Thread 40867438

when i was a teenager i began taking a lot of dxm. i just wanted to die so i didn't care that it made me start "losing my mind"
after tripping regularly for a few months i felt like reality's veil was much thinner. you know when you put a magnet under a table, and you can move another magnet around with it? it felt like reality was that. i read about maya in vedic philosophy later and it lined up a lot.
it made me put everything together, theories i had as a kid, that consciousness was an all-permeating substrate beneath or above reality, bleeding in like an ocean bleeds into tributary rivers. our discriminate consciousnesses are elaborated by physical conditions into individual qualia. it's all adulterating a monad. in death the tributary collapses and the physical conditions no longer support that elaboration.
theres infinite possibilities for what "comes next", or what lies beneath, beyond sensory experience. i felt like there could be gods angels or demons below them, but they're impossible to discern. an irrelevant insignificant facet of our physical reality could be a correlate of these entities, not any of the flashy showy things we find becoming of gods, those are social constructs.
where do i go from here?

i wanna get out of reality too. its a bunch of bullshit and lack and nauseating imperfection.

>>40867448
inmendham

isn't it funny how i immediately recognize who you are?

>>40867438 (OP)
>where do i go from here?
You don't go anywhere because you're the screen not the movie. The movie is fiction, nothing is true, only the present moment without the movie playing is true.

i think severe cranial trauma probably can make it stop but I'm too chicken to actually do that. also there's the whole
>and then you wake up on a movie set
thing that might happen afterwards which would be awful

>>40867438 (OP)
>consciousness was an all-permeating substrate beneath or above reality, bleeding in like an ocean bleeds into tributary rivers
nah mate that's a psyop of some kind, probably jewish invention

>>40868644
>being so dopamine-deprived that even the thought of baiting some poor schizo keeps you going

>>40868680
Yeah but we're still here for a while so be the director

>>40867438 (OP)
nah, after tripping regularly, you built up a good tolerance and fried your brain cells. it's obvious after reading your nonsensical gibberish

>>40867438 (OP)
powder is amazing. it gave me super powers(controlling electric fields). cough syrup is just nasty.

>>40868680
i'm not the screen. physical elaboration of my consciousness is the screen. the irreducible element of this experience is the spectator. once there is no screen where does the spectator go?

>>40867438 (OP)
Dude. Personally, my thing is deliriants like datura, nightshade, diphenhydramine (Benadryl)... you get the idea. Now don't get me wrong, I like psychedelics. I like the kaleidoscope effects and calm feelings that raise from them. But why would you settle on altering reality when you can replace it entirely? With deliriants you can lose track of time in the same way as you might with say, DMT, with the added effect of not being lucid. What I mean by this is on psychedelics, you're mostly aware of being on a drug. But on a deliriant, you truly believe that you're in an alternate version of reality. Words become indecipherable jumbles of symbols on screens of blinding light. Spiders and scorpions chill out in the corner of your vision. You have these really great, introspective conversations with people that don't exist... Sure, deliriants aren't for everyone, but they hold a special place in my heart. Just be mindful of your dosages because fucking that up can tend to kill you if you aren't careful. But other than that, I have zero complaints. :)

>>40873444
i did dph and dxm together actually. i really liked it but i don't want permanent brain damage.