Thread 40966589

The lockdowns (2020) combined with discovering /pol/ as well as other alternative outlets and learning the truth has crippled me.

Always was an outcast but when I finished high school and went down the self-improvement road I had a plan and hope for the future. I spent 2 days in college before the lockdowns began and both men and women swarmed to me.
Weight loss, strenuous exercise, grunt jobs, martial arts, cold showers and austerity beyond normal, all self-imposed for years combined with surrogate and academic education on all practical subjects was my path to becoming what can only be referred to as Nietzsche's Overman.

But my will has been exhausted. The veil has been lifted. Reached the conclusion that I am a tax-cattle serf in prison nation where everything human and masculine is either illegal or prohibitely expensive. I can't hunt, I can't own firearms, I can't drive a motorcycle at full speed. Can't be a man. My only options are to drink, smoke, do drugs and gamble. If you keep up on global events you can see everything and everyone has gradually become gayer and more retarded and insane. Consequently I have become more alienated and ostracized.

I'm fine with being alone. Fine with nobody remembering or caring about any important conversation. I'm fine with life being cruel and unfair. I'm fine with at 24 never having had a social circle, a woman, real friendship, or any other milestone. I said it'd get better. It's fine. Life doesn't guarantee "Happiness".

>>40966589 (OP)
You're confusing LARPing with masculinity. Stop watching Andrew Tate. Also 24 is baby age. You have a whole life, stop your whining

>>40966589 (OP)
>I want to be a manly man hurr durr
>life is so unfair I'm literally shaking
you're doing it wrong

>>40966615
Bit harsh but not wrong either.
Only want to send home the fact that 24 is still quite young, you'll have a clearer sense of self around your late 20's/early 30's. My mid 20's was a special kind of hell. I won't go into detail as there's no point other than I got out of it.
I hope things look up for you ^///^

Peace and Love <3

If you want advice, its to do things in such a moderation as to not make yourself the main character. Main characters are always killed in action. The spectrum of being useful and unless all for the sake of one's survival, staked at whichever suits death at the time, you must flow like water and accept the relentless all consuming force of the universe that within this existence you are merely nothing, a thing to be disregarded in the ultimate purge of all concepts and clusterfucked societal parameters. The least you could do is sponsor others into your network of learned principles and cultivate your virtues in such a way they are adopted by others, as you would have taken under your wing, apprentices and followers, such as death takes all things. In the great wrath of the end times you will have made of your own fate to stand against droves of repetitive monotony, this might suffice in seperating yourself from the dirge of death and transcend into immortality, at least for a time, before you are once against the ademption of the collective sins of the savior to be judged. And when you are cast from proverbial heaven you should fall with a semblance of grace knowing that even gods must face death.

>>40966615
>whole life
>in the year of our lord satan 6026
jfl, covid and those small erupting wars are just the beginning. i dont have a positive outlook about the next 4 years at all, its going to be pretty bleak. i hope u fags enjoy being decimated and poisoned both in direct war and global biological warfare

>>40966675
It's always like this. It's called fear-mongering. Come on now, you're on /x/, this is basic shit. Don't fall for the most basic psyop imaginable. Stop following the news for a while, you won't miss anything

I'm tired too.

Don't you realize civilization was made because people like drinking, smoking, drugs, and fucking more than having to worry about food?

All we need to do now is lower the rent

>>40966686
it isnt always like this. there has never been a 'covid' before, not that there hasnt been devastating diseases and pandemics before, but covid is man made, it was made for fine tuning and gain of function purposes, theres a racial and warfare factor to it and as usual they didnt deny it, they never deny such on the fact things like this. thats a short glimpse on the even more multifactorial hell on earth that they are going to launch against us. good luck with larping about two weeks things or just touch grass or just be stoic or some shit. its easy to say that shit, but no when u re fucking dying for no reason other than some powerful retards saying so

>>40966589 (OP)
Im 25 and I feel you.
I'm one year older and I did the self improvement meme.

Life was good in 2021, 2022, 2023 and 2024.

2025 is hell.
I also found out many fucked up truths like you.

Only way forward is to depend on good woman.

Not women who date illegals.
Not women who date drug dealers.
Not women who date criminals.
Not women who choose to get beat up by men.
Not women who have onlyfans.

