Can I get some /x/ life advice?

>>40731889 (OP)
What do you want to know son?

>>40731898
What can I do to live a better life? One without hatred, where I can heal from my trauma and let go of my resentment

I have a lot of "masks" and "personas" and I want to heal so I can find who I was meant to be

>>40731889 (OP)
listen to subliminals. find them on youtube, they will change your life

>>40731916
Time to start reading Jung

>>40731916
>What can I do to live a better life? One without hatred
I embrace it. If you don't, you're prone to getting cucked.

>>40731916
Sacrifice a goat to Satan and the Greys.
Convert to Scientology. Your life will change.

>>40731889 (OP)
Wake up with the sun and go stand barefoot in the morning sunlight

>>40732015
I don't understand the anima thing though, sometimes a Goth girl appears in my dreams and sort of guides me, but sometimes another girl who is more like a rural farm tomboy girl also tries to guide me or give me advice and I don't know if they are different or the same in a different form; which one is my anima?

>>40732063
Also block blue light (if no software option available you can get physical screen filters online) eat more seafood (your omega 3 and 6 intake need to be balanced 1:1) replace led bulbs with incandescent, sunlight is good at any time of day, shirtless in the sun as much as possible. Ground yourself throughout the day as well. Stretch a lot, get to where you can ground with your hands straight legged. Don't stay out too long midday until you get a good tan. Circadian rhythm is the single most important thing for your health.

>>40731889 (OP)
God is good. He likes us a lot. He's like a parent watching his kids play sports from the sidelines. He can't interrupt the game we chose to play.

I know it's fucked up and it's not historically accurate, but Adam fell when Eve fell. You can think of this as a psychological construct within God's mind. We were prototypes in his mind, perfect Adam & Eve, in the Garden of Eden, but we chose to eat the apple.

So, Satan assaults us. Satan assaults us, day and night, as long as we choose it. Because now, we have to choose. There is no automatic protection. We choose to feel bad. Every morning when you wake up, you either fight the darts, the negative thoughts, or you don't.

Fight the darts. Throw them back. Say, "God loves me. He doesn't want me to feel like this." And then, with his surge of blessing, wrest yourself out of bed like Christ out of his tomb.

We can do this. But we have to recognize the demons influencing our thoughts. They have a lot more power to influence our thoughts than we realize. They can't READ our thoughts; but they can read our body language, our facial expressions, the things we say, the people we interact with. See? I love you guys.

>>40731889 (OP)
Neck yourself.

>>40732110
JIDF runt niggers typed this post.

>>40732072
Cuck that's not the question you should be asking if some goth or farm chick shows up in your dreams.

>>40732124
I'm just asking which one is my anima, I think it's important to know that for the individuation process

I know it's just a matter of time before some runt nigger, faggot creep responds to my beautiful and amazing message about Christ. I'm just pre-empting it. And I hope you have a nice response.

>>40731889 (OP)
Do semen retention. After that, everything falls into place.

>>40732108
I think I'm beyond salvation, I want to stop jerking off but the demons keep tormenting me, I'm no longer protected by God

>>40732166
I tried but I keep getting blue balls, I can't even sleep or concentrate enough for study; do you have advice for that?

>>40732178
>I'm no longer protected by God
No, you aren't. Because they're all around you, winning, laughing, feeding off of your energy. But that can be turned around. You can begin to walk your way out of it. Gradually, you can break their arms, and tongues, and legs, and the light will start & begin to shine.

But you can snuff that light out again as soon as you want. That's what you want. Currently. But that can change. So... the epic question. Do you lead yourselves into hell, or resist it?

>>40732190
Yes, firstly, and this is coming from a complete coomer and that acted in degenerate ways that I don't want to specify because I feel ashamed. Firstly, manifest it. You being a coomer is self concept, it is belief. "I am not a coomer anymore, I never was". A few times prior to bed. Then, start meditating, at fist it won't work, because your etheric body is weak, you are possessed and your anima is out of balance. But then it will begin to happen. I don't have urges anymore. This is coming from someone who used to do it 10 times in a day.

>>40731889 (OP)
You’ll never accept someone else loving you for how wonderful you are if you don’t love parts of yourself.

Most people never learned how to truly be emotionally mature. They lack conviction, don't know how to communicate properly and cannot manage their emotions. They also lack common sense. I do blame instant gratification for a lot of things. People are so quick to discard others in this day and age. Just be mindful of this. Teach yourself self-respect, cut out negative people in your life holding you back, and set boundaries.

