>>40913130 (OP)
when I was ok with dying. I know it is super dramatic and edgy to say I wish I would've died in afghanistan, but life in the world as it is, and the direction it is going, it not the sort of place I want to live, nor raise a family.
this place is just temporary. we are, as far as I am aware, eternal. not immortal, but eternal. we may or may not have some sort of fundamental element to which our soul/consciousness/spirit/intangible is made of, but equally it is just as reasonable that some physical particle in our body is the source of all our actions and thoughts, and when it eventually finds its way into a bacteria during my death and decay, eventually it ends up in a worm, then upward back along the food chain. same me, same soul, just drifting in the vast endless infinite space and infinite time. even if the space we are contained in now, the universe, is finite, it is likely that we will eventually get out of this finite place. it is just as likely that we have existed eternally before this life, and eternally after. whatever happens here is just a tiny fraction of the totality of experiences we have already had, and will have eventually. where do the memories and experiences go? I don't know. either way, I am here for another 40 years to watch all the people I never liked get what is coming to them, and all the people I always liked get what is coming to them. if I am lucky, I will get to see this planet self destruct after it collapses under its own weight and falls into the cesspool of its own filth.
we are probably stuck here in and around earth for the next few billion years until the sun explodes and flings our hypothetical little material soul particles out into space where we begin the next phase and form of life, among the cosmos in the void. thats a long time from now, so don't get too excited about anything here.