>>40966711
>discover /pol/
>despair
Many such cases. Still don't think it's propaganda? Even if some of it is true, that place is the most cursed and shilled place on the whole web, do your mental health a favor and stay away

>>40966711
>[redacted]
You could always take the holy ghost pill.
1. Get the world to team up against Britain.
2. Learn to create "heaven" in the shared imagination of you and those around you (internet counts)
3. Blame thw holy ghost.
4.???
5.Paradise

>>40966589 (OP)

contribute your thoughtform for Godform

read this and manifest it

>>40966307

>>40966756
*the

>>40966589 (OP)
If you want to be a man, a real man, follow Christ Jesus, the perfect man, of perfect courage and bravery - who told the rulers of the time they're all hypocrites and liars, which they were and remain so, even to this day.

Jesus detests fearful men, OP. Lord help me be fearless too. Now is the time anons! "Get up! Pick up your mat and walk."

Revelation 21:8
>But the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kt4rWLVAW5g

>>40966589 (OP)
>I can't hunt, I can't own firearms, I can't drive a motorcycle at full speed. Can't be a man. My only options are to drink, smoke, do drugs and gamble

explain this to me, are you a non-American? If so, why can't you own a gun? You mention that you can do drugs, but surely drugs, the good ones at least, are illegal in your own country as well, no?

Anyway...at least you took the self improvement pill. By the time I got redpilled on a lot of stuff, I realized I was the tax cattle serf and I never got better. I just got worse.

I feel sorry that you don't have a social life or had a gf, I'm 10 years older than you, and even though I was always kinda weird I always had a good group of friends, and somehow managed to get laid and get gfs sometimes.

Anyway, I wish I had advice but I don't. I'm currently alone at 34 and haven't had a gf in 5 years. I haven't had sex in over a year. And I haven't had enjoyable sex with someone I was truly attracted to in nearly half a decade. I spend most of my weekends now high on coke while gooning to pornography. I'll be up for 36-48 hours at a time. The comedowns are horrific especially since I lost my work from home job last year and I work a 10 hour blue collar shift now.

But you have a huge advantage over me. You're only 24. You are still legitimately young. 24 was when I got red pilled, but it pretty much broke me. You have 10 years to work hard to fix your shit so you don't end up where I'm at. Good luck

>>40966749
>Only way forward is to depend on good woman.
All the good looking women who would make great wives and mothers are taken in high school and college the latest. Whatever remains is taken shortly after they enter the workforce. There exist very few good looking (7 and above) women that are single and have a good heart, are modest, raised in a decent family, soft spoken and pretty. The window of opportunity when they are single is very very narrow. These are the 2% of women, the highest stock of females this wonderful creation can offer. If you don't frequent their circles or the events they attend you have no chance of meeting them. Women also don't go anywhere alone, so whatever hobbies women have or events they attend it is done with their husband or boyfriend and if they are single with their groups of friends.

tldr; there simply aren't enough single good looking young white women to go around for everybody, they are rare and exist mostly in very niche places where men without social circles (loners) can't get in to

>>40966827
This is demoralisation, made to make people who read it feel despair and hopelessness; just so you know anon, these are the traits satan loves in a human, because that person becomes maliable and more vulnerable to suggestion.

If you want a loving wife, then ask God - in whom ALL things are possible - to provide for you.

But if you don't know who God is, then you need to start a real, loving relationship with Jesus Christ first.

>>40966589 (OP)
Some people go from red pill to black pill doomerism, I guess. Firearm ownership and hunting are legal where I’m at, and I enjoy them both. But I honestly wouldn’t break apart if I could never do either ever again. I’d just find something else to do that isn’t drinking, smoking, doping or being a faggot. I also don’t understand your gripe about not being to ride a motorbike at full speed. It seems to me like you’re mixing some legitimate existential issues with unnecessary whinging, together with dashes of subtle humble-bragging and narcissism. If embodying Nietzsche’s Übermensch was your life project some years ago, you obviously failed the amor fati aspect of it. Maybe some supplementary reading in stoicism would’ve tempered you some. But I do wish you well and hope you recover from this illusory non-obstacle.

Stop being a fag. You're 24. Your demographic got particularly fucked but grifters and emotional baits are no avenue.

You've learned there is no key, there is no alchemical secret, enlightenment is just 'Oh, ok...', you now have the path of enjoying life devoid of jumping the hoops or hitting the 'goals', the last echos and whispers of the boomer lifestyle are ringing in your ears.

Masculinity is queer, don't fall victim to fashion, be healthy, sound and strong of body because it's a happier way to be, a more stable way to be, but you cannot become a rock, you cripple yourself. You cannot be the leaf in the wind, be in between. a twig or a brach or something less extreme.