Just remember, moderation is key as well. Limit weed use, limit internet use, limit junk food. Enjoy and love life but teach yourself to be stronger. Meditate.

>>40732226
I don't know Anon, I think I'm at a crossroads, between enhancing myself or denying myself, I want to commit to the latter completely but apparently I'm unable to go all in, maybe I'm just afraid of losing people if I do

>>40732227
Thank you so much Anon, that's very encouraging. So did you experience pain and blue balls too? How intense was it if that's the case?

>>40732253
I'll respect your response. I think the fact that you care says volumes. The fact that you care? You actually care enough to ask? And to consider things? You wrestle with these things?

That's a big plus in God's mind. You aren't a demon. Demons are already sure they hate humanity, in the worst sense. But you're still trying. That means God will always hold a space for you. He might not let you in Heaven if you're a crazy, unrepentant murderer, but since you aren't (I hope) then that means he will always hold a space for you.

You could be on your deathbed and say, "Sorry" earnestly and he'd accept you into heaven. The problem is, you don't always get that chance.

>>40732243
>You’ll never accept someone else loving you for how wonderful you are if you don’t love parts of yourself.
That's my biggest problem. I have many regrets in life and I think deep down I just don't want to try, I just want to cease to exist. Not die necessarily but just not having existed in the first place if that makes sense

>>40732276
That's a big problem, yes. I'm not a murdered but it's true that sometimes I don't think I have a repentant heart. I want to keep sinning. I just pretend to myself that I don't because I want to believe I'm more virtuous than I am but I would go back to my own vomit and roll on it in an instant

And I know that hurts God and that makes me feel sad and a little bit scared

>>40732262
I used to jerk off when sleeping dude. The urges were horrendous. I could only think about it. I started when I was 12 years old. But I realized that there was more in life than bodily pleasure. That I deserved to be enlightened. Mind you, this is after losing everything. My home, my girl (which I lost because I Could not commit) and my job, all at once. Then I decided that I needed to turn my life around. Not cooming might seem like something that doesn't matter. But it was the only thing I never stopped doing, in good, bad times, etc. It was only logical. SR is freeing you from your bodily attachments, it will make you face your trauma, your fears, you do that because you want to silence yourself. It is self-castration.

>>40731889 (OP)
all 'evil' and all 'good' actions we perform are ultimately done by us,
we convince ourselves of things such as external forces (magic, ghosts, demons, otherwordly creatures), when in fact it's us and the core in one.
we're the ones who divide things in categories such as hair colour, race and ethnicity, it's okay for us to do that, we're human afterall.
i think it's very important to acknowledge certain things and look at other perspectives instead of putting the blame off of yourself, honest sinners until we die.

>>40732314
normie take

>>40732006
Suggest some channels please.

>>40731889 (OP)
Know thyself.

>>40732310
>SR is freeing you from your bodily attachments, it will make you face your trauma
That's exactly like I want. It seems like it's exactly what I need. I want my fears to manifest clearly because I am not able to see things clearly now. Btw from 1 to 10, how bad were your blue balls? In my case it's probably like an 8 or something, I feel so much pressure that I really cannot go past 5 days of semen retention at the moment, the pain is unbearable

>>40732300
>I want to keep sinning
I want to, also. And I haven't swam in vomit but I've scraped and eaten my dinner off the floor when I was drunk because I didn't want to waste it. That represents such a mindset of filth and drunkenness in my life that God saw. He saw me do that shit. And though I'm not a priest...
>I know that hurts God and that makes me feel sad and a little bit scared
I wouldn't worry about this. As soon as you make that shift towards, "I'll try," like I did -- and I'm not perfect -- he shines.

The problem is God is subtle. He gives you little bits of shine, little bits of light and they're nothing compared to the surge of pleasure you get from Satan's devices. I am a sinner just like you are. I look for the same. We love sex, or we love alcohol. We love pride. But we're also smart.

We won't listen to false preachers. We listen to the Word. We know what he says. I think you know what he says and he knows you know what he says. Etc. Etc.

***He's watching in a way that's very personal and he knows your righteous intentions, even if they don't play out.***

>>40732363
You have blue balls because you still peek, you still think about sex, you still edge. If you don't stimulate your brain with sexual thoughts you won't get them. Abandon the subconscious belief that you will lose your sexuality too, it will only improve as you will connect with it in a healthier way. I used to have like 5 of 10 but not anymore.

