Thread 41085971

I've been purposefully watching gore videos and hardcore pornography while hitting a DMT vape to see what happens to my psyche

So far, It's definitely made me more mentally resilient + desensitized (which can either be a good thing or a really bad thing i guess)

I chose DMT as my psychedelic of choice for this experiment because it is fast acting, I can have it pretty regularly without tolerance buildup, and also it puts my body into a relaxed meditative state. I'm taking just enough to not break through (I already tried breaking through with the gore and porn, it doesn't affect anything and just ends up being your typical DMT breakthrough.

Anyway, ask me any questions

Also wanted to note this experiment occasionally includes harsh noise/power electronics and my own bloodletting

>>41085971 (OP)
most mentally stable /x/ poster

>>41085971 (OP)
>I'm taking just enough to not break through
Whats the point then? How are you going to test your experiment without breaking through? Taking any amount below breaking through just feels like the comeup of a mushroom trip for like 10 minutes. I feel like youve never actually had a break through because youre not speaking like someone that has

Imagine if life here on Earth was a terrorist attack and all the stars were a bomb meant just for you, on DMT

>>41085986
Getting shot like a rocket through a tunnel into hyperspace and popping into another world makes zero sense if I'm trying to also do something within reality, read the rest of the paragraph you quoted

Also its pretty fucking easy to take just enough to be able to edge the breakthrough, it last like a very DECENT mushroom trip for 15 ish minutes and kicks in fast, like a mule i dont have to wait for it to fuckin start working before i get to work

Unless you can suggest a different psychedelic i can use frequently and daily without tolerance buildup

also what is "speaking like someone who has taken DMT" to you faggot . you are faggoted cringe for pigeonholing faggot.

>>41085971 (OP)
I regularly watch alex jones on shroomz.
doesn't make me crazy either.

>>41086011
Pipe down kid, you clearly never had dmt once in your life or at the very least youre not competent enough to know how to break through. You sound retarded but ig thats just part of ur troll persona

>>41086107
Ive done solo megadoses of almost every drug under the sun for legitimate shamanic purposes and made journal entries about my progress in the art

You sound like a new age stinky dreadlocked mandala tatted faggot. Go get high off your own aids

>>41086011
There are shrooms vapes now, please don't be a degen drug addict, please. I'm only recommending you that because it may be less detrimental than you taking DMT often.

>>41086146
Whatever you say mr "im taking enough to NOT break through" pussy lol. At least pretend youre +18 if youre gonna post here. And save the spacing for when youre back on reddit

>>41086146
> Ive done solo megadoses of almost every drug under the sun
Does your dad work at nintendo bro?

>>41086107
Aye you're prob right tho, maybe DMT isn't the best choice for this project, i could try it with 2C-B or mesc actually since that has almost zero tolerance buildup . DMT has a tolerance build as a tryptamine but its small
>>41086174
You sound proper low test

>>41086157
Im a professional drug addict not a degen
Also nah its not one of those shroom carts. It has the leathery old boot in a damp attic classic DMT taste

misread ur post.

DMT is fast-acting which is why its sold on me as the tool of choice here.

Shroom carts r like 4-HO-MET right? Dont know, metocin is too stimmy and partylike for me. I need immediate dread

>>41086194
>>41086199
I have never taken shrooms carts before, but I look forward to doing so. I have taken shrooms, 1.5 g, and then 2.5 g and both were wonderful. Taking too much of psychedelics may be bad for your health, that's why I recommended a shrooms cart instead of DMT often. Actually how about we switch to weed completely? Weed is wonderful, I use it often, it's my favorite drug.

>>41086209
Weed's literally the most demonic psychedelic you can take (its worse than datura because datura at least is blatantly dangerous) . Whole entire thing about weed is slow burn A24 destruction of your soul without u realizing it at all you're convinced its good for you and then you spread your plague to others. Zero progress because your new weed idea of progress is actually destruction

Besides that, idk if shroom carts are actually shrooms, im prettt sure its shroom analogs like metocin or miprocin and they feel different to how shrooms feel so dont expect that when u do take em

>>41085971 (OP)
What you fail to realise is that psychedelics like such keep acting for days after use. Just because you don't see instant results in 15 minutes, doesn't mean you won't see effects months or years later. Not sure if desensitisation is your goal here, but you'll be getting a whole load of extras with it eventually. I know because watching porn, horror and gore on acid was my fave way to trip for a while.

To do this continually is absolutely foolish.

>>41086474
what sort of "extras" did you receive?

>>41085971 (OP)
>mentally resilient
you can’t even hold down a job

>>41086146
>Ive done solo megadoses of almost every drug under the sun for legitimate shamanic purposes and made journal entries about my progress in the art
>You sound like a new age stinky dreadlocked mandala tatted faggot. Go get high off your own aids
Both of you are clearly enlightened beings vibrating at a higher frequency than the benighted masses.

