Thread 40886861

I feel like I've ascended, anons
But to admit that would drop me back down to non-ascendance, back to Square 1

Even making this post and acknowledging it brings me back down to the reality of it all

Is this all there is to life? We destroy ourselves, build ourselves back up, and destroy ourselves again?

>>40886861 (OP)
>I feel like I've ascended
whats it feel like?

>>40886866
I see beyond the flesh, beyond the shallowness of it all, I see that nothing matters and yet everything matters all at once

The Divine flows within me, as do the blood of my ancestors
I am both Man and Beast, I am capable of grace and civility, and murder and barbarity

I have grasped it all, yet typing all this out, trying to explain it - I can feel it flowing out within my grasp
Back to reality, anon

I feel the same sometimes.
I have intense realizations and states of being, but you have to exist outside of yourself to truly be yourself. The moment you acknowledge it, you've lost it.
I feel the same way every time I have real breakthroughs. The moment I try to say something about them, they slip out of my grasp and sometimes they're even lost forever.
Even writing this, it feels like I've lost something that I had before.
And yeah, man and beast. Bigu, renunciation of the five grains also known as civilization. The last humans will go back into the woods.

>>40886861 (OP)
Mmmm yep.

>>40886875
3deep5me. This reads like a tween in the throws of angst who believes he's hot shit for realizing something about life that the majority of people have realized by about 15 at the latest

>>40886861 (OP)
Wonder if he really types that out without pissing himself everytime he remembers his fellow rats getting doused with napalm, hahah.

>>40886861 (OP)
I am more ascended and I shit rainbows