>>40732072
Both are different aspects of your anima

>>40732367
Thank you Anon. You are right, I guess I am also sinning with pride when I say I am weaker than all of you, it's like I'm saying that I have a pass when in reality I don't. I'm going to meditate and pray, I guess I stumbled upon /x/ for a reason, it's time to embrace the teachings provided here

>>40732363
And do shadow work, balance your anima and your aenima. Do different stuff to what you are doing. SR is a great way to get out of your comfort zone. But be careful. Weird stuff starts to happen. SR is the most paranormal activity you can do. It it the first step to turning your life around.

>>40732390
That's true, I keep browsing NSFW boards and it makes me have a more difficult time resisting the urges. I guess I really need to meditate in order to have a better control of my thoughts. You also mentioned my anima being unbalanced, how did you balance yours?

Btw if you have any other advice for the semen retention journey would be really appreciated, literally anything you would consider useful

>>40732414
What was your experience like? What did you have to face?

>>40732427
>>40732434
Just read about it and do the exercises. I am by no means over all the issues. Recently a lot of bad stuff happened and it is because I neglected many parts of my life. See the following. Why do you need to coom all the time? What is the reasoning. You are trying to substitute the real thing? It has the same effects as drugs. You numb yourself because you don't want to face reality. Personally I needed to understand that my father abandonment was not my fault. That the lost relationships and business ventures I failed at were because I didn't actually want to be happy. Deep down inside I dreaded having a normal life, because having a loving partner means sacrificing my "freedom", means having to take care of someone, means being emotionally available, means changing, going out of my comfort zone, means being vulnerable. And I was afraid to do so. I didn't want to be abandoned all over again. Sorry if this is too personal. But there is a basis for addiction. It never comes out of the blue, it is always trying to mask something else, in my case, the urges came when I was stressed. I couldn't handle stress. SR is possitive for you in a number of ways, even though, my problem is anger. But there is tremendous sadness trying to come out. My anima wanted to cry, to feel loved, to be taken care of, my aenima pushed me to build muscles, to learn how to fight, to be assertive and aggressive. It dominated my reality but deep down inside I was afraid of being loved and not knowing what to do. Paradoxically, by acting that way I made my fears come true, losing the vast amount of amazing women who have loved me. You need to face your own demons, your shadow. SR will lead you in ways you don't understand. At least yet. You will be yourself once again. But don't be afraid of crying sometimes, or being angry. Or telling your friends and family you love them. Because those bottled feelings are going to come out. And they will come out strong.

>>40732475
Thank you Anon, from the bottom of my heart, thank you. I relate with pretty much all of what you have stated and I'm really sorry you had to go through all of that but I'm also impressed by your courage and strength. It's not easy to see all that pain and trauma coming to the surface without turning and running away towards addiction again. It just have been scary but you managed to go through the other side. You gave me the motivation, I will embark on this journey starting from today. I want to face my trauma and despair without running way, and semen retention is the way

>>40731916
Be honest with yourself.
Be honest about what you want out of life
Be realistic about how you aim to achieve it
Be true to how you can help others while helping yourself
Realize everyone else here is here for the same essential reasons you are, despute their various answers to life
Make the choices that will best aid you in walking the path with others to build something greater than any of us.

>>40732512
Thank you. I needed to read that. A year from now you will not recognize who you are today.

>>40732518
I think I just want a simple and quiet life in a rural area, hopefully with a wife and kids one day

>>40732522
I'm really thankful to you, thank you for the inspiration. I'm done running away from myself

>>40732558
You already did. But be careful and please, if you relapse, don't beat yourself over it, you are human and deserve compassion. Do your mental diet. Manifest it. Do whatever you can, robotic affirmations "I am not this person anymore. I never was". Your subconscious is listening all the time.

>>40732558
By coming into terms with it, by acknowledging that you want more, you already have started. You have already done more than 99% of the population. You are awake. Take the gifts that will be given to you now with humility my brother. You don't know what can happen, because nothing is impossible.

>>40732568
>>40732595
That's true. Back when I was a little kid I really wasn't such a pervert, I had a crush on a girl but it was in a pure way, but trauma after trauma I started to get more and more broken. I will pray for healing, that's what I need more than anything else

>>40732619
Pray (talk to god) and meditate (listen to god). Yeah you will be that little kid all over again. You will also have a desire to help people in need. I tell you, you won't recognize yourself.