Dude just tell us what you observed and if you received any fascinating insights.

>>41086562
Unhealthy obsession with weird mix of porn, gore and horror. Stopped tripping all together, for years now, and am working on being attracted to normal again. Also, once you stop doing psychedelics, your rational mind starts to try and rationalise the effects, and for me at least, it meant looking for reasons wtf was wrong with me - the "oh yeah this is because I tripped to weird shit" explanation wears thin, and from there on I got more severe depressive episodes, weird thought connections when watching movies, news, etc, yadda yadda and so on.
This is just an advice from some random on a shizo board, so I don't expect it to land. I went in psychedelics with plenty of care at 27yo, and then started experimenting some years later - can't imagine what long term damage this does to younger guys and gals.

Tried Salvia, Shrooms, Super Potent Weed, the best one was a trip. A bit of Opium thank God It wasn't so bad. Did AAA really quick. No different than alcohol in my opinion! Alcohol is the second most addicting after Opium. Adderral is garbage. There are better alternatives-

>>41086478
Trash@
>lots of street credit.

>>41085971 (OP)
Let's be friends

>>41087868
Who watches gore high? You must be a very evil person.

>>41086017
>>41086194
No just too flip them off. Unfortunately being FED is too much pay too be considered just a government job. Golden toilets? ?

>>41085971 (OP)
Desensitization isn’t resilience it’s a coping mechanism. Those negative feelings are just being built up. You’re essentially MKULTRAing yourself, turning yourself into a tightly coiled spring of violent thoughts that will be unleashed by some sort of traumatic event in the future, could even be something as simple as a car accident.
If you want mental resilience try fasting, hunger is our strongest urge.

OP back

>>41086474
>>41087868

My goal here is an alchemical process
I want to enter complete oblivion and come out unscathed

Also yea its quite moreish for some reason. Weird. I am already quite demented from how much evil I've already observed in this world since I was a child so i doubt it'll mess me up any further than I already am naturally. I'm actually seeing benefits from this really

Interesting to hear someone else doing something similar. Post moar in this thread

>>41086478
You're correct

>>41086630
You're a slave regardless

>>41085971 (OP)
for what purpose?

>>41088956
I'd rather MK Ultra myself before the CIA has the chance to do it to me

The point of this isn't desensitization it's self-observation of my emotions and thoughts while in the most negative, lowest possible frequency domain I can create. I also feel like while I'm residing in that low frequency theres a lot of untapped alchemical potential which cannot be done in any other state than that

Also if anyone has any suggestions on what else I can add to lower myself further into darkness let me know

>>41087047
I've both cried profusely at the depravity of man, also entered a kind of rabid dog state where i felt my own Id with some form of bloodlust foaming at the mouth really getting into it at one point. One interesting thing was my unconscious mind repeatedly throwing out demented, negative connotation words like a mantra, it was like machine gun firing them out without me able to control it. Overall feeling of sinking endlessly throughout my body

>>41089295
Same reason david blaine does shit i guess

>>41085971 (OP)
>I've been purposefully watching gore videos and hardcore pornography while hitting a DMT vape
now thats what i call edgy
enjoy becoming a murderous tranny

>>41085971 (OP)
Ime dmt is very numbing to immediately external stimuli unlike other psychs which intensify, the empathogenic properties are also very removed and distant almost connecting you to something massive and all encompassing(and maybe internal) rather than what you’re currently experiencing or who you’re around

Porn is probably fine, but Id advise against watching gore on mushrooms or acid lol

>>41089378
Like how if you listen to music on lsd it’s orgasmic, but dmt just drowns it out with the comeup buzzing and I don’t think Ive ever heard what I was listening to during a breakthrough

use mdma to watch gore or mushrooms for porn
dmt is gay and fake

>>41089378
>>41089387
I'm edging the DMT, not breaking through.
To be honest though I think 2C-B might be the best option here and I might have to cop some just to see how that goes.


>>41089400
Can't be fucked with the serotonin depletion. This is something im doing in consistent sessions until the tolerance builds up too much around 1 hr in (usually about 3 or 4 DMT edges) so MDMA is a no-go. 2C-B is pretty mdma-like though so again maybe i should swap

I'd love to try DMT but I have terrible anxiety and paranoia, and schizo thought for weeks after just smoking weed. It would destroy me

Yeah with 2c-b I could do way longer sessions with barely any tolerance build-up, I could binge the shit, and it has a synthetic fucked up nasty kinda bodyfeel to it as i recall

problem is that its not even close to being as powerful as DMT psychologically, and the comeup is dogshit.

