I get an instant surge of negativity that hurts my mind, every time i try to be creative or do something with my imagination which i personally identify with or get a lot of pleasure from, like something that will fulfill myself, like... a goal or a way to go. A bad situation that forces itself in whatever situation i create in my mind as if it was preventing me from doing something, it appears as a reflex every time i get very empathic or open minded, like yielding to something. It appears to be some mechanism to keep me grounded or preventing me from finishing whatever i would like to do.
sounds like you should do a heckin autopsychosurgery
