>>40871550
Unfortunately, I've had that exact thing happen to me. They love to do multiple vectors at once. One being the 'you are Jesus' angle, so that you justify the abuse as a purported test from 'god'. Its what essentially made me abandon religion in general, since the whole experience felt wrong on so many levels, an elaborate humiliation ritual. I believe the intention was to have me crawl back to the church in fear of demons, when in fact the demons made these institutions in the first place.
Since its inception, religion has more or less been to outsource worship to a hostile external entity, instead of honoring the god within. As well as to stifle any rebellion since 'vengeance belongs to the lord', not knowing their 'lord' is both god and the devil of this world.
And when I was under attack, your instinct that has been ingrained growing up in the church is to pray, but that only made it worse; essentially feeding these charlatans your suffering. Unfortunately, Christianity glamorizes destitution, poverty, and being in a state of complete lack, for the distant reward of a heaven that will never materialize. I came to the conclusion that Jesus was just another false prophet of the Matrix and would lead you astray.
The work you need to put in to escape this place cannot be put on him as a get out of jail free card; you will only return here once more none the wiser upon reincarnation. Gnosis is the only way out. This is where the subject is kinda tricky, because in the Nag Hammadi scriptures, it very clearly outlines what is going on, but the modern Jesus of blood sacrifice that the church established is not the same Jesus that taught that you are gods.
Whether we were given half truths to further lead us into confusion, I cannot say, but praying to this 'Jesus' egregore is bad news. I do recall in books, Jesus saying something akin to not wanting to be worshipped and that only his father was good. So that begs the question, what are we praying to?