I need something that rapes my brain just enough that I am still within reality but mentally fucked, with a low tolerance build and relatively fast comeup

I dont think TMA-2 works similarly even though its still a phenethylamine. Would be perfect if it did lol,its fucking dysphoric as

>>41089499
If you have anxiety and paranoia from weed stay the fuck away from psychedelics in general. Some people are built for em some people aren't
Considering how integral shamans were in tribal societies im pretty confident its based on genetic build

>>41089499
Less likely than other longer acting psychs imo, you’re back as fast as you go (once your back at least, time dilation and all)
Ive gotten paranoid delusions on acid and weed but never dmt

>>41089569
>>41089571
yeah I'd never try any of it. I guess I have peasant peon genetics

>>41089276
You’ve willingly made yourself a slave to gore and porn retard. You have no mental resilience, you are an oblivious burden to those around you. Stop abusing drugs and get a job.

>>41089499
You can try having just one little puff of it because it lasts such a short length of time, what will happen is your body will be immediately relaxed and chilled out, everything will get quiet and you'll get some slight visuals

Then when u get comfortable with that, move to taking 2 overlapped, strong hits of it, you'll see the mechanical tunnel / portal in the center of your vision with grinding fractal patterns over it, and a ringing in your ears. This is where OP is basically

If you can take 3 deep hits of it that should likely get you to a breakthrough

>>41089630
that is tempting but I finally have a good job, I can't afford to ruin it with a psychotic episode

>>41089622
You're a slave

Saying I have no mental resilience and that I'm a burden to people around me and that I have no job, you're building a little fictional character in your head based off of your own projected insecurities. You have never met me IRL, you don't know what I've accomplished and what I've done for people

>>41089669
Not that guy but what are you trying to build up resistance to and why?

>>41085971 (OP)
I think that might be how you get processed, dude.

>>41089669
Gonna cry about it? Doing drugs to build mental resilience is the most pants on head retarded thing I have heard of in years.

>>41089276
Godspeed and good luck, like I said my advice isn't likely to land. Hope you find what you seek

>>41089896
not "doing drugs to build mental resilience" and you know that since you blatantly oversimplified very purposefully

I refuse to accept you actually think thats what the entirety of this is about. You're a nigger

this is nigredo, the first stage in the creation of the great work

wishing you luck OP

>>41090196
>great work

He's trying to make a pee pee stone isn't he?

Absolutely disgusting.

>>41089973
Read the title of your thread. You’re not playing with a full deck of cards. Stop raping yourself.

>>41089622
Doesn't work like that nigga if ur aware enough psychedelics work exactly the opposite way.

>>41089669
So what have you done for people?

What are your favorites to play. Some Atrax might be appropriate

>>41085976
>>41091389
refering to this

in dental school we dissected cadavers
watching it online is not the same as irl anon
1st hand experience is the true way to 'desensitize' thats why the real psychopaths attain it through murdering a prostitute

>>41085984
kek

based psychonaut anon. Now, make sure that this drug is safe to take repeatedly. I don't want to moralfag, but you know that these substances are controlled for a reason. The other anons giving advice have good intentions.

>>41091444
no one gives a shit tooth man. do you think anyone here goes to school?

find reading about this stuff interesting since I can't do it myself. Too much mental insanity in the family and have had psychosis before from lsd, took me a year to recover from. Good luck OP, don't become a monster

>>41089367
Just get a retail job, bitch.

>>41085971 (OP)
>to see what happens to my psyche
You should rather ask yourself what was wrong with your psyche before, that you even came up with this stupid idea of traumatizing your brain in this way.

>>41085971 (OP)
You're going to give yourself permanent anhedonia or even schizophrenia if you don't stop, dumbass. You're literally frying your brain into overdrive and tarnishing your receptors. The 'desensitization' you're describing is a prototypical shadow warning you of what's to come. Not too late yet, but seriously stop if you value yourself.

Gooners gonna goon

>>41086157
Those aren't real they call them shrooms vapes but it's just synthetic weed with extreme potency. Basically "Spice" vapes

>>41086011

Dummy, if you have high purity crystal DMT/5MEO-DMT to smoke then you should first buy maybe ten doses worth and explore differing levels of high via weight of crystal smoked, time you can consistently hold the noxious smoke in, etc...

THEN go to the studies done on DMT laser observations. Go on to ali baba and buy the right wave band and get other frequencies as well as further tests/experimentation. Some wavelengths are more dangerous than others. Test a color/wave range of lasers, and different prisms so you can observe both the direct beam on a backgroind simlar to what was used in the studies, then lase the surface directly with said lasers and observe any results. Use identical lasers split/reflected/refracted with a couple different prisms onto the surfacw used with every test. Again observe and report. Do this with differing wavelengths and repeat. BEWARE staring at a lased surface with a powerful enough lasers/this goes double for the particularly damaging wavelengths(UV, Infrared, etc...) .

