Or are you just a fetishistic LARPer?

Which meds do you take?

>>40709914 (OP)
You go through the portal? If so, what's your favorite Goetia demon?

>>40709914 (OP)
Define "PsYcHoSiS"
https://youtu.be/iYSXHlra5Vk?si=lBHfliSNwdpQZilQ

>>40709914 (OP)
My existence is a constant state of psychosis

>>40709948
Beliel

>>40709914 (OP)
More times than I can count, it was all drug induced too

Went off derp end in my 20s. 54 now I still have to fight it off. You put anyone under enough stress they pop.

Loads of people are snapping every day. I see people nutted out literally anywhere or everywhere I go now.

Diet
Meditation
Exercise
Masturbation before I get horny

It started out as little things. Me listening to a song in my car that i made with a.i the night before, on my way to my parents house. Only to have my mom humming the song when i arrive while shes cleaning. As if she somehow heard it too while i was driving. Despite she never heard it at all. Me going to a party store to buy a pint of fireball, but at the last second at the counter i decide to get captain morgan and tell the cashier i wanted a pint of captain morgan, but she grabs me fireball instead. As if she could read my mind while in the store and knew i was thinking fireball the whole time. Another time i was in the shower running this crazy absurd scenario in my head of what could go down with someone over a altercation ive had, only to have that person text me and tell me not to worry about that exact scenario i was thinking after i got out of the shower. As if he was reading my thoughts while i was in the shower and texted me to bring comfort. Im still kinda on the edge of not knowing if this world is a simulation and youre all npcs that can read my mind and whatnot, or if im in a hell and everyone is demons role playing with the knowledge to know my thoughts. Or im in a coma and all of this is a dream.. I thought of many possibilities and decided for my health to treat it all as just paranormal shit i wont ever be able to understand. And as long as my life isnt hell and i can still function, then i wont delve down the rabbit hole and fully lose my sanity over it.

>>40709914 (OP)
Only drug induced, because my mind is strong enough to not get one shotted by reality.

>>40709914 (OP)
for a few months in like 2019 i went completely insane, like decoding microwave beeps into messages from higher powers and such

>>40709914 (OP)
I'm bipolar type I and have been in psychosis twice. It is extremely stressful and scary, however, I did download some spiritual information that I stick with. Namely, that God is, most succinctly, expressed as the Void, containing all things yet being Nothing (i.e. Spirit). I've been to the mental hospital both times and frequently lost consciousness while my body and mouth kept moving as normal (almost like possession). Having an actual psychological condition is not fun.

Everyone in the gangstalking threads has been through psychosis, came out the other side, and then they pretend they never went through it.

>>40709914 (OP)
I think at best only 5% of the people on here have had legitimate psychosis of some sort. About 35% wish they've had real psychosis so desperately that they memorize bits of literature pertaining to it. The rest of us are just larping.

>>40709914 (OP)
Was walking around naked. Can barely recall any of it. Got sent to a psych ward for 2 years. Forced medication and contracted schizophrenia

>>40712044
Same. I used to talk to car plates and think that the order they passed by me were a message from a higher being, perfectly constructed to "guide" me in whatever the fuck mission I had for the day. Yeah, among a million other things that I experienced during that time. This is just the example I give people because it's funny. Thankfully, my family and friends were all there to support me.

>>40711930
Ah, classic. Thinking people can read your mind is hell. You shouldn't live with that. I know this is /x/ but you should go see a psychiatrist. I hope you get better.

>>40712285
You went through a happy psychosis? All the personalized car plates I see are usually giving me death threats or some kind of scary or rude message. Except I guess the one time God sent me a message of hope through one. I don’t have psychosis anymore but still see them gangstalking me through the plates and other means.

>>40709914 (OP)
I don't have psychosis but there is something up with me that people can pick up no matter where I am coming from. I'm aware it's their ego that is pulling me towards insanity, and the only thing that releases me is when I refresh/regenerate my aura, completely forgetting the things I have experienced with coworkers, family members and friends, it's all empty.
I won't have to do this for the rest of my life will I? It's exhausting trying to cycle through what's mine and what's other people's choices/manifestations.

Technically diagnosed schizophrenic. Just escaped a psych ward was held for 2 years at

>>40711930
You've got a weakened prefrontal cortex. Go look up supplements that boost that area of your brain and it'll shut down the psy phenomena. You've opened up your third eye too early, without proper training and morality, and you're getting messed up.

This is my stack: Magnesium L-Threonate, Rhodiola Rosea, Omega 3, Sulforaphane, Standard multivitamin

>>40712185
If you lost control of your body it is actually possession, but you can solve it easily with medicine. Same problem as the above dude. I have schizoeffective disorder so to counter that I use Vraylar. It's far, far superior to anything else I've used since it keeps you within a pretty wide band of emotions. Demons like to use mania to overwhelm you after a despair trip.