/pol/ are a bunch of retarded fucking mongoloids and dopes and drifters. the 'happening' has been lusted over for a decade because they think it'll change the status quo, they literally are just desperate for a reshuffling of the deck to take the random odds that they might be higher up this time.

Fuck em, fuck 90% of posters on this site.

Nietzsche is a trembling little pseudointellectual chud by the way. Muh void. Get the fuck over your despair. The void is chill as fuck and here for a good time like us.

Stop being a try hard, stop doing the boomer larp. Just find art, a simple life and sustenance and gather in your harvest from there. Understand I am responding in kind.

The boomer legacy is highly damaging because never before and nor likely after will anyone ever get such prosperity and reward for absolutely no worth or effort at all. It was likely an anomaly.

We are coming to terms with living how most of humanity always lived, in a period of great 'stagnation' (not necessarily a negative).

A lot has changed, tech has changed massively, society isn't the same. BUT. None of it has changed for the last 15 years. AI is a joke and it won't achieve anything profound.

This is the state of play for the next run of decades and I see it as nothing worse or better than what has gone before

If you wanna get kids and fuck it's very very very easy. If that's it, you'll get it. You want everything.

>B-b-b-b-ut great great grandfather herbert had-

SHUT THE FUCK UP HE DIDN'T HAVE ANYTHING.

He toiled and broke himself endlessly. He had not a minute or moment for introspection or to plot his aspirations or 'self-realization'

You want to bring that up? Then fine. That's all people did. They fucked. They popped out far too many children and then they lived in indentured servitude to that gaggle for life.

Again, the boomers having that AND having everything else is an anomaly you won't find anywhere else in history and so you are free to pursue your fulfilment as any other period. But understand that you pursue one and one alone just as has always been the way.

Is it family, is it self, is it indulgence, is it experience, is it struggle, is it comfort?

The only crisis is the boomer mindfuck.

>sees a horse get whipped
>cries like a pussy
>has a breakdown
>somehow get included in the philosophy of unyielding manliness
Bruh, if you don’t learn to sometimes bend, you’ll break in stronger winds than these.

>>40966589 (OP)
I recommend this book to you, it is written by a priest but it is very interesting:

https://archive.org/details/achievingpeaceofheart/page/n3/mode/1up

>>40966589 (OP)
You have a paradigm problem. As a real man, I don't give a flying fuck who says they're in charge or what I can and can't do. I don't require permission or validation from anyone to exist. If I am prohibited from something, I will find a way to do it anyway with no one being the wiser. Fuck this weak ass prison planet, and fuck the Demiurge. I will not be denied my birthright.

>>40966932
>most likely to end up in prison and made a bitch

>>40966589 (OP)
I haven't read nietzsche i just skimmed through his ideas but from what i understand this wasn't what he was talking about, true will is beyond just motivation, austerity is saying no to bad habits despite hardship not larping or just torturing yourself for awhile that does get exhausting, it's not practical, neither larping as manly so those aren't virtues really feeling like an alien is the first step if you don't want to be a common man or consider yourself an overman or whatever, being human is a struggle, complaining about external circumstances is an excuse for your own faults and failings or atleast you should blame yourself first if you want to be better, u need to have full responsibility.

I do feel you though i've been through the same self improvement pipeline and alot of zoomers did so i'm not better in any shape or form if anything my circumstances might be worse or maybe im more of a loser but that's my opinion take it or leave it

>>40966645
Death is but a construct of time.
I never asked to be the main character.
You want to know the truth?
I didn't expect this role to be REAL.
I prayed for clarity to even start a church,
(and got two signs; first time asking for a sign).
God made it so that it is MORE TERRIFYING to keep questioning my identity in vain, than to accept who I am for what I am.

That is the motherfucking truth.

>>40966846
>everything I don't like to hear is demoralizing
why are normgroids like this

>>40966589 (OP)
>/pol/
> frequents the most toxic board on the site
> hangs out with the most negative, stupid, and ugly people
> wonders why he's exhausted

Stay away from the source of pollution and evil, and your strength will return.

>>40966827
Then I guess you should kill yourself to spare the rest of us your incel whining. Your head is fucked, thats such a load of crap lmao. It's like a reverse disney movie

>>40967426
>long words are scary but cringy buzzwords are ok
why are frogposters like this

>>40966589 (OP)
absolutely no one ever cares or benefits from hearing you feeling sorry for yourself, anon. Grow tf up and quit your crying

>>40966589 (OP)
Cringe and gay.
Fight for what you want!
You don't actually want to be the Overman. You want to be a little girl and have daddy Nietzsche tell you what to do. But the true Overman IS the daddy.
You must break out!
You must break out of the idea of life, of the world, as being a train track. All train tracks lead to Auschwitz. You must WALK if you want to go somewhere
You must break out! You must break out, or break.

