I want to stop playing the game.

Just turn off the screen.

Your higher self is sitting in a jacuzzi with a video game controller and he wants to see the end

What game, faggot? It's real life. There's no game.
https://youtu.be/I_bRgClfFME?si=87l3DeCgCRZaEpUf

>>40701786 (OP)

>The Bretons: Mongrels or Paragons?
>by Phrastus of Elinhir
>An essay surrounding the ancestral roots of the Bretons

That Men and Mer can interbreed has been known since the first humans began arriving on the shores of Tamriel in the middle of the Merethic Era. However, broad intermingling of Elves and humans only occurred in the far northwest of the continent, giving rise to the race of Men known as the Bretons. Given the history of conflict between humans and the children of Aldmeris elsewhere in Tamriel, how and why did this intermingling occur in High Rock?

The answer lies in the peculiar (for Elves) culture of Clan Direnni, the once-dominant Mer of northwest Tamriel. In contrast to the Ayleids of Cyrodiil, who brutally enslaved any humans they came into contact with, the Direnni simply conquered their local Nedes and then ruled them as a caste of nobility. The aristocratic Elves established a system of feudal vassalage over their human subjects, with rights and privileges that included the "Perquisite of Coition" with any human they desired. Sex with attractive Nedes was considered casual recreation, and Direnni nobles competed to have stables of the most desirable human subjects.

The inevitable Half-Elven offspring from these liaisons were not adopted into the families of their Direnni parents, being considered sub-Mer, but were nonetheless often given privileged positions among the subject Nedes. Over time, this led to the establishment of a recognized caste of mixed-blood humans, who were given the name "Bretons" (from the Ehlnofex "beratu," or "half"). The Breton caste was only allowed to marry humans, so over time their Elven blood became more diluted, and the Nedic appearance predominated...

>>40702539
Though they wielded great power for a time in the First Era, even then the Elves of Clan Direnni were never numerous, and as their geographical hegemony expanded administration and rulership was increasingly handed off to the Breton caste. After defeating the invading Alessian Horde in 1E 482 Clan Direnni was scattered and effectively exhausted. As the Elves retreated to central High Rock, then finally Balfiera Isle, the Bretons stepped easily into their shoes, assuming the feudal hierarchy established by the Direnni and simply replacing them with their own noble families.

The Breton nobles, who had been forced to differentiate themselves from the Direnni part of their heritage, justified their new ascension by distancing themselves from Elves and everything Elven—ironically so, as the Elven blood ran strongest in the older noble families. The Direnni were increasingly vilified by their former vassals, and the island clan became ever more insular and isolationist. However, they were still known as powerful magicians, and they were strong enough to repel an attempted Redguard invasion in 1E 907.

The Bretons continued redefining themselves, inventing a myth of a history of noble resistance to Direnni rule, and developing a thriving merchant class that began trading around the coasts of Tamriel. By the time the Empress Hestra and her legions arrived at Bangkorai Pass in 1E 1029, they were ready to join the Empire of Men and embrace the Eight Divines. Under the Remans, High Rock was possibly the most stable and prosperous province in the Second Empire.

Which brings us back to the (deliberately provocative) question of our title: are the Bretons then mongrels, or paragons? The answer, of course, is both (though if you call a Breton a mongrel, he is liable to feed you an inch or two of steel). The passionate race of Bretons embodies the strengths of both Men and Mer—as well as their flaws.

>>40702574
https://youtu.be/kOzAL-shS1o

>>40701786 (OP)
what is the game? or this fucking bug earth server?

>>40701851
The higher self is tired. Stop with this gaslighting.

I like to develop my faculties and try to somehow develop some higher order perceptive faculty, just for the sake of doing it, but I'm also drawn to a more dissolutive way as well.
I want to create

>>40701786 (OP)

Find oily Josh and convince him to kill himself - he chose to reincarnate as a normal human with no memory of being the Son of God. He lives in San Antonio, Texas. He is the primary observer and the anchor point of reality. He is the Nobody.

If you convince him to kill himself the game will end - it's actually his win condition to selfishly kill himself when he's been programmed from birth to be a Messiah. Like a joke victory in a game, it's a win condition that the developers never expect to see.

This is not a joke - if you want the game to end, the fastest and easiest way is to convince Oily Josh to kill himself instead of holding on for us.

>>40703798
It's funny because Jesus Christ can literally be translated as "Oily Josh"

>>40701786 (OP)
Then start playing the game.
Its the only way to stop.
You're just playing the wrong game by the wrong rules.

>>40701786 (OP)
https://vocaroo.com/1dAIehcVmdof
Here you go. this is how to do it.

ohh god im gonna- im gonna looveee

>>40704225
Yup that's why I wrote that. His name is still Joshua.