>>40959784 (OP)
You could think about looking into other sects, or even another religion altogether if you can't accept the repentance spiel. Deciding to bring something new into your life without worrying much over the Christcuck's "Step on a Crack, Break your Mother's back!" tier threats takes courage! You don't need Repentance, all you need is Awareness. Since one similar option has already been given, consider Neo-Paganism and/or Wicca. You don't have to try to pronounce 7-syllable Hindu words.
>The Advantages of Paganism:
>* No salesman will call! *
You won't be drawn into the Heresy Wars.
You won't have wet-behind-the-ears puling infants asking if you're Born Again in church.
You won't need Faith because the gods ARE. They're both supernatural and rooted in the natural world.
You won't have to obsess about sin.
Paganism and Shamanism go back 7,000 to 20,000 years.
It's more rational than Xtianity.
You can explore religion without having someone in a funny hat and robes or a Preacher Suit and reversed collar telling you what it is and what you must believe, or not believe.
You can re-link yourself to Nature (Religion means 'Relinking').
Mythology is actually all about you.
Your actions speak louder than your words.
https://oyc.yale.edu/religious-studies/rlst-145 #2 explains the differences between the Israelites and the Pagan cultures around them. It's a free full-semester class.
https://oyc.yale.edu/religious-studies/rlst-152 explains where the NT came from, how the books were selected, and what the various Christianities (yes, plural) believed in the early church.
"The Five Stages of Greek Religion" by Murray, and its appendix, "On the Gods and the World" by Sallustius.
"Drawing Down the Moon" by Margot Adler (Early Modern Paganism)
"The Hero of 1000 Faces" Joseph Campbell -- Anything by Campbell!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZECezMYug8c Pagan origins of YHWH
https://holybooks.com, or www.sacred-texts.com
BB and NT!
