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The problem is that any and all genuine spiritual contact is nearly indistinguishable from schizophrenia / psychosis / manic attacks.
The entire /x/ board is an example of this.
Some are obsessing over delusional patterns that talk in their imagination.
Others are obsessing over genuine voices that appear as delusional patterns.
Its a spectrum.
I've done the work but to hand you my personal grimoire would read like a psychosis experience. And in many ways it was.
Until the voice started saying things I couldn't possibly know and came to be true.
So here's my best advice: Obsession feeds everything. You have to be so obsessed with the work that the work becomes obsessed with you.
Then you have to find a way to healthily contain the obsession and prevent yourself from ending up in a hospital ward.