I realise now that I have been demonised
To preface this: I am a demonic person and a human form of the devil I was raised not to like the devil in the slightest and now I have become one, this is all in my control and it is called narcissism and mental machiavellianism dark triad evil choice.
I am a very fortunate and privileged person. My choices are a kick int he face to those who don't have my privilege. I live in the first world, I am white, I am straight, my IQ is in the 90's I have a mum and dad and an estranged father who has left me alone over half my life so I haven't had to deal with him, gone to public and private schools, numerous other privileges, not handsome not ugly privilege, height privilege, good family privilege.
I read reddit and see so many folks who have it shit in many ways, it used to make me feel grateful, then I felt lesser for not having suffered, and now I realise how I am the reason they suffer, as Tate says, "In order for their to be winners there has to be losers (in this case those who have been downtrodden by the impact of privileged people existing like myself). I worked out that it's a vibrational thing, my privilege impacts other epeoples lives and I take their privilege from them and grow more and more closetedly narcissistic and psychopathic in the shadows, I am like a dark mass being fed by the suffering of others. I can remember the moment God told me (as a thought in my head) that I was a narcissist and I can remember when I realised that my privilege is strong and apparent that everywhre I go people suffer and my personality becomes more narcissistic and psytchopathic inside. I have to be stopped and enslaved, I can't mention it to my therpaist but I would like to talk about it here? THank you
I am a very fortunate and privileged person. My choices are a kick int he face to those who don't have my privilege. I live in the first world, I am white, I am straight, my IQ is in the 90's I have a mum and dad and an estranged father who has left me alone over half my life so I haven't had to deal with him, gone to public and private schools, numerous other privileges, not handsome not ugly privilege, height privilege, good family privilege.
I read reddit and see so many folks who have it shit in many ways, it used to make me feel grateful, then I felt lesser for not having suffered, and now I realise how I am the reason they suffer, as Tate says, "In order for their to be winners there has to be losers (in this case those who have been downtrodden by the impact of privileged people existing like myself). I worked out that it's a vibrational thing, my privilege impacts other epeoples lives and I take their privilege from them and grow more and more closetedly narcissistic and psychopathic in the shadows, I am like a dark mass being fed by the suffering of others. I can remember the moment God told me (as a thought in my head) that I was a narcissist and I can remember when I realised that my privilege is strong and apparent that everywhre I go people suffer and my personality becomes more narcissistic and psytchopathic inside. I have to be stopped and enslaved, I can't mention it to my therpaist but I would like to talk about it here? THank you