>>40732619
And careful though. We all live in one energetic/collective consciousness. People will reach out to you. And sometimes, they will be figments of your past, trying to lure you in. If you believe in the more esoteric concepts such as the etheric body. Metaphysical entities can feed from your suffering. Sometimes these entities come in human form.

>>40732630
>>40732646
What can I do in order to defend myself from those entities? I think I am demonically oppressed (at least). Is there a way to become stronger than them?

>>40732662
Just abstain from you know what. It is a portal for demonic activity. Be mindful of the people who want to enter (or re enter) your life. Succubus is a symbol for real people who want to destroy who you are. I have an anecdote about that. Some years ago I dated a girl who, in retrospect, was a malignant narcissist. Came and went out of my life (like my father did) and made me miserable. We fought, she came back. I accepted her. In one conversation she told me "If I could, I would absorb all your talent into myself like a vampire". Can you imagine saying that to somebody? That is absolutely demonic. People, toxic women are like vampires who can destroy you. Just be mindful.

>>40732662
Become stronger than them?
You already are stronger than them, you're actively giving away your power and sovereignty to them.

>>40732708
Oh, yeah, I get what you mean. Like your good energy attracts emotional vampires like moth to a flame. I saw that with a friend recently. He is very artistic and kind hearted and there was some clearly damaged girl who was into him and yep, she just used him and when he got attached she pulled away, some people are definitely oppressed by demonic entities and lost control of themselves

>>40732711
Good point. Whenever I jerk off to my imagination sometimes I think that I'm getting tricked by a demon to give away my energy

>>40732407
Thanks too. Nothing I said was gospel. But I open my bible sometimes (the second half, the new testament) and I like what I see. We'll get thru this. Oh yeah, we will.

>>40732745
They are everywhere. And when you vibrate with high energy you attract them more

>>40732814
>>40732817
I will take your guy's advice because we are indeed in a spiritual war. I wonder if I was guided here, I mean to /x/ sometimes I feel like it was a coincidence but now I'm feeling that maybe I was meant to find this place?

>>40732837
Yes. You made the first image as a guidepost. These guys are all gathering in here, now. We'll take this as a win.

>>40732837
I don’t think coincidences exist

>>40732278
God bless you anon..

>>40732853
>>40732861
Thank you Anons, I hope we can stay here together and grow as people, maybe one day we could leave the pain behind

I think I want to stay here in /x/ it's comfy and you guys are great people

>>40732880
Do you have discord anon???

>>40732919
I do, I don't use it often but I go there sometimes:

panda_the_bamboo

>>40732943
Im gonna add you tomorrow take care

>>40732951
Thank you Anon, lovely talking to you, God bless you

>>40732880
>I hope we can stay here together and grow as people
We always will. We'll do what the devil doesn't

>>40731916
Lower your expectations

>>40731889 (OP)
Don't look into dream theory, it will make you crazy
Jesus is the way, the truth, and the life.

>>40731889 (OP)
Always wear a condom. Don't stick your dick in crazy. Never be yourself, nobody likes it. We all want to fuck the opposite gender of our family. Traps are gay.

>>40731889 (OP)
if you want something deeply enough, you'll get it eventually

>Sorry to highjack the thread
My dad is about to die due to old age and I was wondering if there is anything you will feel after youre dead, I pictured becoming just a part of nothing and it felt kinda scary

I hope there is something else but probably not as life has showed me all these years how shit things really are

>>40734647
I'm sorry to hear that Anon. No one knows what comes after death but make sure to spend as much time by his side as you can and also, don't leave anything left unsaid, tell him what's in your heart. Even if there's nothing more than this life, your dad will live through you in your memories. Let his memory be part of your life, make both of you proud by moving forward and do your best to make this a better place, and if you have kids, tell them about their grandpa, that way his memory will still be alive

>>40732108
>Just be happy even though God is not protecting you and every day is a waking nightmare of deteriorating flesh and dwindling resources
>He wants you to be happy despite all the physical pain and mental anguish he is putting you through
>It's YOUR fault your genetics are shit and your brain is inferior

I want people like you genocided to extinction for perpetuating this sick bullshit.

>>40731889 (OP)

>>40731889 (OP)
Nothing matters and everything is outside your control. Try to gain utilize minimalism and the branches of cynicism to live as long as you can and enjoy life as much as you can. You might reincarnate as a worm or go to hell. Enjoy this.

