazaism? What are you, a fucking Zionist?

>>40696692
i'm not a zionist but i'm not retarded so i don't think the jews run everything from behind the scenes

>>40696716
This post >>40696692 isn't me. However I also don't care about you bizarrely bringing in "muh not sees" just because you saw two H put together. In this weird emotionally baiting way. Major fuck off moment tb,qh, and you're lucky I'm replying at all. And yes, I know both of those posts were probably yours, typical engagement template. Moron.

>>40696769
dude it was literally

>88 = HH

the fuck else would it be

>>40696789
H is the 8th letter. 88 = HH. It's that simple.
Purple is the only color with 88 gematria. Do you also associate Hitler with purple? If something is purple do you think you need to bring up muh not zees?

Get real buddy. Stop being a drooling Pavlovian wind up toy.

>>40696798
ok whatever. so what's the deal with your weird schizo obsession with the number 8.

i mean i think the number 3 is pretty cool but i don't make it my whole personality

>>40696802
>i mean i think the number 3 is pretty cool but i don't make it my whole personality
This doesn't even deserve a reply.

>>40696804
you just replied. get wrecked faggot

>>40696806
Damn, just looked at the clock. For whatever reason your post reminded me I have somewhere to be. "The LORD works in mysterious ways", as they say.

Also, you don't even know what you're saying. Many such cases.

>>40696879
=
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>>40696879
are those numbers supposed to mean something

>>40696923
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mPDLJ1UU2Uk

>>40696042 (OP)
Fifteen years ago I did dmt with some friends. Everyone but me had trips. Only tried it the once. Few months ago I had a borderline schizo revelation that I may be in a dmt high. Now I'm mildly concerned that when I die, I might return to that moment with an entire life lived. It's honestly a nice thought though. It being a dream would explain how people are so fucking stupid and easily manipulated.
So who knows. Maybe your dead and I'm the devil, here to taunt you. Maybe I'm high and you're my subconscious telling me my perception is a lie. It might even be that the world is actually this retarded and we both have to live with that fact.

>>40696973
well i got good news for ya- this is not your dmt trip. if it's anyone's "trip", it's mine. but it's not. as you might image i'm confused and i don't know what's going on

>>40696981
Not him, but actually I'm the main character, so. If anything your post is just to make me think it's not the case, because it knows it can drive me away by crowding a topic to an extent. This is to keep me dreaming so that you don't all go to wherever you do when I stop dreaming. And also because I have some attachment to you anyway, so if you were my recurring (?) dream characters I'm not quite ready to wake up yet.

>>40697280
ugh this is so cringe

>no I'M the only real one!
>no I AM!

>>40697284
Your dumbass response was literally, LITERALLY, embedded into the metacommentary of my post. You are REPEATING my post.

What is wrong with you? Oh right, dream characters. And the "satanic dream editing machine" that modulates my dream is too dumb to load balance across all of you.

Ugh is right.

>>40697293
ok schizo

>>40697316
You need to die. And I don't mean whatever this place is, I mean true death. You need to be gone.

>>40696435
Every single thing abut my life changed in some way; people have different personalities, major media releases came out in wildly different years even some laws like eg which drugs are banned, are all different. Most of it is subtle but some things are WAYYYYYYYY off

>>40697370
well if i'm actually dead i guess i do need to be gone, right? unless this is the norm for everyone?

>>40697416
You've already exhausted my patience. Any superficially and potentially good faith output at this point is ignored.

>>40697425
wow you just can't stop being a faggot can you

>>40697428
Trick question. Real cute.
*flips you the bird*