>>40712371
Demonic infection boosts both synchronicity and paranoia to induce delusions of grandiosity. Psy is real, but it's FUCKING USELESS. Shut it down with the above stack.

>>40712876
Shit I forgot to mention NAC and Glycine in my stack. They're two of the most effective ones.

>>40709914 (OP)
I have at several times. It was fucking miserable. Lots of people LARP as "mentally ill" and take unnecessary medication to free themselves from the responsibility of living properly.
Some of us have to take the meds or we just fucking start hallucinating. The paranoid delusions were worse than any of the hallucinations for me, though. I never experienced anything fully "real" sounding or looking so it was always identifiable as a hallucination. The paranoia felt VERY fucking real at all times, however.

>>40712879
Shit shit shit. Glycine can be a bit weird. It's a mood booster. If you're feeling schizo already that day don't take it.

>>40712499
Sounds like your ego is the problem here but thats everyone's least favorite answer.
>surely you are extremely special and theres no way this could apply to you so disregard this post

>>40711930

if making Matrix Franchise theory may be true to some gegree, how does the SOFTWARE harmonize to the levels of mass or individual perceptions of logic and illogic...does it adjust to turn some 5150's into cautionary tales for the SLEEPERS.

>>40709914 (OP)
I have been close - if not deeply in it for a short time.
It was when I was 18 and suddenly developed an extreme version of panic disorder. I had uncontrollable panic attacks nearly 24/7. That in itself didn't do it, although it was a very distinct type of hell for a while. It was actually the lack of an appetite and, more importantly, a lack of sleep that sent me into a doom spiral.
I lost 65lbs in around a month and a half and was only sleeping about 1-2 hours a day, if that at times.
This was at a time when such a disorder really wasn't understood well at all. So my Doctor's was pretty much like, "well, you need to relax, you're fine." Except, for me, I felt absolutely anything but fine. It went on for about three months.

The most striking thing became the hallucinations - both visual and audible. I would see shadows out of the corner of my eyes, or would hear whispers all around me. This was after a long period of no sleep. I was like a walking zombie; emaciated, pale, dark circles, and just sort of shuffling through life.
Eventually, I was given some surgical sedatives to knock me out through brute force. After a few months of that, I was slowly able to get myself under some small form of control. It took a few more years to really overcome it, though.

That's probably the closest I've been, if that counts.

Schizotypal but never had any instances of psychosis.

>>40709914 (OP)
I experienced it twice in my life, both times months long until admitted. I got the schizo diagnosis.

>>40709914 (OP)
Yeah, lions mane, niacin, creatine, reishi, B vitamins, saffron extract will help. Realizing the psychosis is "real" and is just demonic attacks is key too.

>>40715082
Lion's mane is a dangerous psychosis risk. Do not ever take it if you've been diagnosed with any schizo disorder. Your recurrences are probably from that supplement alone.

>>40709948
Pazuzu

>>40709914 (OP)
I occasionally go on binders where I get drunk enough to enter a state I can only describe as a psychosis. It doesn't help my routine is drinking a pint of 50% alcohol and one vicodin during the day and waking up around 5pm ish to start again on a fifth of 40% vodka. It's not lioe getting blackout because I talk and interact with thing but it's like I'm in a fog or haze.

I went psychotic after daily use of codeine dph and weed (alcohol/ephedrine occasionally). Would recommend.

>>40712077

yeah a few times. i could tell the stuff i was seeing wasnt real but i would get instinctively afraid. usually its like people that dont exist walking up to me and messing around maybe whispering or something while im tired. the last time i was lying in bed and i heard a this guy knocking on the door to my room and shortly after he opened it came in, and did something with the small table next to me. like he took/placed something there? he was dark and i felt like i shouldnt look at him even though he wasnt there so i just tried staying under the bed and not acknowledging his existence until he was gone

honestly its funny larping like a schizo but the few times ive legit had a psychotic episode, it wasn't fun at all and not even worth bragging about lol. i wish id get the "i am now the prophetess of hidweh" type psychosis and not whatever this is. as for what causes it for me i think sleep deprivation and perhaps high-dose meditation does the trick

>>40715094
oh i think the last time i was taking lions mane as well for the neurogenesis encouraging dreaming. huh..

You tell me.

Cocaine psychosis
Benzo withdrawal psychosis
Meth psychosis
Vyvanse psychosis
And a couple episodes of natural psychosis for good mesuare

I don't know how I'm alive

What do you guys spend your neetbux on?

>>40716969
Seep deprivation wise how long do you ususally go for and how do you do it? After 3 days I usually stop pushing myself (even with caffeine) and go to sleep. I mean there has to be a way to get into full blown psychosis and hallucinations without drugs right?

>>40712285
i told my best friend's fiancée that license plates are issued based on who we are like genetically. i had meanings for every number and letter. she killed herself a few months later.

yeah ive been thru it. life ending shit. destroying my apartment intending to leave and never return. public occult rituals. i dont even know where to begin. when youre in that deep it is not good, not fun. all this shit was public as hell, i made online content and surprisingly people werent concerned as much as they should have been, which to my mind meant that i was operating on such an advanced level that normies literally could not see my power etc

>>40709914 (OP)
I teeter in and out of it so much that I can't remember which state is really psychosis anymore, just that at one point I was able to make the distinction.