>>40731916
>how do I stop hating?
You do not. You simply find better things to spend your Hate on.
>heal from trauma
You simply do something else. Do not sit there and wallow. Action is your "healing". The real answer is that you do not "heal" mental wounds. They are memories of times of heightened emotion because of something that happened to you. Examine the memory. Find out why you're upset about it. Learn the lesson it's meant to give you.
>resentment
Why should you not resent something or someone? If you've made an enemy, do not suddenly start sucking their dick. That will court more trouble. Many people work mentally opposite to you; if they can increase their standing, regardless of who it hurts, they pursue that path. It's never worth it to avoid standing your ground. You should absolutely resent some things out there, some people. Acting like you're better than that is retarded. Get over being so better-than-human.
>I act different sometimes.
Why should you not? If you're just a robot, no one will trust you, you'll get worn out easily and more could go wrong.
>who I was meant to be
You aren't "meant to be" someone other than what you're doing right now. What's happening is a process most people go through. If you really need a big boost and you're in a really bad spot, read No More Mr. Nice Guy. You sound like the kind of guy who the book would benefit.
>What can I do to live a better life?
Be more assertive. Be willing to compromise less. Focus harder on what you enjoy and stop letting people you don't respect (and especially don't like) distract you.

>>40732136
Anon, anon is telling you that this is a stupid question to begin with. "Which would should I fall in love with?!" is how this sounds. Both of them are coming to you in your dreams, man. Fuck them both.
Now, to actually answer the question, the obvious answer is clearly both. Both of them are your anima, dummy.
Now literally fuck them both. Thank me later.
>i-in real life too?
Sure, why not?

>>40732227
>>40732190
To be very clear, there's an alternative direction here. Anon is leading you to muh self-mortification and muh get le siddhis. I think a much different route is better and I see why Shakyamuni also gave up on it.
I heavily suggest instead looking up Tantric Theravada, the Valentinian obsession with muh bridegroom chamber and what happened to modern Gnosticism, Jung's Shadow Work, the Alchemical tradition of the prince, princess and Dragon, muh period blood and semen, or, hell, even le LOA's Mental Alchemy if you need the training wheels. They're all mirrors of the same practice. First, I suggest learning about Sophia-Shakti. You don't need to be Jesus-Shiva and all, but you do need to grasp what the Christian and Shaiva Mysteries were about. Next, it's up to you to form the connection in various ways, use the themes, understand them and generally immerse yourself in them. Make time for "her" daily. Dream about her. Sing to her if you need to. Draw via her inspiration. Make some music. Grow some flowers for her. I don't know what your thing is, but do it. "She"'ll start making you firmly aware of her presence. How you proceed is up to you. You can take her around town and show her off if you want to, brag about her to all your friends or train her to perform activities on your behalf - sort of like how you make your wife do the laundry.
Anons think the only path is the monkish orthodox path. They think rejecting the Feminine is the solution. I'm really not a fan and think they're gravely mistaken. There's a whole other direction you can go in and it's what all of the more serious spiritual participants have been up to this whole time, based on what I can see.
To really understand is to change your life completely. The best part is, you get to embrace Humanity, live a more fulfilling life and finally find more ways to enjoy women. I think if you combine this with >>40738718, you'll feel a lot better, anon.

>>40731889 (OP)
>life advice

>>40731916
By focusing on the shadows aspects
>Masculine: anger, vengeance, war
>Feminine: devouring, passive, apathetic
you invite the shadow to consume you. You need to face the shadow and learn that it's a part of you, and learn to understand the divine aspects of both the masculine and feminine within you.
Invert your thinking and integrate your whole self instead of trying to exile half.

>>40738701
You are on the vagrant to tyrant pipeline right now. The destination is almost the same as the origin.

>>40738916
Most of us grew up steeped in demoralization propaganda, anon. I agree you shouldn't become a "tyrant". But you unquestionably need to be more assertive if you're not happy about your life and its trajectory. I also highly suggest giving up on people you don't respect and not forcing yourself to treat them with respect. It's perfectly okay to be an asshole, to "disrespect" someone and to be unwilling to compromise. It doesn't make you a tyrant. It makes you an adult.

>>40738846
Avoid retards? Good shout. Thanks buddy.

>>40731889 (OP)

Nice image OP. I hope you and your loved ones are well. Good luck and stay safe and happy my friend.

>>40731889 (OP)
dry fast