Grow a garden.
You can buy nut trees for like 8 bucks a piece. Go put some plants in the dirt.

Great news. You can either be whiny bitch about everything being a lie or move and live your life at will

>>40967860
Don't tell me what to do

>>40967476
/pol/ should be permanently stickied with the 'meetup' photos from that place so the vulnerable can see who they're dealing with.

>>40966589 (OP)
>Lockstowns
>I'm fine with at 24

LMAO

>>40966589 (OP)
This life is essentially a snuff film for God to whack off to. He loves the smell of burning flesh, blood being split and human sacrifice. Ever seen those monkey torture videos that used to do the rounds? You are the monkey and God is the one watching.
>inb4 some Christian cope about muh fallen world (which God created to fall given he made the fucking place and is so called all knowing)
That is part of the torture, knowing it could be so much better but it isn't.

>>40966589 (OP)
>was my path to becoming what can only be referred to as Nietzsche's Overman.
No you were not, not only do you not have the capacity to understand that concept, you don't know how to measure yourself relative to it.
You are a cooked normie doomer.
You've seen through the shit known as ((civilization)) but haven't set your sights on something that will enable you to sublimate your despair into something worthwhile

>>40966589 (OP)
Happy is as happy does.

>>40966589 (OP)
Yeah that happened to me then I found God
True willpower comes from the inspiration of the Holy Spirit not from the desires of the flesh

>>40966589 (OP)
/pol/ is a cancer, the sooner you leave it the better.

>>40966756
>>40966764
>itt: Anon is mad because his crush got her guts pounded by a Brit.
Cheer up old bean. You can have my sloppy seconds.

>>40966827
This is why you can’t find a woman. You’re pathetic.

>>40966615
>>40966621
> let me tell you what masculinity is and how you should act
Silence, whores.

>>40966882
> not having empathy
That’s niggerdom and jewry. Loving animals is masculine and Aryan.

>>40971925
>s-s-silence w-whores
apparently some incels told you first

>>40966589 (OP)
>Only options are to smoke, drink, do drugs, gamble
>Only option
You're just a retarded loser if you see that as your only option in this life
Life is full of pain, either endure and rise above it or be rolled over by it like the weak dog you are

>>40966589 (OP)
>im 24, it's over
Lockdowns and learning the truth about normalcattle, jews, and the scam of liberal democracy is hard on you.

The important thing I'd like to impart is that life is not a linear experience. Only those with the right genetics, upbringing, etc experience life in this manner, and that is a small number. I am 32 years and old and only just now feel like I've parsed out the entire truth of things, as well as gotten past my trauma of having slobbering retarded gen x'er parents who traumatized me from a young age and only led me astray (because they themselves are led astray, as they were by their parents, and so on).

Whatever crisis of meaning/spirit/will you are experiencing can only by overcome by going through it. It's a very tall order, but you must undergo this suffering now that you've found yourself in it. Sure it feels not fair, and you wish you'd been born into better circumstances, but those people born into great circumstance most of the time do miss out on something spiritually, and often lack wisdom. It sounds like cope, but it's true.

Just keep moving forward. Seek the truth in all things. Discern fakery. Repent and align yourself with Christ. You're here so you may as well.

>>40966848
>amor fati
underrated post

>>40966675
>wars
Nobody is taking this bait other than nafotroons who think zelensky is a real president.

>>40966848
Based post. It is always the pseudointellectual staunch materialistic that worship Nietzsche that don't understand anything. There is very little substance in Nietzsche's work. He is mostly just larp incarnate.

>watch The Sopranos
>start theorising on the cocaine trade and how they transport it across lines
>decide they probably use the Coca-Cola company, 'cause coke, geddit?
>transport it in liquid form
>separate it across lines
>probably use fast food chains or something
>decide it's probably Carl's Jr because that's the only reason they've survived in Australia and there's a Carl's Jr right next to a Bunnings near me so the Carl's Jr has a healthy supply of dry wall to make the powder
I would say I should be a cop, but I'd be too good at my job and get killed.

op here thanks for all the replies but i've decided to become a woman! xx

>>40966589 (OP)
You are confusing Life, and Success, with what other people tell you that they are.
Find your own Truth.

>>40972553
Could this be a troll? But mirth required ahead