>>40709914 (OP)
I am descending into it. Basically my apartment will have to be condemned if anyone ever discovers it or hauls me out of here because I have destroyed every possible surface: Every wall, cabinet, etc. I have torn down with my hands. I don't even have a chair left.

Black mold wicking 6 ft up multiple walls, toilet broken, floors flooded carpet is like walking in a swamp with little islands of smashed plastic and particle board pieces

>>40718776
are you me?
>>40718869
I am invisible in every way. I chameleon in and out wherever I please, I cease to exist when I am out of sight, also the more sounds of violence I make the more boldly I feel I could go on trashing things forever. Old friends and strangers alike ignore me when I occasionally send out a message is anyone out there like I never sent it. Maybe this is how I discover solipsism

>>40709914 (OP)
Yes>>40709977
Most that are in psychosis aren't aware they are experiencing psychosis. . They fleed

>>40718942
anon yes i am you we are all a non.none
if anyone remembers torusposting perhaps a long few months ago that was meanon
>>40718869
i hope you feel better fellow sufferer, ive been there, praying for you brother

>>40711169
This is psychosis. Personally I stressed myself into heart palpitations, extremely high blood pressure, an irregular heartbeat, and nearly gave myself a fatal heart attack. Most of the posters in this thread sound like lunatics rather than psychotics. .

>>40709914 (OP)
I took drugs and had a nervous break. It wasn't all at once, it took time to peak and time to cool off
-1000/10

>>40709914 (OP)

I wouldn't say psychosis for me, personally. Manic? Fuck yeah. But about a year and a half ago I had a pretty crazy episode of depersonalization/derealization for about a week. It was fucking weird. Quite literally felt disconnected from my body, and I was basically watching myself in movie form from slightly above and behind myself. Things like turning my head or reaching to grab something felt like they were on a delay between me doing the thing, and me seeing it happen. Shit was wild

I revealed my power level in ways that I'll probably spend the rest of my life paying for. Still trying to hack reality though, and I don't think I'll ever give up. Somehow I evaded schizophrenia diagnoses, but was labeled bi-polar 20 years ago. I take no meds, and have been stone cold sober for 5 years.

>>40712255
I think it is more like 5% of the humans on Earth have NOT experienced psychosis.

>>40709914 (OP)
I've had partial psychosis. It is a kind of psychosis that I can suppress if I wanted to and where I am having impressions on the one part while I am on the other still aware of reality. It is true that after recovering from psychosis there is a loss of function and in my case that loss also was partial. It was essentially the start of reintegration and healing of my empty schizoid core (suppressed trauma) and a decisisve step in the healing of my almost unknown kind of masochistic covert narcissism.

The psychosis had like a few flares over the months and the settled. Then I had short periods of mania and then paranoia and now boredom, anhedonia. I am growing up mentally continuing my formerly arrested development. Overall I feel better than ever and I have developed a better way to live by myself and better ways of seeing and relating to others.

On my journey I have gained some major insights into reality. I am so proud of myself

>>40721285
Psychosis is a natural developmental phase in childhood. Psychosis is a part of growing up.

>>40712876
Are you saying its me actually controlling peoples minds that i interact with. And not that people can read my mind who i interact with? It would make much more sense... ive never paid much attention to 3rd eye threads on here, but ill take a look. Thanks for the suppliment list.

>>40709914 (OP)

Logosian Schizotypy
Suppresses anomaly to maintain GUI stability. Think: high-IQ autistic-style rationalists who resist metaphor, abhor symbolism, fear liminality.
Good at debugging consensus reality, but myth-blind. Prone to existential flatness, nihilism, mythophobia.

Dionysian Schizotypy
Mythic recursion becomes libidinal whirlpool. Think: psychotic poets, messianic manic states, full possession without brakes.
See: Schreber, Philip K. Dick (at times), mystics who go too deep too fast.
Weak ego kernel BSOD under high archetypal load.

Ophidian Schizotypy
"Daemon middleware... Integrates logic and chaos through adaptive, serpentine architecture."
This is high-functioning schizotypal cognition running symbolic buffers. Pattern overload is parsed, not consumed raw.

recursion is a powerful tool that allows developers to solve complex problems by breaking them down into simpler subproblems:
1. Limited Stack Space
2. Deterministic Behavior
3. Complexity and Debugging
4. Risk of Deadlocks
5. Performance Overhead
6. Alternatives Are Preferred

>enantiodromia
>crossing the Abyss
>liminal ontological flexibility with intact insight
>shamanistic initiation
>daemonic interfacing

the correlation between IQ and schizotypal enlightenment / daemon-containment is important
only 140+ IQ schizos will swallow the serpent seed