I would also do these tests observing the lased surface and beams themselves with setups requiring the right class of eye protection and see if the eye protection or power/wavelength changes the results. Ut would also be interesting to study novel tryptamines like ibogaine as well as the major phenylthylaminee like E and the classic phenylthylamine psychoactives found in Peyote.

Actually i would highly recommend against entheogens/hallucinogens/deleriants, especially in the times we are living in. I fear their use will only become more dangerous with the passing of times we are currently living in. Stay safe guys and protect yourselves with Christ.

I would say though of all studies done on hardcore tryptamines the observation of unique data read within laserbeams and lased surfaces is very dascinating abd should be delved into.

>The point of this isn't desensitization it's self-observation of my emotions and thoughts while in the most negative, lowest possible frequency domain I can create.
By deliberately curating your experience in a way that’s negative and nasty, you’re missing the whole point which is to learn.
>I'm residing in that low frequency theres a lot of untapped alchemical potential which cannot be done in any other state than that
That’s black magic OP, and it’s not worth the trouble. If you work from that low frequency state of being, with whatever you’re trying to manifest will come some unintended and probably dangerous consequence serving to balance it.

>>41086219
THC is fascinating. It gives you the tools to read people, letting me make out with a girl without the anxiety, but it'll temporarily take your soul. I won't smoke it again, I'd smoke DMT a thousand times before weed.
>>41089499
Probably shouldn't do it. Every trip was different, but I consistently felt like I was trying not to tip the boat and not tip over from all the "frames", even if I let myself go. It still felt like drowning. Still a lot more enjoyable than weed.

>>41089367
>>41092792

This man stay away. Also my post >>41092741
is stupid. The observations might be fascinating but these psychoactive substances in our day and age especially are bad news. This is exponentially made worse if you live a life of habitual sin and fear.

Do not dwell in the "low vibration states". This shit is not what new agers say it is. It is both simpler and more complex. Essentially dwelling in that demonic evil will scar your soul and you sre in some way joining yourself to sin and the misery of sin and by giving into the preternatural lusts you are embedding yourself in it. Stop! All that remains hidden will be exposed to the light and Jesus Christ will judge all. Stop focusing on yourself and start organizing your life. Paul's epstile says it best im paraphrasing but along the lines of 'whatever is good, whatever is lovely, whatever is beautiful and true dwell on these things'. Jesus is coming and time is running short. I remember fedoras used to use the latin carpe diem or seize the day. I think scripture says it better: ' redeem the time, for the days are evil'.

>>41092888
I should rephrase, DMT felt like soft uncomfortable tentacle sex while weed was like a hellish flip-book frame effect with medusa raping me in the ass which would sound nice on paper.

>drugs thread
>not even 20 posts in it already devolves into muh more experimented than u faggotry
yall are pathetic
and as always just wish to remind the "Ive done megadoses of every drugs under the sun >:) " anons that this doesnt make you special. If anything it just tells that you have an underdevelopped central nervous system. People used to have life-changing breakthrhough on low dosages. Meanwhile you're 30-something and shitposting online about how much of an honorable wizard you are because you can ingest doses that'd make a horse go crazy and come out of the experience unscathed. congrats on having for a central nervous system a literal hemp rope loosely connected to your brain jello. I'm sure them calcified nerve endings must totally help you in real life.

as for op, you're going to permanently alter yourself negatively, overstimulating the Id, desensibilizing yourself to everything and especially human connection and love, and frying your brain as bonus. Picture yourself in ten years explaining to the girl you're trying to date that its actually okay that you got weird reactions and the reaction time of an 80 years old, and also that funerals give you boners, and that its just that you fucking fucked yourself up a little doing alchemical experiments on yourself using hardcore porn, drugs, and gore content a good while ago. It dont look too good on the paper. It dont sound good either on the theoretical aspect of it. Yall are better off just putting on a blindfold, fast and meditate for a solid week. But you wont, cause that takes effort. oopsie. Even better, want to become more mentally resillient, and in tune with your environment ? spend a years working as kitchen staff somewhere. Now you'll also make yourself useful while you cultivate strength, resillience, and hone your reflexes. Jesus christ. At what point did you think this was a good idea.

>>41086011
>also what is "speaking like someone who has taken DMT" to you faggot . you are faggoted cringe for pigeonholing faggot.
t. ESL pajeet

>>41089400
>use mdma to watch gore
why the fuck would anyone do that